Light Worker

‘Can you believe this? They are calling us gods! Angels?! Even Saint Mary?! Jesus!? Can you believe this? Why don’t they call us what we truly are - light workers?’

‘I am sure they would have called us by our real names if they were on a conscious and spiritual level to understand who we are. They need time to evolve, as we did. Do you remember when we were considered lower beings? Do you remember what we used to call our brothers and sisters? How were we once afraid of them?’

‘Oh, yes, I remember very well. But I am over these feelings now. I am happy to be where I am now. It took us a long time to reach this level, and now I would like to enjoy myself like you are doing at the moment. I hear the sound of gurgling water where you are.’

‘Yes, I am exactly by my favourite creek. I will stay here for a while. Enjoy staying on Earth.’

‘Oh, I will. They are so funny, like little children.’

Urruh continued to gaze at the running water, its crystal clear flow surrounded by grey stones and green moss. She loved sitting in this place, surrounded by the vivid colours of nature and listening to the voices of the universe. They were telling her stories that she liked to hear. The best music for the living soul. She was looking at drops falling from wet leaves, sparkling like a mirror on her pale face. This is the best holiday for her spirit. She likes this place, the presence, the spot, her life, her soul. This is her home. Somewhere in between reality and fantasy, in a dimension the human brain cannot comprehend, there existed her people, people of light— the Immaru nation. A place without time, negativity, worries; only joy, and happiness.

Urruh was satisfied with herself. She loved her friends who chose to visit Earth again, but she has decided not to go there anymore unless she was sent by her teachers. She reached a level where she could choose, make her own decisions, and create her own plans for the future. Even though she was in a higher position, she respected the decisions of her teachers in every way. However, as she reached the point where she could make decisions about her future plans, she needed time to finalise her last decision.

She was a creature of light, an all-knowing being, existing in the physical realm with a physical body at the highest level of her existence in an unearthly frequency. Time no longer existed for her. She passed all her universe exams. She learned all the secrets of the universe and all its laws, resisted all temptations, and found peace within her soul. All she possessed were love, logic, answers, and forgiveness. She enjoyed peace of mind, tranquillity of her soul, and harmony with her body. She has travelled to every corner of the universe that her soul could reach while her Immaru body patiently waited for her at home. She had been away from home for a long, long time, and now, when she wanted to enjoy the reality she chose, her teachers were asking her to make a decision. She understood that her teachers had been in her position in the past, and they didn’t regret their decision. They said it was the most beautiful decision they had made, bringing her into their lives. But Urruh enjoyed her current status, and knowing what is expected from her and where this decision will take her, she hesitated to move forward. She will not be pressured by anyone, and she knows that it is something she has to accept sooner or later–but not yet, not now. The music of the nature she was listening to was so healing, lifting her into a higher dimension. Not now… not now...

‘Teacher, do I really need to be at this gathering?’

‘Yes, we need you there.’

‘You all have everything you need to make decisions that will be best for us.’

‘No, we don’t have it, and you know that. Why are you always so restless when you have to come with us to gatherings?’

‘Because the place is making me tired. I lose a lot of energy and struggle to keep my spirit up when I go there. And those creatures... Ah, those creatures are making me so tired.’

‘Don’t you feel love for them?’

‘I do love them, but I also love my pets at home.’

‘But those creatures, whatever you call them, are on our planet too. What makes them different there?’

‘They are our guests; we tolerate them here. We accept all of their faults and bad manners here, and I accept them as they are. I accept them on their planets as well when they are there, but I don’t feel the same when I move into their territory. I feel like someone will steal something from me.’

‘You know that they are not thieves. They have chosen to live in a different way. To utilise talents, belongings, and physical bodies, they live in various ways, but they are still spiritual beings. In the end, we all end our circles at the same spot. Perhaps at a different time and in a different way.’

‘I believe that time is what makes me feel insecure when thinking about them. And their bodies?! They use them. I don’t like that at all.’

‘Don’t you love your body?’

‘I love my body very much, and this is why I have a deep respect for it.’

‘However, you don’t use it. You know that we can accomplish so much more if we utilise it.’

‘I can accomplish tasks without relying on my physical abilities. I can lift materials, I can build, I can travel, I can learn, I can teach, and I can protect myself and others. What else should I need a body for?’

‘How about multiplication?’

‘Teacher, I haven’t made a decision yet.’

‘You will not lose your spiritual level, only your hierarchical position. You will simply swap priorities and duties. We need more of you here. For a brief period, you achieved this status. You were very quick, and this is exactly what we need.’

‘You will have me in the spiritual realm. You know that if you need me, I will always be by your side. I don’t want to be caught in both worlds, and I don’t like the physical world. It is very painful.’

‘I brought you into our world and sent you to educate yourself across the universe. I was worried that you would have to face all your challenges, but I knew you would pass all your exams. After all, is there any other way than to take exams and go home? I knew that sooner or later, you would come back to us, to our home and be a part of us. I always knew you would go far and reach your true potential. You did this now. You are free. Don’t you think it would be nice to share the light of your soul with others as well?’

‘Teacher, not all creatures of the universe have the same kind of soul. They do not have the same understanding or the same needs.’

‘No, dear. Not all creatures of the universe have the same standing point on the meaning of the soul.’

‘I don’t feel safe among them.’

‘They will not steal anything from you.’

‘They will drag me back to a lower level, teacher. This is what scares me the most.’

‘If this is the case, if you are uncertain of your status level, I encourage you to challenge yourself. You have to come with us to this gathering. No negotiation.’

“Urruh, What have you done to yourself?” She screamed at herself silently. “Your teacher is your creator, but your teacher is also your judge and examiner. You should not have said that you feel fear. You have just condemned yourself to more physical misery.”

Standing behind her teachers, alongside other adepts, in the Planetary Council of Solace amidst various species, Urruh kept her head down, burdened by the guilt of not keeping her deepest secret. As she tried to blend into the background among the other beings, she recognised someone who had been a part of her past life. Past life! What irony! She has to love all the struggles she had in her past life. Her teachers never gave her a chance to hate it. It was just an exam that she successfully passed. “Accept it! These beings, these lower creatures, have also been your teachers in your past life. They said, “Accept it” too.” All the misery they gave her, she has to endure now. Countless obstacles and challenges, ups and downs, all to teach her how to make the right decisions. But it wasn’t only for the decision’s sake; it was the shaping of her soul. She didn’t like that back then, and she doesn’t like that now either. Was she a fraudulent adept? This thought crossed her mind. She looked around; this was not her thought. This is a message from someone in the crowd. She looked around and met someone’s eyes. All of these beings had the same humanoid shape with different body variations, but they shared the same spiritual ability to communicate with each other on a mental level. Some of them could communicate using their bodies or their voices, while others relied on their mental abilities to produce voices. However, when they needed to communicate with all members of the Council, they utilised a shared communication ability.

