Prologue
It’s the middle of the night.
I have been tossing and turning for the past few hours, unable to find sleep.
My mind is spinning, I cannot stop thinking about what I saw in my dream or was it nightmare?
I knew this would happen once I found my fated mate, my mother explained me the gift of visions that flows in her family for generations.
My ability is only at its premises, it was triggered by our new mate bound and I am not sure if what I saw is a vision or just a dream.
He is laying next to me his breathing steady, peaceful, his full lips in a light smile in his sleep. He looks content.
I have been looking at the ceiling for the past hour, since we finally collapsed after a night of love. I am propped on my elbow, looking at him, he is so gorgeous, the most handsome man I have seen in my life. His short blond hair in a mess after I ran my hand through it the entire night.
His chest is naked. I stare at his features and his body for a long moment, imprinting every detail, every inch of him in my memory forever.
The sheet stands low on his hips only suggesting what’s hiding under the thin fabric, I want to slide my hand under the blanket and wake him up one last time. I want to feel him one last time, I want to tell him how much I love him and always have all my life. I want to apologize for what I am about to do.
My eyes are wet with tears, I stifle a cry with my hands, I don’t want him to hear me.
It is the hardest decision I have ever done in my life, but is better for him, for the Pack, for Andrew.
He deserves the best.
I remove the sheet off my body and sit on the bed as quietly as I can.
I take deep breathes, my eyes still full of tears. I hear him moving besides me. I don’t want to wake him up or I will never find the courage to do it.
I take deep breaths trying to muster up the courage to move away from him. My body feels so heavy, I am almost paralyzed. My wolf is howling in agony, she is trying to fight me, to keep me from doing the biggest mistake of my life.
But I can’t, I need to do it.
I stand up from the bed and go to the bathroom; I look at myself in the mirror.
I look like shit my eyes and my face are red but no turning back now, I have made my decision.
I leave the bathroom, trying to be as silent as I can, I don’t look at him one last time, I know it will break my heart more than it already is.
I take my clothes on the floor, only putting on his shirt as fast as I can to cover my body and I leave his bedroom.
I walk to my bedroom on the tip of my toes, nobody knows about us yet and I don’t want anybody to find out.
I start packing my stuff back in my bag before he wakes up and realizes I am gone. My wolf is pacing in my head trying to talk to me, and trying to talk some sense to me. We are arguing back and forth.
I mindlink Dean while packing “Dean are you awake?”
He replies in a sleepy voice “Ari? What is it? Are you okay?”
My sobbing start again “No I am not but I need you to drive me back to my university now please”
“What? Why?”
“Please Dean, don’t ask, just pick me up”
“okay, where are you?
“The packhouse”
“okay wait for me at the back door, I ‘ll be there in 5min ”
I put on the straps of my backpack on my shoulders and exit the packhouse silently.
Suddenly my wolf is silent and she retreats to the back of my mind, shutting off any communication with me.
Tonight I seal all of our fates.
I will cherish our moments together forever, this is for the better.
