Truly, madly, deeply

At first our love was playful like a puppy-sort of love.

We could talk for hours on the phone and still wouldnt wanna hang up.

Our favorite passed time was watching movies together.

I would hold her closely and relax it couldn’t get much better.

I spent time at her place getting to know her family and she spent time at mine we were so happy

We were young and in love and not to mention stayed aroused for eachother

We had sex all the time,once even heard by her mother!

we started staying at hotels and we stayed at so many, adco was our favorite we stayed there plenty

we fullfilled some of our fantasys and most of our desires.Our love was perfect and so much on fire

What goes up must come down and this one hit hard ill tell you how

I had started off to college and it gave her some idle time.she didnt know i learned she let her ex visit its like her messages was opened purposely and she wanted me to see it

I had it in my head thst i wasnt gonna take that shit! I know once i almost cheated but i was drunk and never actually did it

But i read the messages and i still remember how they talked about their love they had and wanted to rekindle

I was at class when i got the text that she was pregnant. Her step dad was pissed and kicked her out in a second

We didn’t wanna stay at my parents either I knew what needed done.i dropped out of college and started preparing for our little one.

When he came along oh my he was so precious. It’s like he was a gift sent down straight from heaven

Times got harder and more tiring for us both. So many friends we had slowly started jumping out of our boat.

Now we were parents and we had responsibilities. If friends wanted to go we’d let them we had a brand new family.

She stayed up countless hours and I tried to sleep all I could. All I did was work and try to get done what a daddy should..

I made decent money and we did better than get by but then idk what happened but it changed our whole lives

After we got kicked out of our beautiful house, things started getting worse. Nothing ever seemed to work its almost like we were cursed.

But We kept working together and nothing was in question.i never once wouldve thought that we could be unfaithful.

I’m not sure what triggered it, maybe the lack of attention but i felt deprived and i needed what i felt like was missing

I love my som but he was always with mommy.she didnt give me all her attention like she used to normally.

I was still so young but i won’t use that as an excuse.i cheated on her a few times and each time she found out and we would argue

So many fights that neither of us would win.i tried to shake it off but each time made us more broken.

I’d blame her hatred and anger towards me at her just loving to fight but i knew what i did and it wasnt right!

numb to it all until after our second son. It hit me after a concert I played and it hit me all at once

She was crying on the couch and showed me cuts she made on her arms.i could see it bleeding, not just her arms but also her heart.

You’d think now things should get better since I realized how much i hurt her but no sadly somehow they tended to get worse

We were yelling and fighting the kids cried and walked in our mess.i ran through the door and it hit her in the head.

She was delirious and when she came to. She punched me and kicked me is all she wanted to do

I held her down on the floor and heard a sound behind me. My oldest son saw us and just stood there not knowing what he could be thinking.

Daddy’s a monster look at what I’ve done. Embarrassed I grabbed a few things and didn’t want to forget my gun.

She says to this day i waived it in her face. When she said she’s leaving with our kids I didnt want them to leave

I wish I would’ve seen a long time before then all the ways I messed up and could rewrite how it ends

I went to jail and almost to prison. Her mother told the da i choked her in the kitchen.

I had to take a plea yes I said I was guilty. Even though I didn’t choke her I was still the reason things got so messy.

Hearing their ghosts echo the halls in this house that was once a home.i wish i could go back and fix all I did wrong

But then we were apart and so were the kids.i had court orders to stay away but i had to go see them.

We managed to talk and put in a lot of work but eventually got back together even though we still hurt.

She held on to her resentment and tore down my ego.i was stubborn and always fought back when I should’ve let it go

She started drinking everyday and was talking to whoever she wants.i was mad and blind then I didn’t see the ghost in her that still haunts

She loved me so much and I threw her away. Maybe not intentionally but I couldn’t stand to fight everyday

She never told me her plans she started moving in secret.i couldn’t get it out of my head I knew she was cheating

I tried to catch her in her tracks yes I turned into a spy.i caught her telling the kids I didn’t love them and all sorts of lies

She exposed how she felt and I took it to heart. Years later now I feel the same pain that once tore her apart

Child services got involved because we were too focused on ourselves. We wasn’t taking care of the kids, our work or even our health

We started using drugs and everything only got harder. We just wanted to escape far away but kept slipping farther

We battled in court for the kids and custody.i remember walking their line just so the kids don’t get took from me

Then a few years went by we barely talked, if we did wed just fight. We started dating other people and started a whole new life

We wrapped ourselves in a fantasy that we thought we could forget. How deep our love was but we still tried to pretend

It wasn’t till our new lovers left us both at the same time. Almost like they planned it but I couldn’t figure out why.

Then I saw her in the woods in a little shack her and him built. Where he left her all alone with nothing not even a quilt

She was so far in her head and too blind to find her heart.i couldn’t stand to see how she was just steady falling apart

I helped all I could and we even started talking again. We’d sit up late nights telling stories and laughing like we were old friends

She didn’t wanna leave she was afraid even though she wouldn’t tell me. It wasn’t even about him it was the new life she was building

Now that it’s gone and she has to move on what if she can’t make it out in the real world

Stuck with grief and sadness myself I tried to shake it off and do what I could to help

Finally we packed her things carefully so we didn’t get bit by a snake.i got her in the car and I took her away.

Slowly but surely she’s remembering who she is. So much has happened I hope she gets through this

We’ve grown from kids into adults and got one hell of a story. I hope now we can we stop hating eachother and finally stop the bleeding?!