The Secret of the Fog: Forgotten City 2

I can’t see anything. Not that there is anything to see anyway. Everything is white, like I’m in a cloud all alone. I don’t like it. It’s so empty here.

I can’t touch anything. Well… There is nothing here to touch anyway. I can’t see anything or anybody. So, maybe if I just walked into something I’d be able to touch again?

But I can hear… I hear the howl of sorrow. I hear the angry words shouted to the heavens. This is the only reason I know I’m not alone lost here. I just don’t know where they are or how to get to them. I guess what they say is true, misery really does love company.

And I can feel… But, damn if I wish I didn’t!

I feel the agony of the ones who lost their lives too soon. They don’t understand why they are here… Wherever the hell we are. I still don’t even know. Not that it matters. I can’t help anyone else, even if I wanted to.

I feel anguish that I will never see my love again. On second thought, this might be hell. How could it be anything else? I don’t know what I did to end up here, but if there was anything that I could describe the place I am in, it is hell frozen over. It’s so freakin’ cold here. I feel so empty and depressed. I wanna dig a hole just to bury myself in to stop the pain. And yet, I don’t even think that would work.

My heart hurts. Alli… I finally had the chance to be with her, after years of watching her from afar. All I ever wanted was for her to notice me. Yeah, I had girls hanging on me, but none of them meant anything to me, and I honestly didn’t do anything other than kiss them, if that. Some of them were so annoying I couldn’t stand to be around them! I couldn’t bring myself to do anything other than that. Not when I was waiting for Allison…  And I gave it up to ensure she lived because I love her so damn much!

I don’t regret my decision! I would do it over and over again if it meant she is safe…  The only thing I do regret is that I won’t be able to spend our lives together. I won’t be able to have that family I always wanted with her.

Well… I guess I also regret waiting so long to get together with Allison. We could have been together for years. We went to high school together, but we didn’t hang in the same circles.

But there has always been something about those red fiery curls and those sexy curves that have always turned me on. She drew me like a moth to a flame… And man did her flame burn bright… At least until her parents died in that accident.

I don’t know how long I wander around in this fog of pain. Time really has no meaning to me right now. I don’t know if it ever will again. Without Allison by my side, nothing else matters. I could have been here a hundred years or an hour for all I know. It doesn’t matter anyway…

And then I hear it.

A sound that breaks my heart even more than all these lost souls put together. I freeze. Is this real? Am I hearing things? Am I delusional because I miss her so much? Can a dead man even become delusional? I have no idea, but I know what I heard!

It’s Alli’s cry. She is sobbing. And I start to panic! (I thought the pain I’d been dealing with was hell, but I was wrong! This is much worse!)

She can’t be here! NO! Not after I saved her! She needs to live! She needs to be happy and free and have a family… Or maybe not! I don’t want to think of her having a family with another man! That is the worse torture ever!

Desperate, I search out the sound. I need to find her! I need her to be safe! I need to know why she is crying! I can’t stand her crying. It hurts so bad!

I can SEE her! Elation rocks through whatever it is I am right now. She is right there! So close, I can almost touch her! I need to get to her…

“I miss Ian,” my girl balls into Tiff’s shoulder.

My baby girl needs me!

“Allison!” I try to call out to her, but she doesn’t seem to hear me. The sound just bounces off whatever this fog is made of.

I rush to  get to her, but something is separating me for my poor baby. It’s a barrier of some sort. I don’t understand! How the hell do I get to her?! I need to comfort her! She needs me right now!

“Allison!” I yell again, banging my semi-solid hands against the barrier. I need to get her attention! I need her to know she is okay and that I love her so much!

“I know! But right now, I think he would want you to move forward,” Tiff encourages  Alli. She is the best best friend for my sweet Alli. She needs Tiff, and she is right…

Well… She is sort of right. But I would much rather be there for the moving forward part. I would much rather not have to sit here and watch my baby girl go away without me and start another life when I can’t be in it! I want to be part of her! I need to be part of her life!

“How? I can’t picture my life without him,” she whispered. My girl sounds so broken right now… Just like I’m feeling! I can’t let her go spiraling into depression again! I just can’t! She needs me NOW!

Suddenly a light fills my being to the brim and I push against the barrier with the heat in my soul. I don’t even know what made me think I could do it, or what gave me the strength other than my love for Allison and the need to comfort her.

Miraculously, it seems to melt the fog away and I push through this damn fog. I look around and notice we are no longer in the Forgotten City limits… In fact I have no idea where we are other than the middle of nowhere… Is that how I was able to get out? I had to be let out outside the city limits? Or was it my love for Allison? I don’t know if I will ever know… And right now I don’t care! I have something much more important to take care of!

