My depression

"Everythings fine, Everythings fine, Eventhings fine"

Thats what they tell me.

Im left feeling useless but responsible for so much. I feel alot but somehow nothing at all. i cant bring myself to do what needs to be done.

I have to be there for so many people. I need help but i feel guilty for being weak. I need help but i cant seem to ask for it. I need help i know that but everyone needs me more.

"I'm ok, im ok, im ok"

Thats what i say i scream and plead but only on the inside.

I cant let them see.

I cant let them hear.

I cant let them see when i start to tear.

I dont need help im fine.

I just need to feel better right?

I just need to do better right?

I dont know what i need anymore.

I struggle but im fine.

"I promise"