Chapter 1
I feel Like an average person, and I wouldn’t say I like it. I hate that I’m an ordinary girl with average grades in a typical house with normal parents and problems...It sounds a bit self-involved, But what can I say? It’s how I feel. (UNREMARKABLE)
There is always this stuffiness in my chest, like I’m having trouble breathing. I thought it was asthma, but the doctor doesn’t think so. The only two things that help are when I lay on my tree and take three deep breaths; it puts me in a state of calmness that’s hard to explain. If I try to put it into words, IT makes me FEEL ALIVE.
I feel addicted to that feeling of fullness and life, like someone just gave me air for the first time. I sometimes forget that I’m a living, breathing person, and it could be because I wake up and do the same thing every day. I feel like I should do more or BE more than what I am
I guess Everyone is meant to live a normal life.
su ... sus susunn..... SUSAN: “Huh?” as I’m snatched awake, my mom says, “I have been shaking you for at least ten minutes. Why are you out here”? I sit up from my spot by my tree, still a little groggy and stiff. ” I thought you stopped doing this a while ago, sweetie. When do you come out here? Its morning”
“ugh, I don’t know,” I say, rubbing my head. “The last thing I remember was going to bed last night, and now I’m here.” ” how many times have I told you not to sleep out here? So many things could go wrong. A bear could come out of the woods and eat you, or a wolf, SOME creature. Why can’t you listen for once? I get worried about you. It’s hard to wake you when you come to sleep out here. You feel freezing, too. I’m just worried, sweetie.” I look at my mother’s weary face and exhale deeply.” Mom, I don’t mean to worry you. You know I can’t help it. It’s like sleepwalking, but I thought I stopped a while ago, and you’re right, it’s dangerous. But we live in Kansas, and there are no bears here,” I say, laughing to lighten the mood.
I go to stand and feel my legs giving out. My mom has to help me stay up. “Thanks, Mom.” I feel a slight pull backward as we walk through our backyard, but I ignore it and keep walking. ” Hey, ma, what time is it?” “It’s 7 a.m., hun. You slept the whole night. It’s a good thing it’s the weekend. You can get so much more sleep.”
“Okay, but can you make some breakfast, preferably pancakes?” I give her a shy smile
“I guess so.” she huffs out. She helps me through the back door and up the stairs of our two-story Victorian house. Don’t get me wrong, when people hear Victorian, they think BIG AND ELEGANT. The big is correct, but it is creepy if you ask me. However, the creepiness doesn’t bother me as much since we have lived here for years.
I finally made it to bed to get some shut-eye. I woke up again and had my mom’s delicious pancakes and sausages. She told me she and my dad were going out on a date, so I told them to have fun and went to bed for the rest of the day. I went to sleep fast and hard. The next thing I knew, I was dreaming. I dream in this grass field with the wind blowing like a summer breeze. Then, in just an instant, it’s snowing
Everything is so vivid and bright... But how did I...HELLO! I turned around fast and saw a bright white wolf. He said hello. I thought, “Do you know where you are the wolf said. “I’m in a dream,” I answered
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