Crush or Curse

I was sitting on my  bed in my room  speechless thinking what happened with me few years ago .

I was having fun with my friend but one of my friend Nick  bring my past life story , how i was crazy for my crush  that time ,  i make myself a fun front of everyone , actually this talk was not about to happen but one  boy in my office  William is his friends , my crush friend , he bring my crush name to tell us something about and   Nick start talking about me that  how i was crazy for  my crush  Lan who was my senior in my high school and college  . Me and Nick , Emily was  friend from many years so they know many of my secret  .

i was tired because of work and now i have to listen their useless talk i keep myself  there while smiling forcely . Talking for hours they said goodbye and leave from my apartment  . Now i can feel easy , i lay on my bed and tears fall their own from my eye's.next day was like a strom for me the company i was working in , is bankrupt and closed .How am i supposed to live now i can not think anything ,i  stay at my home for few days and for weeks , i applied many office's but the response is always no ,my friend Emily , offer me to get a job in the

The Gold company  where she got job after  our company  bankrupt but i was not ready for this i don't want to face him again this company prisdent is my past love  whom i have no courage to see again.

my friend told me we are going to work different floor its not easy for him to come that kind of floor where we are going to work . he just rounds in important floor , I agree with her for the money i have to pay rent for my apartment otherwise my landlord throw me out and i can not return home like this , i have to take care my own  self also from that money. I get ready and try to look different so he can not recognise me

The Gold company has many floors like one floor is  filled with  beautifull  gown dresses , frocks and many beautiful dress they were hung their for showing customers to choose dress and buy and  staff  was working their to take  their order , second where they receive other  dress from their bussinees cilent , their business client make these  dress to their own work place , they  sell  their garment here in The Gold company and our boss is sell them with perfect price and upper floor where dress was made by their professional desiner for models   and others floor where i have no time to go .

I start working as soon as i reach there ,i get work here to pack the dress  in dress  boxes to complete  their order for the delivery , so that dress can reach  their costumer Fine . I didn't want to meet him again  after  so long time but my heart  wants to see him again one time just one time , i was thinking this and hear  coward voice i reach there and see a lady was crushing  a  staff for something ,what happened here i asked a staff who was standing there .she get wroge dress which dress  this lady choose  here  that dress is given another person that's why she is angry.

Tell me who is packing here tell me she said in lound voice.

I,I am i said in low voice  with fear

She looked me like she will chop me like a meat and eat me she come to me and said

How did you work i will make your life a hell she start crushing me   .

I am sorry i said in fear , its my first day at work i don't want to lose this job i already have lost one job ,i have to pay rent and many i was thinking this and get a gift form  her ,  at my first day , at work a slap.

Call your boss . I regularly come here how dare you insult me like this call your boss this time she said in lound voice.

Call boss a staff said second one

No don't tell me he will going to come here maybe every floor have one maneger to manage think right no what i am thinking in this situation ,i punch my head lightly.everyone is standing there  in fear   footsteps voice is start getting hear and my beat i start hearing.

He walk in the floor  where i work  in black suit  and  his assistant and manager is walking behide him  , his face is more expression less and cold now but his beauty can not be  hide  .

Mr .Li ,  i am really happy to see you here did you know who am i ,that lady said with smile and disappointment in same time .

Ofcourse Ms.Wang  how can i forget you he said without any emotions at his face

You are boss of this office and you recognise me but your staff did not  She said while pointing her finger to me

I am sorry for this Ms .Wang but she is new here  , she is not the staff you are talking about whom you did give your order , she is not her , he said while looking me then look Ms.Wang.

So why did you said you are the girl who is responsible for packing

I am i said in fear while looking ground.

When I order my dress , the  girl who took my order ,where is she Mr.Li ,Ms. Wang  said in confusion

She get fired before you come here to complain  , she always do this kind of mistake' s so we fired her and I am really sorry for the dress matter Ms wang. choose which dress you will like then get in  a half price Ms.Wang he said and leave.

I am not a person who can get baffle but i am going to forgive you Mr. Lan she said while blushing seeing him leave .

He leaves and  when the lady agreed ,did he not reconize me i thought while seeing his back

What are you doing show me dresses she said while seeing me

Yes i said.

Ms.Wang leave taking my all stress away .

I sit  and relax.

Like this my day's start going but one day i see two staff gossping seeing me from far , i was confused but get busy again with  work .some is star glaring me and pushed me on the way intentionly then say sorry and leave.

I was cofused and try to ask why their  behaviour is  like this , they started not to talk with me and walk away  while seeing me as a enemy and  when i ask them  they  tell me

What are you trying to do by  pretending cute and innocent while doing this kind of work , one girl  is said with hate ,we know how you always try to get our boss and you are still doing this you did not get your senses still other one said.

Saying this they leave i found my and Lan photo when my friend show me in her phone then understand what they were talking about its our college photo i told my friend there's nothing like that what people is talking.I will choose to believe on  you   Ava  , Emily  said i got tear after hearing this and huge her . After staring that photo for a hours i was lost in deep thought, who can spread this photo  in net i was thinking this and  see my boss Mr.Li is standing front of me , i stand up and greet him but he grabbed my hand  and walk every staff  in his office is starting on us, their eyes on us while seeing us walk together  .

What is he is doing i was thinking this and walk as fast as i can do.

He take me in  front of his  office and push me inside  , he also walk inside then close his office  door.

Only silence  is in the office  and  i feel cold  while seeing his back  , he stood there and i am standing behide him there is no voice.