“Fraudulent adept!” This thought came from someone in the crowd. Urruh was genderless while in the physical realm, looking more feminine in appearance. The being sending the message appeared more like a human man. In the language Urruh used to communicate on her planet, gender didn’t exist because there was no physical concept of gender in their world. As she lived among all these planetary nations, races, beings, and creatures, she was aware of genders, reproduction, and the emotions of love and hate. She refused to think about that in her own world. She felt nothing but love for others, but this love was of a spiritual nature. She viewed physical love as animalistic, primitive, dirty, and an act of soulless beings with base desires. It was a part of her past, a life she was a part of. Something she wishes to forget. Since her uprising, she was afraid to interact with beings who could cause her descending. The thought that came into her mind caused exactly this. Was she so uncertain of her position and her worth that she was afraid of thoughts entering her mind?

“Fraudulent adept!” The message from this humanoid being came to her mind once more. This time, she felt his feelings: hate. She replied to this message.

‘Why are you hating me? Did I hurt you in any way?’

‘You cannot hurt me. Look at you, neither a man nor a woman. Maybe an androgynous woman? You have no ability to hurt me. You call superior to me. Look at you. A woman. How can a woman be superior to a man like me?’

‘Why would you wish to hurt me? Why these hurtful thoughts toward me?’

‘You call yourself superior to us. You call us lower beings, your pets. You set up rules for us. Tell us what is good and what is bad for us. You think you know everything. You always patronise us. Animals are better treated than we are treated because of you.’

‘Do we really do this to you? And what harm could be done if we teach you to distinguish right from wrong?’

‘We die because of you! We disappear because of you. Other nations are fighting with us because you incite them to give us a lecture. We constantly have wars with others because of you. They call us savages, primitives. Our worlds are developed, if not equally, then beyond theirs. We cannot exist because of you.’

‘Perhaps you need time to learn, just as we do. Perhaps you need to struggle and face death in order to transcend and live as higher beings.’

‘Why should your path be the only path? Why should your thoughts be our thoughts? Why should our ambitions align with yours? Why should your world become our world?’

‘Because we carry the secret of the universe. We are the only beings who know the truth of existence.’

‘You act as lords of the universe and existence.’

‘Perhaps we are that.’

‘No, you are not!’

‘We are lightworkers and light teachers. We are carriers of all good and positive, love, care, and compassion. This is why we are called whites.’

’Anyone who is not on your side is considered bad. No gratitude that your importance comes from our side.’

’Our value is always appreciated and accepted. We don’t need you to act on our behalf.’

‘We don’t need you to teach us how to live. Keep your ambitions away from us, our people, and our planet.’

‘I am sorry, I do not have the authority to do that.’

‘Are you aware of why you are here?’

‘I accompany my leaders. They need our opinions to make their decisions. Not that they are unable to make decisions without consulting us, but this is how we govern our worlds - old and young working together.’

‘This Council has convened to make a decision regarding our existence in the universe. And you don’t know anything about us.’

‘I know enough to have an opinion about your world. I have been following you long enough to know.’

‘I know you, Urruh, too! If my world suffers because of you, you will also face your deepest fears.’

Shivers ran down her body. This feeling was forgotten for a long, long time. Her name was a secret, known only to her teachers. Her name was a mathematical mark on her being and following, on her body as well. It is a binary code that was given to her at the moment of her existence. It was as if her identity number was connected to this code name. In her world, she was simply called a friend. Only her closest companions knew her name. It was a right and a privilege to know all about her. Who is that creature that he knows so much about? He knew her name, so he knew all about her: her past, present, and future. But the creature disappeared from her site. It wasn’t enough time to warn her teachers, as she had to act quickly. She established a connection with other fellow adepts of her world, asking to find the creature in the crowd. She gave them a mental picture. They trusted her and left the presence of the teachers. In the moment of their absence, the teachers were confused and made a decision on the Council that had a deep impact on the universal order. While the adepts, along with Urruh, were searching for a stranger, the teachers were unable to fully comprehend all the complexities of the universe on their own. They needed assistance from the adepts, but being alone, their decisions became confusing, vague, and incomplete. Trusting in them, the majority of Council members made the decision to eliminate the stranger’s planet. The decision stunned everyone as this had never happened before. They understood what this means. So, Urruh stopped, too. The time started again, and she heard her heartbeat. “What have you done, Urruh?! The Council made a decision to destroy the entire planet! That is not possible! That is not possible!” - She ran back to her teachers. They looked at her, confused and scared, with questions in their eyes. “Where are the others? Why aren’t you beside us? We needed you. We will also be punished.”

The decision was made. The planet of the stranger should disappear from the universe, along with everything that belongs to that planet. All the weapons available on other planets will synchronise their shooting at the planet until it disappears. Urruh and her teachers have listened to the decision, which was made after receiving input from her teachers. All caused by Urruh. For the first time, she understood how deeply her actions had impacted the existence of other living creatures. Her nation is supposed to be above these creatures. They were supposed to balance the universe. They were supposed to counsel other beings on what should be done and how peace should be established. They were teachers of universal order. But they failed. They caused the opposite. They caused the destruction of the universe and the disappearance of other living beings. They had rights, but the universe had even more rights than they had. By causing the misery of others, they brought about their own self-destruction. Sooner or later, trust in these lightworkers and peace-bringers will fail, and all the rage will turn against them.

The entire group of lightworkers gathered peacefully in a separate room of the Planetary Council of Solace.

‘What have we done? What happened? Are we not supposed to know everything? Are we not supposed to give directions to others that are good for the peace in the universe? Urruh, why did you disobey our orders? Why did you disappear? Didn’t you know what you have to do?’

‘I deeply regret everything I have caused. I am aware of everything. I take full responsibility for the situation.’

‘This will not be of much assistance. Before we punish ourselves by disappearing from the universe, we need to work together and find a solution.’

‘I was distracted from my mission. I deeply apologise and ask for your understanding in for not following our rules. I ask for mercy and forgiveness for my fellow adepts who trusted me. I know I am not worthy of my presence, and I accept the punishment.’

’Our nation needs you. If you punish yourself by disappearing from the universe, our planet and the universe will be weakened. I am afraid that our galaxy will also disappear. No planet will survive in this neighbourhood galaxy. I humbly ask for your assistance in speaking to the Council. I hope for their understanding and for them to withdraw their decision,’ one of the Adepts spoke.

‘Your idea could be promising, but we need to understand the level of commitment you have towards implementing the punishment.’

‘I will accept any decision that you and the Council make regarding the withdrawal of their decision.’

‘In this case, we will ask for a second hearing where you will be allowed to speak.’

The decision that the Council made was final; however, for some reason, they decided to listen to Urruh’s speech. They didn’t know her, but since the decision was very important, they wanted to hear every opinion on it. While speaking in front of every member, she looked at them, paying full attention, and explained what had caused her teachers’ distraction. She couldn’t help but feel unworthy of being present in that place. She felt like a naughty child, causing worries for her parents and giving childish explanations to these respected members, representatives of planets and nations. She was a soldier of her people, her nation, and her planet. She was a lightworker who ultimately did not succeed. She deeply regretted her actions and asked for the decision to be reconsidered. The council granted her wish. They asked her, in her opinion as an unworthy lightworker, what kind of decision she would make if she were in their place.