I stroll right out of that hell and pull my baby into my arms.

She feels so good. She is so warm… So solid! I never thought I’d be holding her again. I had given up…

“I missed you,” I whisper into her ear, then kiss down her neck. I can’t help taste her sweet skin. I never knew I would miss the way my baby girl would taste so much. I need more of her!

Emotions wreck havoc on my senses. I can’t even figure out what it is I’m feeling right now. I feel like drowning… Only in a good way? I want to drown in her love… Her scent… Her feel… All of her! I need her so much!

She pulls back to look into my eyes. I am falling… Falling into her…

“Ian,” she whispers…

I sit up shaking and panting. I need something to ground me. To pull me back from that hell I keep living in. I still feel the sticky fog and the loneliness… I don’t want to go back! Not ever! I can’t! I need my baby girl!

I gulp down oxygen trying to clear my head and my heart for the ache that has been building up.

My body is covered in sweat and there is a drum playing out in my ears. My head is about to burst. I’m still dizzy and not quite oriented yet.

I blink furiously and look around the dark room. I’m not in the fog anymore. I’m not even on that bloody street in the middle of nowhere! I’m in my room… and I sigh.

The moonlight filters down through the thin curtain and lands on my baby girl's face. My baby looks like an angel, so peaceful and happy.

Three months ago we escaped the city of the damned. Well, Allison, Tiffany and Sara did. They were the only ones to make it out safely across the border.  And actually, I’m still trying to figure out how I made it out of the fog. I keep thinking it has something to do with the heat… Of course I could be wrong. I was also the only one who made it back from the fog. Not that I’m complaining! I’m damn happy!

Last month my girl gave me the best news ever. I can’t help the smile spread across my face and the explosion of joy in my heart. It was definitely faster than we expected…

I lay my hand low on her still flat belly. She keeps complaining that she is getting fat, but I can’t see it. And if she was getting fat? So what? I love her anyway… And I absolutely adore her soft curves!

Alli sighs in her sleep and snuggles up closer to me. We are going to start our own family. Yeah, I’m 20 and she is only 19.

I’m still in college and after the whole Forgotten City incident, I changed my major! I’m a farmer anyway… Don’t know what I was thinking about going into archeology… Except maybe to get closer to Allison… It worked so I’m good!

It’s winter now and we just had our first snowfall of the year.  It was fun to watch it bathe the  world in white with my girl in my arms drinking cocoa in front of our fireplace. I have never been this content in my life. It felt so right. Nothing could take away this peace I feel.

And still…

I lean down and kiss Alli’s head. I need her… I need her to make me forget!

She groans softly and her eyelids flutter open. Her sparkling green eyes stare back at me with worry. I don’t want her to worry about me. I’m a big boy. I just need her…

“What’s wrong?” she whispers groggily. “Is it the nightmare again?” She knows about my nightmares. I told her about them the first night. I didn’t want to hide anything from her.

“Yeah,” I admit.  I don’t want to stress her out. She is 8 weeks pregnant. The doctor said stress isn’t good for either of my girls.

Yeah, I know, I have no idea what the sex of the baby is, but I am convinced it’s gonna be a little girl just like Allison. I can picture a tiny redhead with my dark brown eyes. She will be the cutest thing ever! I just know it!

I pull one of her red curls around my finger and tug playfully.

“I’m okay, love,” I try to sound reassuring, but I’m not sure I can pull it off.

I’ve been haunted with these dreams since I escaped that city. I really don’t know what to do about it… I don’t know if I need a shrink or what!

Or maybe they are just calling me back for help?

“No you are not, Ian. I know that look. You can’t lie to me!” she grouches.

She looks like a toddler with her little pout. I absolutely love how adorable she is, even when she is chastising me. Her moods have been fun the last couple weeks. I’m guessing they are going to get worse the longer the pregnancy is… But I’ll put up with anything as long as I’m able to be with her through this process.

I roll over and capture her body under mine and take her little pouty lip into mine and suck on it gently. I swear she tastes divine! I can’t get enough of her! I dip my tongue into her mouth lazily while I run my hands down her glorious body.

She moans into my mouth and slides her arms around my neck. She rubs her hips up against mine. I gotta say, I never knew Alli was so horny. I guess it’s the pregnancy hormones, and I love it.

If there is anything that will get our discussion off of things I don’t want to talk about, it's getting her turned on.

“I love you,” I whisper, and start to devour her beautiful body.