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2 and a half years later:
"Yes mommy I understand." I say to her
"You've been gone for almost 2 YEARS!! You are coming back for Zach's wedding and I mean it! We all miss you." My mom says through the phone as I'm walking in the front door of my home
"Ma, Hailey doesn't want me there." I say getting annoyed.
"I don't care what she wants! I put up with your mess long enough! You bring your black ass back and I'm not playing!!" She says and then she hangs up on me.
I know you might be a little lost but I'll explain. I graduated from College I accepted a teachers assistant job in New Jersey. I immediately moved and I haven't been back home since and there's a couple reasons for that.
1. All my friends hate me besides Kai.
2. I needed space from everyone to go and find myself.
3. I was going through a tough situation and if my parents knew they would have never let me leave.
4. My son, Zaydn Mahki Davis born December 25 . Yes I had him on Christmas, probably the greatest present I've ever gotten and will ever get
About a month after I left from Florida I started having having weird cravings and constant headaches so I went to my doctor to see what was wrong. Welllll I was pregnant and I didn't even know it. Now I have my baby boy whom I love to death. He's my entire world. That's the main reason I moved so far away. I knew I needed to do everything possible to make sure he was safe and healthy inside my body and when he came out. He is currently 1 year and 5 months old and he's already crazy. He is either screaming or laughing or constantly saying ma ma or Ny uh which is him trying to say my name. He looks exactly like me but he has a lighter skin tone and he definitely has his fathers eyes.
"NYAH!!" I hear yelling from my kitchen coming from my roommate and best friend.
"I just got home stop all that damn yelling." Oh yeah I curse a little now.
You literally have to when you're living in Jersey. These people are rude.
"I promise you I'm never watching his bad ass again! You need to get a babysitter." My roommate Cole says with an upset look on his face
"My baby ain't bad he just going through his terrible two's a little early." I say while chuckling
"That man is bad. He done knocked over all my shit in my room." He says
"And?" I say while putting my hands on my hips
"AND he bad."
"Whatever where is my baby anyways?" I ask him
"Taking a nap." He says while pulling something out of the fridge to cook for dinner.
"How was work?" He asks me
"It was great actually, it was the last day of the school year and the kids all said they were going to miss me. I'm definitely the best 1st grade teacher EVER!!" I say hyping myself up and dancing a little
"If you say so." He says with a chuckle
"My mom called me today. She wants me to go home for Zach and Haileys wedding and I don't wanna gooooo." I whine to him
"Then don't." He says simply
"I have to. Can you do me a hugeeee favor." I ask him with my eyes closed and my fingers crossed.
"Nope. I'm not. Hell no." He says already knowing what I'm gonna ask
I want him to keep Zaydn while I go. I'm scared for him to meet my parents. My mom is gonna whoop my ass.
"Why nottttt." I whine out
"Because they need to meet him. It's been a year and 5 months. Grow up and get it over with." He says and then starts washing off the chicken.
"Can you come with me?" I ask him
"So they can think I'm his daddy? Hell no." He says
"Why nottttt Zay already calls you da da anyways. I don't know why you be hating, you cried the first time he said it." I say chuckling and remembering that funny day
"That's back when his ass was sweet. Now he crazy." He says not even looking at me
"Colllleeeeee." I say
"Fine but it better not be no mess Nyah." He says and points at me.
"It's not, I promise." I say with a big smile
"Yeah yeah. Go ahead and do your little session. I'll let you know when I'm done cooking." He says waving me off. I quickly kiss his cheek and rush to my baby's room.
He's sound asleep with his thumb in his mouth.
"Mommy's sweet boy." I gush over my cute baby and kiss his head lightly so he doesn't wake up.
It's currently 5:30 and I have to log into my meeting with my therapist. Her name is Annie and she's this middle aged black lady. She's funny. I started seeing her as soon as I moved here. I was really excited about working on myself for the better and she has been so helpful to me. I haven't fought in over a year, I haven't drank any alcohol AND I haven't had any sex or a boyfriend since I been here. I'm doing well mentally, emotionally, and physically. I'm so proud of myself.
"Hey Nyah? How was your day?" Annie asks me as soon as I log in.
I tell her about my day and my call with my mom and she gives me advice on how to deal with my feelings about going home. She's actually amazing. An hour later the meeting is over and Cole calls me for dinner and says that Zaydn got out of his crib again and is fucking up the house. Yeah my baby is smart.
Anyways I think I should tell y'all how I met Cole.
Well it's a very long story but one day I was talking to one of my colleagues about getting a roommate cause things were getting harder for me since I was pregnant and she told me her younger brother was looking for somewhere to stay. I immediately ended the conversation cause I swore off any men. But one day when I was hanging out with his sister who's name is Candice, he came to hang with us and we just clicked. Eventually he moved in and we became great friends. Cole is 26, white and black and has curly hair that he always forces me to braid. He's also very attractive. I definitely don't want him like that though. The guy is a certified lady's man. Luckily he has enough sense to not bring his ladies home.
I love my life and next week is going to be stressful but I'm strong enough to power through
"MAMAMAMAMA." I hear my baby yell while running over to me.
"Yes baby?" I say and pick him up
"Da da eat." He says and then starts touching all over my face. He always does that when I pick him up. He's trying to tell me Cole said to come eat.
I kiss his face all over and he just giggles but then he gets a look in his eyes and does what he does best.
Snatch my damn lash off my eye