‘If I could be a part of the Council tasked with making such a difficult decision, I would act as you would. However, as none of us is equal to the creator, and none of us is a creator, we do not have the right to act as if we were. Only the creator should make decisions about existence; the rest of us should obey. None of us, as not being a creator, should work against life and existence. We are not worthy to make decisions that could harm other living creatures, regardless of who they are, where they live, or what shape they take. As we are not life-bringers, we are not allowed to be life-destructors either. We should strive to live together, finding ways to communicate effectively and avoid conflicts. This Council has proven that communication among living creatures is possible. I understand that the creator has created duality in order to comprehend the purpose of our existence. I understand that living creatures bear all the fault for not understanding the balance of duality, and therefore, all the conflict among us is happening for this reason. Ruling each other comes from an inability to understand the duality law of the universe. It is not possible to rule over each other, as it is not possible to break the law of duality. However, by balancing this law, we can bring peace to all of us, our galaxy, and our universe. I cannot exist as a lightworker without darkness. Darkness cannot exist without light. All creatures in the universe carry the struggle of deciding who to lean on. All of us are drawn to the light, but we cannot truly appreciate it without experiencing the challenges of being in the dark. Whoever lives in darkness has to understand that only their decision can stop all the challenges they face in the dark, and the light will come. We cannot hate one person and love another. We must not oppose each other. This is not a universal law. Balancing is.’

‘This is not enough to change our decision. We gave a lot of warnings to this nation. They ignored our warnings. They made decisions that had an impact on other nations solely for their own selfish benefit. They are a part of us, and therefore, they have to work with us for the benefit of the entire universe. If they jeopardise the existence of other nations and planets, we need to eliminate them. If individuals engage in constant conflicts with others, they are not deserving of existence.’

‘They are intelligent and productive creatures who have managed to construct a flawless physical form in order to overcome the laws of nature on their planet. They have the right to exist in this universe. They are not perfect. But they will be in the future. If we take away this right now, we will be facing our own failures. Consider them pioneers in material engineering, explorers of new possibilities, and builders of universal theory who can put words into practice. They fight with others because they do not understand the importance of cooperation. As my actions led to your decision, I request that you punish me instead and give them an opportunity to improve themselves.’

‘Considering that our decision is not for the benefit of the universe, our galaxy, planets, and nations, your wish is granted. We will give them another chance under the condition of if they accept our supervision. We will also request to be involved in their decisions related to interplanetary projects. Due to the confusion caused by you and your peers caused, we kindly request that your teachers make a decision regarding your future. We ask to be informed of their decision, but we will not interfere in the decision.’

The decision was made: adepts should be handed over to the ruling council of strangers as slaves, stripped of all hierarchical benefits, as unworthy creatures. They will be abandoned by their nation and forbidden from contacting, communicating, or being mentioned as members of their nations. Urruh was thinking, is this what happened to the “falling angels” in the stories she had heard while she was on Earth? No, this is not possible. She should be eliminated. This is worse than she could have imagined. She hoped to transcend her physical body and exist in a spiritual realm, perhaps even becoming a teacher. However, the idea of being caught between two “wicked” worlds, this was a fear she couldn’t shake. Her body was not solid and could change shapes. It was intangible and flexible, constantly in light. Even though she had a humanoid shape, her soul was the driving force behind it. She was a Breatharianist who didn’t have human needs. Knowing all of that, she wondered what would happen in the future. Where will she be? Who is she going to be?

***

‘Welcome to our planet! Welcome to our nation! Welcome to our world!’ One of the councillors greeted her with respect. Despite circumstances, he was genuinely welcoming guests.

‘I don’t know how I should respond to your welcome. “I cannot say it is good to be here,“’ Urruh responded.

‘Even though we found you responsible for the Planetary Council of Solace’s decision, I still have to thank you for their withdrawal of that decision. It is not what we had hoped for when we joined the Council, but we will obey their decision.’

‘You will be monitored, as far as I understood. Isn’t this something you didn’t want to do?’

‘It is better to be monitored than to be destroyed. Would you agree with this?’

‘Yes, absolutely. I don’t understand how you could push your agenda and make other leaders so furious. Are we not all in the same space?’

‘Ah, I can’t believe you don’t understand. You have the incredible ability to understand everything and everyone in the universe. Or maybe you are just engaging in an unofficial conversation with us.’

‘Yes, I absolutely understand. I apologise for using that phrase.’

‘Since you are our guest, I am wondering how we can accommodate you. Do you have any specific wish?’

‘How lovely does this word sound, guest... I am an abandoned guest, given to you as a slave. You can do whatever you wish with me.’

‘Still, we cannot do anything we want. But even if we want to, we cannot. You feel no physical pain, and it is impossible to harm you in any way. Isn’t it?’

‘I have already been punished. Not being a part of my people, my entity, my planet, my home, that is a punishment.’

’Well, I completely understand your struggle. However, we don’t need you here either. The only thing we can do is offer you up for auction. I believe we already have a buyer.’ The councillor acknowledged the presence of the stranger.

She immediately knew what had happened and why it had happened. She knew her past, present, and what would happen in the future. What she didn’t know was how this stranger was managing to evade her abilities. She was handed over to him and confined in a dark metal box without windows or light. The vehicle soon brought her to another place and placed her in a dark, pitch-black underground box. She lay on the floor. After a while, she tried to escape from that place. It wouldn’t be her first time. Her body had the ability to pass through walls, and her soul could escape through cracks and holes. But leaving her body in an unknown place was not something she would do this time. She always left it at home, but this is not her home. She was unsuccessful. The material the box was made from is not something she can escape easily either. This planet, this world, has time. She must be patient and wait for the opportune moment to take action. There’s not much to do in that box anyway. She can think. She can sing. So, this is what she did. After a long period of time, she became tired. Leaving her world always made her tired. She needed her creek, her waterfall, her forest, her sky. They had never experienced darkness in her world, and the colours of nature were so vibrant. She was fuelling her energy with high vibrations of colours and sounds of nature. Darkness had a negative impact on her. It made her tired, lethargic, and a bit sad. No matter how much she fought against these feelings, she had limits she couldn’t surpass.

A small door above her head allowed limited light to illuminate her body. A sense of hope rose within her. Time is working in her favour. No, not again. They closed the door. She lay down on the floor again, struggling with herself. She was unable to die because she had an ethereal body, and her physical body was influenced by her spiritual abilities. They both have been weak and tired.

The door was opened again, and someone picked her up and brought her into a dark room. She felt the presence of a stranger.

‘You are not so special after all. Look at you. You look like hell. Put a light in the darkness, and the darkness will dissipate. So weak... So weak... Pity.’

‘But you are so strong now!? And happy when you see that you have defeated me.’

‘This is just the beginning. You haven’t experienced the real thing yet.’

‘What have I done to make you hate me so much? Who are you?’

‘Oh, the one who knows everything doesn’t know my name?’

‘I know your name, Arahdahl. I know it very well. How long are you going to hate me?’

‘So you remembered me after all. You remember everything.’

‘I don’t remember everything, of course. But I will eventually remember.’

‘Good! So you will remember everything, including my promise to you as well.’

