The Secretary

I did it! I did it! I did it!

I didn’t think it was possible, but I am now the secretary to the CEO! I’ve been with this company for only a year.

I literally came from the 1st floor’s manager’s office to the 5th floor in the first 6 months. Mr. Fields from the 5th floor noticed me when visiting Mr. Cock on the 1st floor. I got transferred to the 5th floor after my 1st month. Thank goodness! Mr. Cock was indeed cocky like his name, a mister-know-it-all, who knew absolutely nothing about finance. How he was able to stay in his job was beyond me. I couldn't stand the guy but I have bills to pay.

Mr. Fields was much more pleasant to work with. With my finance degree, the job was easy! Just like when I was on the 1st floor, I show up at 9am and leave by 4pm. I have an hour lunch break from 12-1. I built a good work relationship with him and we both got ourselves into a routine.

After about 3 months working with Mr. Fields, his wife shows up to his office out of the blue. I was told she rarely visits. She does not even attend the work socials. After one look at me, she accused us of having a sexual relationship.

Ugh!

I had nothing to hide. I kept to myself and did the job. I knew that Mr. Fields didn't want to lose me -we worked well together. But I could tell he was stressed with his personal life.

Give or take 2 months into the job, HR reached out and asked if I'd like to move up to the 20th floor, that this was an opportunity for me. More money and moving up to the next level of secretaries?

Oh yes please!

My suspicion was that Mr. Fields had something to do with it. I accepted.

20th floor... my goodness! It definitely was a different pace of work! Most secretaries showed up to work by 8am. But a few would show up at 7:30am. It was rather amusing to observe how serious some of these secretaries actually were. Most of the time, I'd notice them reading up on fashion magazines and gossiping with the other secretaries. But most of all, these same people had hopes to attract the attention of Mr. Ross, the CEO of the company. So the only times I'd see them read the Times magazine or the newspaper is when there was an article on Mr. Ross.

When news got around that Mr. Ross was coming to the 20th floor, everyone would scramble to tidy up their offices and to look... busy. All the secretaries would apply a fresh coat of lipstick and wait for the elevator to open. It was hilarious!

The managers and the directors on the 20th floor were all different and yet the same. I love that we have an equal opportunity employment in this company -it truly was an international company from all different backgrounds! What made them the same was how they are all high achievers -all graduating from expensive universities, whether it is a bachelors degree with plenty of work experience in the finance corporate world to MBAs with minimal experience but with potential. Maybe one day I'll work on the same level as them.

I observed often and kept to myself. I get to work by 7:30am to actually work and leave at 5pm like the rest of them. It was longer hours but the pay reflected the expectations. My boss, Mr. Clark was a talker and a flirt. It was entertaining and irritating all at the same time. I didn't trust the guy. I have no doubt he was relieved to get rid of me as I always shut him down and simply kept to myself. He would invite me to drinks, lunch, dinner, gatherings with his friends. Whenever I declined his invitation, he'd invite another secretary instead. It truly was comical observing his actions and reactions. I didn't make friends. Friends involve trust. And trust needs to be earned. I did not trust him nor his intentions.

An opportunity arose when I went in for my performance appraisal at Human Resources. Mr. Clark did not attend but instead gave his written review of my performance instead. Mr. Green read it out loud. I found it humorous that he would mention that I was a private person and not social enough as a need for performance improvement. What I did not expect was an offer from Mr. Green to be the CEO's next secretary replacement -that Mr. Ross was looking for someone... who is more private. The pay was higher as expected and that Mr. Ross was in need of a secretary asap.

I was relieved this was an immediate transfer to the 30th floor -the top floor of the company. I felt the tension in the air when news got around that I was chosen to replace the CEO's most recent short-lived secretary. But there was 1 secretary, an older one who was always sweet to me. She wished me all the best while the rest either ignored me and/or were just angry out of jealousy. I packed all my belongings that Friday afternoon and took them upstairs, ready to work on Monday.

This past year, whenever I saw or passed the CEO, I too would lust for him. There were times I felt I was drooling! Oops! Everyone knew who he was. And if you didn't, you would know he was someone important right away. We’d make eye contact on occasions and I couldn't help myself and would return it.

Mr. Ross is a dream brought to life! Tall, perfectly styled sandy blonde hair, deep blue/gray eyes, always clean shaven with a well defined jawline. There is nothing sexier than a man who knows how to wear a suit. He is always wearing a sharp and expensive looking suit that is no doubt personally tailored. His suit covered what I can only imagine a muscular body. He oozed with confidence and ambition. This is the kind of man you would see in a high end fashion magazine. I would hear the secretaries talk often wondering what his manhood was like. I wondered too. I want to lick him up!

The CEO’s past secretaries don’t last long. There is always a new one just when I start getting to know the previous one at the weekly HR training meetings. Knowing not in the usual way of getting to know someone 1 to 1. It was always a pretty looking lady knowing that she hit the jackpot so to speak. As predicted, each one would always talk openly about their experience "with" Mr. Ross. I for one, couldn't tell if it was true or made up initially: It's an easy job!; He's travels often so I get paid to do nothing; Yeah, he's so hot, it gets hot in his office all the time!; He takes me out after work; We flirt all the time! He can't keep his hands off me; He has unlimited booze in his office and we drink together often; The pay is fantastic!; He gives me bonuses just because he feels like it; He says he's going to take me out shopping this weekend!...

And everyone who hoped to be the next replacement would be green with envy and wanting to be the next replacement even more. But they all don't last! I truly hope I will be the permanent one. The pay is the best and I can be debt free sooner.