Sir did i did something wroge i said after sometime.

You want money he asked me with bitter voice making me more nervous and scared.

What i said in confusion

Why did you spread that photo he asked me  in anger while truning my side

I didn't i try to explain but he didn't listen me and walk  a step close , i try to walk away and get triped by something , i was about to fall but he catch me in his embrace my face was on  his chest  And door was open by someone

I walk back in shock and trun to see who is it .

My dear what is this i thought you are staying at office for work because you want to do hard work but you are with her what is  this  a lady said in shock

Its not like the way  you are thinking okay he said furiously .

I am so so happy for you don't be scared i am not angry okay  , i will talk with your dad  and make sure he will not get angry about this. she start getting our photo

Mom he said and his assistant walk in .

Mam please his assistant  come inside and try to ask that lady to leave the office room.

Are you happy now he said when she  leave with his assistant by  leaving us alone .

What i asked in shock 

You wanted this right from the college to here you are not going to let me go he said looking me.

Sir his assistant come again

What do you have any important work he said

No

Then leave

Yes sir his assistant said  and close the door

You wants my money right i will give you so sell yourself

I slapped him when  i hear this words how can he think like this about me .

Your mind will never going to be  empty by dirty  thinkes right  .

I was in confusen what he is really talking.

i just want you to marry me he said with clam face and voice.

What its a shock for me he is asking me to get married to him but why he wants this ,he is making me look like a fool.what is he is saying he hate me right .

I just want to end  the fight  to get married with my parents and shut up my client who always bother and make jokes of me as ,a man  age  i should  be married they say this and i am single , I am tried of this jockes everything ,  i want to shut them up ,i will pay you he said and showed me door by his hand  to leave.

I leave his office and come my working place everyone is seeing me With questionin i can  feel in their eyes but i take my bag and leave.

Its a joke right i thought while walking.i was enjoying my day trying to ignore yesterday accident , my door bell ring

his assistant was standing front of my door when i open it, he come to my house  i was shocked that how did they know where do i leave and how come he is so sure that i will agree with him. i wouldn't come with you  go tell your boss saying this i closed door at his face  after few minutes my doorbell ring again i opend to say him leave but see him standing there

What are you doing here i  ask

You forget what i told you yesterday

If you didn't want come ,  you can but forget to come my office again or any office in this citey and also other cities .

You are scaring me , i said

I am

He said with smirk

I have no option i thought and closed door to get ready in anger , Waite  here i said before leaving

We get married like a dream

And he told me to move at his home i moved their and feel a little happy after seeing his huge and comfortable house .

after month spending like this i was happy to see him everyday .

What are you doing he said coming from his room

Cooking i said while chopping onion and tears were falling at my cheeks

Do you really taking yourself as Ms.Li

Don't dream about this again

Cook for yourself he said these bitter words and leave for the office

In night when he come  back , i was waiting for him , sleeping on the sofa ,he get inside in his room  my eyes open by voice of door opening,when i get up  i looked his back he is cold i thought and get in my room  yes we are sleeping in separate rooms .i get up and make breakfast for myself and pack my lunch then leave for work , i come in the office and start working everything start getting normal like before but what if they will find out about my and their boss marriage how will they accept it and what will happen to me i get scared thinking this only.

I come home and eat my dinner then get inside my room to sleep my days was going like that .i get a rare chance to see his face even we are living in the same House.one day i found out that he is not in his office room i asked his assistant and found that Lan have fever his assistant told me Mr. Li have a fever , i was feeling a little embarassing because i didn't know why he did not come in the office after living together .

when i come home i knock at his door he asked in the same tone what i want .

I asked do you have fever would you like to eat porried

I didn't have time for this he said  with same attitude

I open his room door and see him laying on the bed with red face , he  was cover by  blanket .

How dare you come in my room without my permission  he said while opening his eye's and see me

How rude can you be you are laying on the bed with fever and still wants to sclode me i said

I put porried bowl  on a table beside his bed eat this i said  and leave , he again sleep, i come in the kitchen and take a bowl with cold water and a clothe in also take fever  medicine  i come back in his room  he was still sleeping.i wake him up  he listened me this time  i feed him porridge and gave him cold medicine .  i put that clothe on his forehead he slept again and like that i spend my whole night  with him . my eyes open i see its already afternoons did i fall that deep , i look  him sleeping on the bed with clam face , i take bowl and walk slowly out .At night when i opend door i found his mom standing there she meet me and inside she tell me that she  come to meet  Lan  after meeting him she leave next day she come again and leave when he get fine he start going office, today when i reach at home i found his mom and dad together they come their invite us for his cousin wedding to go together his  family wants us to go there with them he didn't refuse them and bright smile is shown their face they leave. When they leave He give me a cash card to get some good clothes for the wedding , get some good clothes to wear don't wear this kind of clothes in my cousin wedding , saying this he get in his room . I called my bestfriend  Emily and we have so much fun we do shopping together , your husband is rude but its good that you have a rich husband we can buy whatever we want Emily  said i smile to her hiding my true emotion,I tell Emily that i get married after few months of my marriage but i did not tell her who is my husband  .after weeks we are ready to go  in the wedding where  they live  was far so it took a day for us to reach their .but we finally arrieve there .they welcome us very friendly and they were sweet . The wedding was fun i enjoyed it and also felt a little said I don't know why maybe because he never looke me it doesn't matter how i look or  try to make myself preety  no matter what i wear or how i look he ignored me always no matter its in the past or in  present .

He look her by his eyes sideways what she never noticed