‘We all had different journeys. You wanted something I couldn’t give you.’

‘Is it because of your ambition?’

‘No, because of my fear.’

‘So, you escaped from me.’

“I had my own path, so you should have yours too.”

‘Have I not been good to you?’ Arrahdahl was furious.

‘We are different species.’

‘We have both been humans on Earth. We both had the same purpose. We were aware of our differences, but you let me down. You were supposed to come back with me. You decided to leave the Earth forever. Why? I lost you and could not find you until your ascent.’

‘It was such a long time ago. Why haven’t you moved on? You shouldn’t have harboured that hatred.’

‘You promised me that you would be with me in every life, in whatever form, no matter what. Do you remember that? Isn’t this enough to exist? You promised me that we would rise together, that we would support and defend each other, and fight side by side... But you let me down.’

‘That was a fleeting emotion. It should have disappeared from you by now. It disappeared from me a long time ago. I have had no feelings for you since we parted ways. It wasn’t love; it was just a short-term need.’

‘Yes, I know. You had a chance to find me. You knew where to find me amidst our lives. For you, it was only a game, an exam to pass.’

‘There were many species and entities that I both loved and hated. No one deserved my sacrifice. I lived for a higher cause. I didn’t want to waste my time. I would say I am sorry, but I am not. You have to realise your purpose in existence as well.’

‘My time stopped after you. In every life, I was searching for you. Each time I found you, you escaped from me. Not this time. You will pay your price now.’

‘I am a slave now. You can do whatever you want. I don’t exist any more. I cannot feel pain or love for anyone.’

‘Love is your essence. This is what you are made of. You will love me again.’

‘It is not what you want. I love you and others for being who you are, but I struggle to differentiate you from others. I cannot feel physical or emotional love for you or anyone else. I am done with the material world.’

‘No, you haven’t paid for everything that was done to me.’

‘You live in your own world, which is different from mine. You wanted something I didn’t. I lived for a higher cause, while you desired earthly pleasures and power. I wanted to have power only over myself, but you wanted power over others. We were different. We still are.’

‘I have to admit, it is true. I desired earthly pleasures and power. But it was you who had power over me, not the opposite. We made a promise to each other that we would take care of one another and stay together through every situation to achieve our goals. You left, but I stayed. You took a chance to become who you are now, while I remained in the material world, never straying from my true essence.’

‘We are different species.’

‘Liar!! You are just a liar!!’ - His arm swung at Urruh’s head, but it passed through her body. - ‘I could have been in your place now, together with you!! I could have been a lightworker, too. But I am not. I am stuck on this level!!’

‘We are different species. You have to understand this. We cannot serve the same cause.’

‘Liar!! You are just a selfish coward and a traitor! You found a way to escape all the pain that I have been through. And I am still going through it. I couldn’t let you complete the circle. It is not done yet. You cannot move forward without me!’

Before she could say or do anything, she found herself in a dark pit. Who knows how long she has been there? Her body and soul were growing weaker and weaker. She couldn’t fight, think, move, or beg for mercy. Someone occasionally poured water into the pit. She felt cold. This was not a good sign for her. It meant that her body was deteriorating, becoming ill, and her soul was departing. She would be stuck between worlds, unable to move forward or return. She was whispering to herself while her body shook: “It is not over yet; fight; don’t let him win; don’t lose yourself; don’t go back...”

The light came back once. Who knows how long it could’ve been? Arahdahl gave a command to his men to carry her out into the light. He was looking at her as she lay on the floor. She wasn’t alright. This is not what he had in mind. He thought she was strong enough, but she wasn’t. Her white aura vanished from her body. She looked like the weakest earthly human. She looked very unattractive, he stated. She is a lightworker, able to thrive only in the light. She is disappearing into darkness, but she will not become a worker of darkness. She is stubborn; she will not change her nature. This is not what he wanted. He wanted her to shine. He wanted her to be true to her nature. He wanted to crush her, but he also wanted her to live and be by his side. No one in his life made him feel as weak as she did, and no one could make him feel as powerful and strong as she did. No one ever made him as confused as she did. No one lifted him up as she did. No one cared for him as much as she did, but no one betrayed him like she did either. If he wasn’t connected to her, if his soul, or at least what was left of it, didn’t desire to be near her, he could have found peace and moved on. But he was stuck. He made many life circles over and over, repeating the same mistakes and failing to learn from them. He couldn’t grasp what he was doing wrong, which resulted in him being punished repeatedly. While she was with him, she served as his guide and interpreter in life. He leaned on her, trusting that everything would be alright in the end and that they would be laughing when they finished the game. However, he was left alone. She escaped.

He lifted her in his arms and carried her to the crystal-clear water. He put her body in it and waited. The sun came out, and its rays illuminated her small body. But her white aura hadn’t come yet. He was hoping for any colour, but no, nothing happened. He laid her down on the green grass, surrounded by flowers and beautiful bushes. In one hand, he held a pot, pouring fresh creek water on her face and body. He was touching her face with his hand. Her face had a dark complexion. He doesn’t remember if she ever had such dark skin, even when they were living on Earth together. They were earthly companions in multiple lives, struggling to survive, to learn, to exist, and live. But then, she decided not to enter his life, leaving him all alone. They were soldiers: simple peasants, sometimes of the same gender, sometimes of different genders; sometimes siblings, sometimes partners. They were ordinary humans facing earthly challenges. Sometimes fortunate, sometimes unfortunate. Suddenly, she left him. His soul felt lonely. He was searching for her, making a lot of mistakes and making horrific decisions that, instead of moving him forward, pushed him back. While she was enjoying the end of her journey, he was still struggling to move. It took him twice as long as her to reach his current location, but then his people ordered him to stop imitating other species and return home. He could have been more. He could have given more to his people. Instead, he is nothing more than a materialised being. His soul hadn’t evolved much since he left his planet. He was aware that he could not be equal to her, but he enjoyed her company. It was enjoyable to experience life on Earth. It was just a game. But when she left, the game was over, and everything became so serious. Selfish being!

The night was approaching, and the sun had set. He carried her in his arms and brought her inside his house. He was a highly-ranked military commander and didn’t answer to many individuals above him. He possessed great power and the ability to make decisions that had a significant impact on his people. He had a wife and children. His wife was a virtuous individual, well-suited for his social status and position. She provided him with whatever he needed, but she was also aware of his hatred and obsession with Urruh. She was jealous of Urruh, but she knew that she shouldn’t disobey her husband. She showed him respect and honoured him. He was not a soft-hearted person who would allow anyone to challenge him. Everyone respected him, including his family and children. They knew where they belonged and what limits were in front of them. He wouldn’t hesitate to eliminate them from his life and from life in general. No, they didn’t like that Urruh was on their planet and in their lives. As long as she was not in their home or sight, they tolerated the situation. They had to. Arahdahl also knew that it wasn’t right to make his wife jealous or to make his children take sides. Even though they didn’t need their parents any more, he knew that children would have their own opinions on his decision. He needed time and space to solve the issue, and despite his family knowing what was going on, they didn’t make him regret his decision. They had to wait for him to finish what he started.