I don’t have much of a personal life. I graduated from college with a bachelor in economics and finance. I attended school with my high school sweetheart, only to find out he was cheating on me our last year, if not longer. I’m still furious that I didn’t notice all the red flags back then. He started changing, soon after we started college. We initially made friends together and I thought we had a village I could trust with similar hopes on life and goals. I was so consumed in my classes and my desperate need to succeed that I didn't take time to notice how much he was changing. I dumped him and I haven’t looked back despite his persistent calls and text messages. That was 3 years ago.

But why a secretary? I was dreaming big. But with that I was competing with other graduates from various backgrounds and experiences. I didn't have any experience yet. I attended a state college that wasn't as prestigious as the IVY league colleges. After one rejection after another, I settled for secretarial positions. I reasoned to myself that I needed a job asap and at least this is a step into the financial sector.

First Day

Knowing that the CEO likes to start early, I get to the 30th floor by 7am excited.

Is 7am too early?

I couldn't sleep last night and I figured I may as well just head to work. I wore the best suit I owned, which isn't much -a suit that was on sale from JC Penny.

The CEO and I are the only ones on the floor. My desk was next to his office door. I empty out my box of things and set up my office desktop just the way I like it. As I was processing through the CEO’s schedule for the day, the elevator door dings and opens.

*Gasp*! He's here!

“Oh good morning! You are here already Ms. Lee,” as he walks towards me.

I got up quickly and offered my right hand, “Yes! Good morning Mr. Ross! If you like, I can be here every morning by 7am,” I say, trying to not sound too excited as my heart skips a beat.

Did that sound too eager?

He gives me a firm handshake and doesn't let go. This is the first time we have had any form of physical touch but not the first time locking eyes. He takes his left hand and rests it on my hand that is already held by his right hand, while studying my face.

“Please do. I need someone who is always prepared. I don’t like surprises with the work I do,” he replies warmly with a grin. The way he looks into my eyes as he says this, makes me weak in the knees and I had to grit my teeth from giving out a giggle.

“Noted Mr. Ross. I’m a fast learner and won’t disappoint you,” I say trying to stay serious. “... just give me a week to work out all the details. Your previous secretary wasn’t good with record keeping,” I continue.

“Oh yes.... she was a problem,” he lets go of my hand and shakes his head. “Well, let me get myself sorted in my office. I’d like it if you come into my office at 7:30am every morning so we can go through my schedule for the day.”

“Yes Mr. Ross,” I nodded as he went in.

After one month

The first month went very well! I quickly worked out who he didn’t want to see, who his priority was, what meetings he had to attend and what he didn’t wish to go to etc. I felt in sync with this work ethic.

His past secretaries lied! It's busy here!

It is for sure busier being his secretary. I however, do enjoy working with and for him. I was learning so much more of the financial world that I couldn't have done in my previous positions. He seemed impressed when I did not need any further explanation to certain financial, economic or investment situations. My heart would flutter when he'd compliment my work and take notice of my financial knowledge. With each passing day, I noticed myself longing for him and I wished he would notice me.

He's so attractive!

Every day that goes by, I want him even more. And I've noticed myself wanting more than a compliment and a smile.

Ugh! I’m so sexually frustrated!

I haven’t had sex since I dumped my ex all those years ago. I’m so out of practice! And I’m trying to keep myself professional and NOT sound like everyone else who also want him! I want to keep this job! And yet I just want him to take me.

It’s Friday evening and I just got out of my 1 month performance appraisal meeting with the CEO and HR director. They are happy with my work and will review again at the 6 month mark –that’s in 5 months!

And how interesting.... I was even given a ‘black card’. The HR director explained that I need to improve my office wear, reasoning that a secretary worth keeping needs to also look good next to the CEO.

Wow! I’m worth keeping?! None of his past secretaries mentioned the black card. Were they even aware of this perk? Wait... what's wrong with what I wear?

So that weekend I went to the mall. As I perused through, there really wasn’t anything that stood out. They were all similar to what I already owned. So I built up the courage and went into the Chanel store. It was a lovely experience. Without even bothering to look at the price tag, I shopped! With my sexual frustration, I also figured... oh why not! I may as well get some sexy lingerie as well! It felt like I tried everything in the store that night. The office didn’t give me a limit!

Monday arrived and I wore a Chanel suit -knee length black pencil skirt with a high split on the back and a 3/4 length sleeve matching jacket. The pink silk fitted blouse had a cowl neck that accentuated my breasts. The new push up bra set was perfect for this outfit! My breasts were most definitely an additional cup size bigger. I was looking good! With the garter belt, black stockings and matching high black velvet shoes I was wearing…. I slipped a condom in between one butt cheek and suspender strap.

Why not?

I was feeling like a million dollars and feeling extra sexy! If I get to wear this, I may as well have fun with it -not that I was hoping to get lucky with the CEO.

Sigh! I can dream!

I was there at 7am as usual with my hair tied up tightly in a high bun. My makeup was perfectly done with the Chanel skin care and make up set given as a complimentary gift. I was never treated so well when I shopped there over the weekend. It was so fun!

Mr. Ross showed up around 7:25am, went straight into the office not taking any notice of me besides a nod and scrolling through this phone. As I knocked on his door and went in at 7:30am, he looked up and stared at me. I felt a little embarrassed as he didn’t blink for what felt like a minute or two.

Feeling self-conscious, “I’m sorry. Is this too much? I want to make sure I’m doing my job the way you nee....”

“You are perfect actually,” he says before I could finish what I was going saying. As I walk to my seat in front of his desk, “I expect you to dress like this from now on. No limits on the black card as long as it is for work Ms. Lee. You got it?”

Wow! For real?!

Relieved, “Thank you Mr. Ross,” as I sat down. “This week, I made sure you will meet with...” we talked about this week and today’s schedule.