It took Urruh several days to open her eyes. Arahdahl carried her body to the water, which was the cleanest, shiniest, and bluest. He did this by himself. None of his men accompanied him. Even the high priests didn’t participate in her revival. He stood by her side, gazing at her and reminiscing. For some reason, he was able to remember everything, but she had difficulties doing so.

‘I can handle your hatred because I comprehend it, but I am perplexed by your current expression.’ – said Urruh.

‘I want to hate you, but I don’t know how to keep hating you.’

‘How about loving me?’

‘I don’t know how to love you. I love my wife, my children, my people, my life. I don’t know what to do with you. You betrayed me.’

‘You could have left me in the pit. My body would dissolve.’

‘I don’t want your body; I want your soul. If your soul were to leave your body, I would never be able to find you again. And we have an unsolved issue.’

‘You can’t take my soul, and you know that. Many have tried. No one understands that this is not something one can possess. You can take someone’s mind, body, feelings, and thoughts, but their soul... that is not possible.’

‘This is the only thing I want from you. I wanted to be like you. I wanted to be your soul.’

‘Ah, Arahdahl... You have to conquer all universal laws to understand the meaning of the soul. You have a lot to learn.’

‘Why don’t you and your people share this knowledge with anyone in the universe? It would be helpful to prevent conflicts. You possess all the knowledge, yet you are selfish and refuse to teach us.’

‘It is not possible to teach this knowledge to anyone. There is no language to describe all universal laws. There are no letters to write books about it. We are the knowledgeable. It is a secret within us that we must uncover.’

‘You discovered it. Why couldn’t the rest of us?’

‘Because we are the chosen ones. We are chosen because we do not want to live in a materialistic world. We don’t want to lead or have power over anyone, possess properties or other humans. We don’t want to be superior to anyone, and we certainly do not want anyone to be above us. We cannot be leaders, nor do we want to be led.’

‘We can’t be equal because we are all unique. We all have different minds, needs, and thoughts. Some people are leaders, while others are led.’

‘Do you remember that in one of our past lives, we discovered a case of gold? We wanted to take it with us, but we decided to leave it behind because it would slow us down on our way, and we needed to run very fast. Have you changed your mind now, after so many experiences?’

‘I still think it was a mistake not to take it with us. It would have changed the course of our lives.’

‘And I think our decision not to take it was a good one. And this is why I am here at this level while you are at that level. We argued for many years about this decision and how it could have changed our lives. I have had regrets many times for not listening to you, but now I think the decision was correct.’

‘Was I always wrong in making decisions? Was I always so wrong, and you always right? Is this why you escaped? Would I slow you down if you stayed?’

‘You have changed the course of your life. I didn’t want to be anyone’s teacher. You started being a teacher, remember. You have chosen a life that puts you in a position where you can either take someone’s life or give them a life. People died because of you. Have you forgotten? I wanted to experience the power. I didn’t like it. The difference between you and me is that you enjoyed having power over other souls, just like now, and you never had any regrets about the decisions that deeply impacted their evolution. I had no choice! It was a difficult decision to choose between my own life and the lives of others, but ultimately, I chose to prioritise my own. I didn’t like it. It was painful to see how these humans abandoned the Earth. You stayed and enjoyed it. You wanted more power. From being a small dictator, you became a big one. You didn’t choose the place, the time, or the aim... The most important thing for you was to learn how to become a leader. You cannot deny it!!’

...‘We promised not to be teachers to each other, but we were. You started at first.’

‘Yes, I have. It was the wrong decision. You expected me to produce an heir, but I was unable to fulfil that expectation. Someone else gave it to you. I felt abandoned and betrayed, so I decided to take my own life. You never noticed that I left your life.’

‘I didn’t know about it... That’s true. I was fixated on my success.’

‘But this was not the first time you betrayed me. I came back to you. It was you who ended my life by pushing me down the stairs. You hated me; you couldn’t stand my soul. In my next life, I was near you and saw what you had become. A murderer, a criminal, a deceiver, a thief, a liar... I was ashamed of you. I didn’t want to be near you. You have forgotten your purpose on Earth. You were the one who left me.’

‘Where have you been? Why was our connection cut off?’

‘Did I cut it off? I asked my teacher to cut our karmic connection. I moved to another species, on other planets. Earth was not the only school and playground in the universe.’

“I tried to find you amidst circles. I couldn’t believe you left me. I kept telling myself she wouldn’t do this to me. She will find me if I don’t recognise her first. Every soul who came by, I trusted. I thought, ‘This is her. She is my soulmate.’ But no! I survived the hell on earth.”

’Didn’t you say that we promised not to be teachers to each other? That meant we wouldn’t hurt each other. I wounded your pride; you harmed my body and soul. From being soulmates, we became enemies. Look at us now! You are still trying to hurt me because you are also hurt.’

‘So now, am I being blamed for everything? No, you will not escape this time so easily. Everything we did wrong on Earth, we will make up now. If I have been a bad marriage partner, you will teach me how to be a good one? If I were a bad parent, you will teach me how to be a good one? If I were a bad leader, you will teach me how to be a good one? If I were a bad person, you will teach me how to be a good one?’

‘No! This is something you have to learn on your own. I am done. I am at the end of my cycles.’

‘No!? I know I cannot possess your soul, and I know you don’t care about your body, but your future is mine. You can’t negotiate. Whether you want to or not, you will become a Teacher!’

Urruh was a bit surprised to see Arahdahl by her side every day. His feelings have been confused, and his mood has been fluctuating from low to high. He was very clear with her. He told her everything he felt directly to her face. Sometimes, in his passionate attempt to hurt her and suppress his emotions, he would become physically abusive. However, as he swung his arm towards her, her body seemed to disperse and then reassemble. He knew about this, and he also knew that he could not physically harm her. But still, old habits remained.

He was resting his body on a marble bench with his eyes shut. Urruh didn’t know if he was asleep or lost in his thoughts. He looked so peaceful in their home, which was made of flowers, various trees, bushes, and plants. There were many birds singing and artificial lamps to mimic Urruh’s natural environment. Fountains made the sounds of running water, while the glass roof showcased the beauty of the sky.

‘Arahdahl! Do you know why we exist?’

‘No. Why?’

‘Out of Universe selfishness.’

‘Really? I thought we have to learn.’

‘Every time I came back home to my Teacher, I asked the same question. And he always told me a story.’

‘Do you miss him?’

‘Yes, I do.’

‘Can you be sad?’

‘When I do not feel love, I experience emptiness. I suppose you could label it as sadness.’

‘So, what did he tell you?’

’He was telling me the story of the universe. I don’t know who made the Universe, but out of his boredom, he made galaxies. Then, he created planets. Planets, due to their nature and position, create days and nights. The time was measured. The universe was still bored and lonely. So one day, he made us, Light workers. He was still not amused. One day, he said, ‘They are naked. I will give them bodies so I can see them.’ So we got these bodies of light. He brought us to a planet where only light existed to see us. But he couldn’t see us despite having bodies. So, the Universe decided to send us to the planet of night. We were shining there, and we were amusing the Universe for a while, but we couldn’t survive for a long time. We were dying there. He got bored again, so he decided to create light and darkness, white and black, and scatter us across different planets. At first, Lightworkers lived on the planet of light, while Darkworkers lived on the planet of night. But the Universe was not amused; he couldn’t see us, so it swapped us. Lightworkers went to the planet of night, and dark workers went to the planet of light. None of us liked that. So both groups, the light and dark workers, started escaping from one planet to another. We looked like fireflies, always jumping and escaping, trying to make things right. Sometimes, we lost time and direction, so we got lost. We were dying. The universe didn’t like it when we were lost or dead, so after a while, it got angry at us. We were no longer entertainers. We were his troublemakers. He punished us by sending us from one planet to another, asking us to create more colours. Both groups had to work together on this project. So we went looking for the most suitable planets. Light workers could thrive during the day, while dark workers at night. So, the Universe made a compromise and brought us to a planet where both night and day existed. Once we arrived on that planet, we pondered how to create more colours. The Universe has bestowed upon us intelligence, and we have had to cultivate our creativity. We have discovered how to harness the resources of the planet, including water and minerals, and have successfully cultivated various plants. Light workers worked on the project during the day, while night workers worked during the night. Our project was successful, and the result brought joy to the Universe, filling it with vibrant colours. We have managed to create a pleasant environment where we could live in peace and harmony. We didn’t escape any more, we all were happy and the Universe was happy. Just as we settled down and started enjoying ourselves, both groups, the Universe became unhappy once again. Maybe jealous of us, maybe bored again, and maybe frightened because we didn’t fear him. And maybe the Universe found that it can be amused by our fear. Who knows, but the Universe has driven us away from that planet, urging us to put in more effort, discover a suitable planet on our own, and create other entities like ourselves. We had the knowledge now. We knew what we were looking for, and we did it again. As we created flora, we also needed to create fauna. We were struggling to make both of them sustainable. In order to make them larger, we established multiplication. We didn’t know what that was, as we were made of light and darkness. The Universe made us, and together we created life. Unfortunately, we haven’t been so successful in keeping life sustainable, so we have created life cycles, multiplication, and duality. We thought, “Now the Universe will be amused and happy.” Colours are here, and new entities have arrived, but no, we still haven’t managed to satisfy it. The Universe was mad at us. How can fauna survive solely through reproduction? It needed desire, and hunger, and fear. We experimented with various shapes. The Universe ordered us to put on the suits we had made, but we refused. In return, we breathed life into them and infused them with a bit of our soul. We refused to be confined in a disposable form. The Universe was angry with us. We were united and determined to tell our creator that we had enough of this game. No matter what we did, we couldn’t satisfy the Universe. So, we refused to obey his orders. The Universe started to fear us as we gained power after disobeying his orders. We possessed intelligence, creativity, the ability to learn independently, and the desire to be united. So, the Universe had enough of us and ordered us to stay where we were. For a while, we enjoyed the freedom and our creativity, but our bodies couldn’t sustain it for long. We couldn’t go back home because we didn’t have one, and we couldn’t stay. We had to work with time and make it work for us. We experimented with different bodies and finally created a human body worthy of us. Again, to make the body and life sustainable, we created life cycles, reproduction, and duality. As both light and dark workers, have cooperated since the beginning of existence, we both have made a decision to share our lives together. And here, the fight between light and darkness begins. The ultimate goal of lightworkers was to await forgiveness from the Universe and the remission of punishment. While waiting, they were in humanoid bodies. However, the dark workers understood that bodies could bring them satisfaction and amusement, so they opposed the initial agreement. Not being able to maintain balance, the light workers started to destroy everything they had created. Dark workers went behind, mending what was destroyed, asking the Universe for attention. The Universe felt bad about the situation, so it made a decision: “Anyone who successfully passes all exams on Earth and is willing to return home can do so, but only after completing all the challenges of the Universe!”

’And so, the Universe got its own amusement! I always thought that the Universe has a wicked sense of humour.˙ Arahdahl was reflecting on his past lives.

Now that she lived in the present, Urruh asked herself, “Is this how my life is going to be?” She has been treated fairly by Arahdahl, but she felt trapped in his presence. She was unable to hate as she transformed her nature and suppressed it. No action on his part could make her suffer. Understanding this and questioning his actions towards her, he became less angry and violent. He still had this strong, leader’s, almost dictatorial character. Being constantly in her presence and influenced by her silence, he started listening to other people. He always made the final decision, and no one could oppose it. His family hasn’t been honoured by his presence, but they didn’t dare to question him. They also didn’t dare to visit Urruh. Understanding Urruh’s ability, his wife, Tarah, sent a mental message to her, asking to be seen. At first, Urruh ignored these brief calls. Messages with intense emotions persisted as time went on. Tarah was desperate, sad, angry, confused, and almost tired of life.

‘Arahdahl, I would like to visit your temple.’

‘Is it time for you to do that?’

‘Yes, it is. It is for you as well.’

‘I am doing well now. I don’t need words any more.’

‘But you are tired. You need comfort now.’

‘No, it is not me who needs comfort. Just go.’

Despite being the companion of a dark worker through her life cycles, she has never visited his home planet. In lonely moments, she visualised it based on Arahdahl’s character, but she was actually surprised by what she was seeing. Asbu nation, equal to hers, was technologically developed. While her nation used laws of nature to synchronise their presence on their planet with nature, the Asbu nation used nature to conquer weaknesses of the atmosphere for their benefit. While the Immaru nation made their homes look imaginary, Asbu architecture looked intimidating and powerful. Immaru used mild and colourful shapes of buildings, but Asbu used sharp and dark colours to glorify their existence and presence. Looking at the faces of the Asbu people, she noticed similarities in their expressions; both of them had respect for each other and took care of the weak and powerless. She was surprised to notice that both nations cared for their people and respected each other. She would never have thought they hadn’t been so different after all.

In the darkness of the temple, solitude was pleasant to the wounded soul. But this place was not a place of worship; it was a place of knowledge. Crystals kept as ornaments in their original shapes, spread across the building, were used for power supply but also for healing and meditation, in which a soul was brought to a state of acceptance, revealing the deepest secrets of the universe. Teachers of the nation, priests and priestesses sometimes gathered there to discuss the most important issues. Despite their differing opinions, the place absorbed their negative emotions and energy and transformed them into the purest, most positive, and cleanest thoughts. The sanctity of the temple emanated from an energy that radiated only goodness and positivity. There was no fear, love, or hate in the temple. It was all taken away the moment someone stepped inside. A soul took its original shape and stood naked in front of the universe. The shape of the temple was ancient, even though the technology surrounding it was unimaginative and inconceivable. It was surrounded by an invisible, energetic curtain that created a mirror effect, allowing only high priests and selected officers to enter. No ordinary people were allowed there. This place was not a place of religion, even though only the most spiritually inclined individuals were allowed to enter. It was not the place of education where the most educated could gain more knowledge. It was not the place for politics either, although sometimes politicians could enter. It was a place of wisdom and purity for those who were capable of imparting this wisdom to others. People who were allowed to enter were not chosen by anyone living but by the universe. People used to say that a temple is a place for the chosen one. And that was why it was worshipped.

Urruh’s radiant aura made her look ethereal as she stepped inside the temple. Even though her physical body had the shape of a humanoid being, her figure was gloriously unrealistic. She could walk, fly, disappear, transpose, or change shape. But she loved to be “natural,” to be seen as an equal, to have others look into her blue eyes, hear her melodic voice, and feel her gentle touch. She looked like a celestial bride, gliding in her ethereal white gown while her long, flowing hair trailed behind her. She forgot whether this is how she should be or if she has chosen to be. Her friends constantly changed their shape, but she learned not to mind their appearance. She recognised them only when their souls spoke to her.

Tarah was lost in Urruh´s thoughts and imagination, but Urruh had never encountered her soul. She was wondering if she could recognise her. She used to have the ability to recognise a person based on their appearance and then connect with their soul through their gaze. She lost this ability at this stage.

The interior of the temple was also pleasing to Urruh. She wondered if the people inside would mind her presence. They looked in her direction; they bowed down out of respect, but no words were spoken. They continued contemplating as before as if she wasn’t present. They believed that this place was worthy of a sacred soul’s presence, and everyone was welcome to be there. In the darkest corner of the hall, there was a mysterious silhouette watching her intently. Every living person would describe this individual as a tall, pleasant-looking, brown-skinned humanoid woman. She wore a light, long dress, showing her status as a priestess. These two have been looking at each other from a distance. No words have been spoken.

‘I was wondering how you look. Thank you for coming to me.’ Tarah approached Urruh first.

‘Tarah!’

‘I was always curious about you and your personality. I am confused now. I don’t know what to think. I don’t know how to feel.’

‘I understand how you feel. I know what you will say to me. I also know what I will say to you. I came to pay tribute to you and to show my respect for you.’

‘You killed my son... my pride... my family... my life... my future... I want to hate you... How can I hate you?’

‘I will listen to you, and you will decide if it is worth hating.’

‘How can a mother hate someone? I have brought a life into this world. Why is my heart not as full of love as yours? You never brought a life.’

‘I am on a different path than you. We are different.’

‘Yes, we are different. You take away life.’

‘Tarah, you can blame me, but have you ever thought about how much responsibility you have for your own destiny?’

‘I have only one fault: too much love. I loved my husband so much. I loved my son so much. And you took them away. He was always chasing after you. He was never with me. While I was waiting for him to come back home, he was with you. I was waiting and waiting for his love, his affection, his time, his attention.’

‘Are you sure he was after me? Did you ever understand your husband and son?’

‘I loved both of them. I was the happiest person on the planet when I had my son by my side. My husband spent some time with his son, and one day, he informed me that he had to leave. I was thinking that a man can leave his wife with a small child solely because of another woman. I realised that this was solely due to my shortcomings as a wife. I remained silent. I was hopping. Every time he came back, he had changed, for the worse. He didn’t have time for me and his son. As soon as he came back home, he wanted to go back. I was alone, raising my son. One day, my son said, “I will go after him and find him.” My husband came home and realised that our son had left. He was furious. He accused me of being incapable of raising a child. He went back to search for him, and when he found him, he brought him back to me. My son has undergone a complete transformation, and my husband was furious with me. He said I had disappointed him again. Our son also disappointed him. He left us again and told us not to search for him anymore. So, my son decided to leave us for good blaming himself for not being strong as his father was. He escaped from us forever.’

‘Tarah, I heard you, and you left many words unsaid.’

‘Yes... I have... it is too painful to think about it now...’

‘It is much easier to blame someone else...’

‘...I was also guilty... I told my son that if he were a daughter, he would be much more loved, and his father would stay with us...’

’So, he went to Earth, where unevolved humans lived, who messed with his mind, confused him, and changed his personality and his perception of good and bad. It was like sending a lamb into a pack of hyenas. He was not ready to leave home, and you know that. He had your blessing when he left. He lived the worst life he hadn’t chosen. He wasn’t prepared for the challenges. He was not strong. He didn’t have a goal. He thought that when he went to Earth, he would remember his purpose, but he became lost. He lost his mental and spiritual compass.

‘Yes, I blessed him...I thought he was the son of a great leader. He will be good, just like his father.’

‘Usually, great leaders have dysfunctional families, only because they are too tired to spend time with them. They have no time to pass on their knowledge to their children and encourage them to be as good as they are. Great leaders need to have great assistance as well. Have you been there when you sent your son after him?’

‘No, I haven’t. I was blinded by jealousy. I asked him if you were a woman. He answered, neither a man nor a woman. And again, you have been both a woman and a man. I didn’t understand what he said. I was trying to raise my child to embrace both masculine and feminine qualities.’

‘I thought you knew that. But in case you have forgotten, souls do not have a gender. When we choose to be born into the physical world, we are tasked with selecting our gender, our family, the challenges we will face, and our ultimate goal. Sometimes, I was born as a man, sometimes as a woman. Arahdahl was saying this to you. But you gave your son permission to change his gender after he was already born. You disrupted his energy. He was born with negative energy, and you suggested that he change it into positive energy. He thought this is how it should be. “The universe has failed me, and I am a mistake of nature.” You don’t change energy once you are materialised; you endure and wait to be born again. If you are dissatisfied with your energy, simply wait for another life. In the meantime, live as the universe has instructed you. You cannot live as a woman carrying negative energy or as a man carrying positive energy. You are tampering with universal law, and the universe will eventually retaliate against you. This is what happened to your son.’

‘I needed to lose him to this, obviously, even though I always knew the laws of the Universe. He took his own life. He broke the law again. He knew that. He has disgraced us. He was expelled from our society and asked never to return.’

‘Again, as a High Priestess, you understand that death is not important to us. We’re coming back until we finish our cycles.’

‘Our son chose not to come back, at least not to our family. He blamed us. All he wanted was the love of his father.’

‘No, Tarah. He wanted to make you happy. He was seeking your energy and authority. He wanted to be you! He didn’t want his father. He wanted you, and you sent him after his father. You thought that if he found his father, his father would come back to you. You used your son to cope with your insecurities. You never understood that your husband’s priority was his nation. This is why he was born. This is why he went on an experiential journey. This is why he came after me. Not because of me, but because he thought I would be a good companion in his studies. When I left him to evolve without me, after he had chosen his goal and gained experience, he was fighting with all of you. He was lonely, and you didn’t support him at all; if you were, he would’ve forgiven me for leaving him. Would you be happy if you were him?’

‘No, I wouldn’t ...’

‘You managed to be good partners after all. You had more children after your son left.’

‘I became a priestess. I studied universal laws and laws of nature. I was not focused on pleasing him. I was happy when he came back, but I had my priorities straight.’

‘Well, you see. This is obviously what he wanted. He wanted someone to be proud of, not someone who disappointed him.’

‘How about you? Didn’t you love him? Didn’t you want to be with him?’

‘Ah, Tarah... I never had a chance to be something different. He had more freedom of choice than I had. We are different species. I was given an order and expected to obey it. Whatever I wanted, I was denied. If I wanted to dance, I would have had both legs broken. If I wanted to sing, I would have lost my voice. If I had gone left, I would have been pushed to the right. Eventually, I stopped wishing. I was just a person who lived a life pretending to be free. They have sent me to travel from point A to point B and successfully overcome all the challenges along the way. All I know is what hell looks like... I have never loved anyone like you had. And I never felt loved. However, I have great love for all of you. Arahdahl is calling this “Loving My Pets”. Honestly, I never had the feeling that he loved me as much as he loved you. He loves me as a companion, as a partner in battle, as someone who can guide him to his destination, as “pets love their owners”...’

‘If you had the opportunity, would you love him? Or anyone else, like I love him unconditionally...’

‘I don’t think so. I am not made to experience these feelings. I have no freedom in this experience. I love spiritually and unconditionally, but not as different genders love each other.’

‘And are you in harmony with this?’

‘You see, both Arahdahl and I are soldiers. We obey orders. I would never challenge the wrath of the Universe, not because I am incapable or because I am exceptionally skilled, but because I have learned from past experiences that I will inevitably lose.’

‘Urruh, I don’t hate you and I don’t blame you anymore. I understand that I am not on your level. I blamed you for a long time, but now I understand that I failed my exam. I hope my son will eventually forgive me and find his way back home to me. But if he decides not to come, I will forgive him, too.’

‘Love is a weapon, my dear. The worst weapon the Universe has made. It works against us, but at the same time, it is the most sacred feeling we can experience. If we understand love, we will never hate. We will never bear the burden of hate. Duality is the universal law that we have to master. Both feelings bring us to the level we want to achieve. However, only love can bring us to the pedestal of soul evolution. Only love can bring us to the end of our circle. Arahdahl thought I was unable to love, only to hate. He challenged me while we lived on Earth. He wanted to see how much I would give of myself, and how much I would sacrifice in order to succeed in life. He still does not believe me when I say that I am incapable of feeling hate. It’s not that I am unable to hate, but rather that I choose not to. It is a burden I no longer want to bear. It doesn’t mean I will forgive and forget. No, I will remember this, but I will not be pulled down again. I will leave it to the Universe to avenge me if it comes to that.’

‘Would you like me to speak to Arahdahl? I don’t understand his obsession with you. He has to make a decision about you. He keeps you trapped like a bird in a cage.’

‘He is unable to let go of the hate. Not only was he unfair to you, not only did he have to grow up without me, but I also believe he is aware that we need to go our separate ways. This is my final cycle, and I long to transcend. I am so tired that I cannot put it into words. He cannot say goodbye to me. This is what has shaped him into who he is.’

‘Now, I understand this as well.’

Days turned into nights, and nights into days as time continued to pass for the inhabitants of the planet. Not for Urruh and Arahdahl. The time didn’t go anywhere for them. Nothing changed for them. He had mood swings, not knowing the source. He was blaming one person for the actions of another and punishing someone else entirely. He was confused and could no longer understand himself. He understood that he was losing control over himself and that he had to change this quickly. He didn’t want to be the cause of serious actions, and he needed a clear mind. He had to let Urruh go, but he couldn’t. He wanted her for himself, even though he knew he could not keep her by his side forever. She didn’t belong to anyone but the Universe. She was just a guest who had to leave. How can he say goodbye to her? She was his Teacher and Guide. He needed her. He was lost without her. He can’t lose her again. He lived without her, and he survived. He lives with her now, and he is even more confused. He didn’t need her like he needed his wife and children, his friends, his people. He needed her like he needed to breathe. He was completely broken. He knew what decision would bring in the course of time, but he prolonged that final moment.

‘Arahdahl, is this how it’s going to be for you?’ - Urruh helped.

‘How can I let you go? How can I say goodbye to you? Teach me how?’

‘Easy. Just say, “go.” Say goodbye!’

‘And will you go?’

‘Yes, I will go.’

‘No regrets? No wishes to stay? No sorrow?’

‘No, sorry. Not for me. I am looking forward to ascending.’

‘You will not recognise me from that place.’

‘I don’t know. I hope I will.’

‘No. What kept me all this time is the possibility that I will see you one day. And it happened. In the place where you wish to go, there are no longer any cycles. When I left one life, I knew I would see you again. I know it won’t be the same this time.’

‘You may not see me, but you might feel my presence. I will still be of energy. Not of light anymore, but you could still feel me.’

‘Not good enough for me. I am not on your level. You cold-hearted creature!’

‘So, what is your solution? You are falling apart.’

‘I want to be at the same level once again.’

‘Hah, you want me in the matter again. Why?’

‘I need to stop hating you. I need to stop blaming you for my karma.’

‘It’s all about you, again.’

‘No, not this time... I was chosen to become who I am today. It has been a great burden for me to lead people, and I believe I am failing. I am not happy with the results I see.’

‘You have your consultants. Why do you have no faith in them?’

‘None of them are on your level. I need to learn how to better myself. I need to be an enlightened leader.’

‘I never had this ambition. This is something you’ve always wanted. I have no experience in this. I don’t know how to teach you.’

‘Maybe you don’t have experience in teaching a leader, but your personality and character will help me steer myself in the right direction. I will go from there by myself.’

‘Do I really owe you so much that I should compromise my future just for blame? You can find millions of people around you.’

‘You are fearless. They are not. Your words always hit me in the head. I always come back to my senses. I know you think you have fear, and that it has prevented you from ascending, but you are wrong.’

‘I had a fear. It disappeared since I am here with you.’

‘What? How?’

‘Obviously, you have been the cause of my fear or the source of my fear. But now I understand this, and it is all gone. An Adept should have all understandings and emotions under control. I am done now. I am ready to go now, if you excuse me.’

‘So there is nothing that could keep you in matter or light?’

‘No.’

‘Do you just need an excuse from me so that you can go?’

‘Yes.’

‘No! No! No! I am not ready to let you go. I don’t trust you.’

‘How about this: a condition? I will go down for your sake. For the sake of your peace, not for the sake of my ascending. If you recognise me when I am down, you will have me. But I will not help you recognise me in any way. I won’t make it easy for you to find me and to recognise me. You choose your life, your life bringers, your geographical area, and your goals. I will choose mine.’

‘Should I believe you? What if you leave me in hell again?’

‘It’s your choice. I have enough time. I can wait.’

‘How will you recognise me?’

‘Come on, Arahdahl. Now you insult me. I am able to recognise every soul that has ever interacted with me in any of my lives. How can I not recognise you? You are the trouble of my existence.’

‘So it is up to me to recognise you?’

‘This is my condition. You have to figure out how to recognise me, and then you will have my help or you will forgive me and let me go.’

‘If I do recognise you, how can I have you? In what shape? What am I allowed to do?’

‘I will not come as a cat or a parrot. Don’t worry. I will be a human as well. I promise I will be the opposite gender as well.’

‘Oh, what a relief.’

‘If you ever lay your hands on me again, I will make you pay for this. This is something to worry about! If you do something to me that I don’t approve of, hell will seem like paradise to you. If you fail, remember that, your entire nation will fail. Remember that!’’tart writing here…