lovely- Tom Holland Imagines/Smutt

WILD/DESCRIPTIVE SMUT

YOUR POV

The story might seem a bit scattered but it'll make sense at the end.

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You sat alone in your apartment tonight enjoying a tub of Ice Cream and watching The End of the F***ing World on Netflix. It was a Friday night and although you wanted to be out enjoying yourself, you had work the next morning. Your phone went off and a confused expression plastered your face when you saw the caller ID.

Tommy 😩😣

You roll your eyes as your phone continues to ring. He completely ghosted you for two weeks and now here he wascalling you. Tom knew that he wasn't allowed to call you on Fridays, it was part of the agreement you guys made. You were fuck buddies for almost a year now and you would have thought he knew that. You picked up the phone and spoke.

"Tom you know-"

"Yeah, I know I'm not supposed to call you on Friday's but I just... I need someone to talk to." His voice was shaky andyou couldn't help but wonder what had happened to him.

"Okay, what's wrong?"

"Can I speak to you in person? At the apartment?" He asked carefully.

"I don't know Tom... I can't be late to work tomorrow or I'll be fired." You tell him. A part of you wanted to go because you were always glad when it came to seeing him, but the other side knew way better.

"Please, I'll never ask for a favor like this again." You hesitate when answering, Tom never asks you to do something politely, none the less uses the word 'please' in any of his sentences. You persuade yourself that there is no harm in going to talk to Tom as long as you are out of the apartment before morning.

"Okay, I'll be there in 20 minutes." You say on the phone.

"Thank you (Y/N)." He says then hangs up the phone. You had already taken a shower that night and you were ready to go. You put your head in a messy bun and walked out to your car in sweatpants and a tank top with a hoodie over it.

Driving to Tom's place, you couldn't help but have this feeling in your stomach that something was wrong. You couldn't tell exactly but you had a feeling it had something to do with Tom. He had sounded worried and almost scared when he was speaking to you on the phone and it just supported your concern.

As you pulled up to the front of the building, your nerves seemed to loosen up knowing you were closer to him. He shouldn't have brought you comfort but he did and you just couldn't help it. You got out of your car and rang his apartment number until he buzzed you in.

Walking up to his apartment door, you checked the time on your phone to make sure you had enough time for this. 10:48 it read. You knocked on the door and he instantly opened it.

You looked at him. He was shirtless only wearing grey sweatpants, which showed you more than what you wanted, hiseyes were puffy and reddish, and his hair was sloppy. Something was definitely going on with him.

"Hi (Y/N)," he said as he opened his door wide enough for you to enter. His voice was rough and it made you confirm the thought that he had been crying. This whole situation was so unlike him and so sudden. You walked over to the couch and sat down with your hands in the pockets of your hoodie. He walks to sit next to you on the couch.

"Why'd you call me here Tom?" you ask him the second he sits down. He looks at you in a questioning manner and you realize how straight up you were being. "I'm sorry, I'm just not used to-"

"No, it's fine. I honestly don't know why I called you here... I just need to be around someone right now." he moves incloser to you and you start to fiddle with your fingers. He was acting weird and it caused you to tense up.

"Do you want to talk about it right now?" he looks at you in the eyes and shakes his head. You let go of the breath you didn't know you were holding in and go on your phone.

TOM'S POV

I wanted to fuck her so bad. The only time she has been in my apartment was to fuck and right now I wanted nothing more than that. The only difference is that this time I wanted to do it to get the pain away. The feeling in my chest just needed to go away and I knew (Y/N) was the only one who could make it go away.

I couldn't hold back the feeling anymore and just decided to shove the resistance aside. I moved in closer to her and placed my hand on her thigh. She looked up at me stopping what she was doing on her phone.

"Tom, what are you doing?" She asked me. I didn't answer her and just pulled her face closer to mine, closing the gap between us. I started to move my lips against hers and she wasn't holding back. I bit her lip gently which caused her to part her lips slightly giving my tongue entry.

She didn't pull back but started to moan into my mouth every now and then. I thought she knew what I wanted and she wanted it too so I put my hand up her hoodie and started to massage her breasts. I was so wrong and she immediately pulled away from me. I looked at her and I felt the pain suddenly come back to my chest.

"What was that for?" She asked me if she didn't know.

"I wanted to kiss you, is that wrong?" I say subtly. She got up from the couch and I could tell she was going to leave.

"Yes it was, I told you I wasn't going to do that tonight. Plus, you don't just get to ignore me for two weeks then just ask me to show up." She says and walks over to the door.

"All the moaning you were doing in my mouth was telling me a different story (Y/N). You wanted to come here." I say and get up to follow her. She turned around to look at me and I could tell that I messed up. She grabs the doorknob and I grab her hand to stop her from leaving.

"Let go, Tom." She said with irritation in her voice. I couldn't let her go, I just couldn't. I pulled her arm harshly so that she was facing me now. Her breath hitched and I could tell I was probably scaring her.

"Let go." She said again and this time I did. She crossed her hand over her chest signaling she really didn't want to be here right now.

"What do you want Tom, I didn't come here to entertain you okay? I came here as a friend who is worried about you andif you don't tell me why you called me here tonight, I'm going to leave." She stated then looked at me with searching eyes.

"I need you. I really fucking need you." I tell her. "I'm in so much pain right now, I just need it to go away."

"You want to fuck just to make your pain go away?" She scoffed. "Why don't you just deal with it like everyone does or just talk it out?"

"Because I can't!" I yell and she jumps back a little. "I can't talk about it (Y/N), I just need it to go away even if it's just for a little bit."

"And I'm the one to do it?" She asks then moves closer to me. "You have other fuck buddies Tom and I told you I don't have time for this."

"I don't have other fuck buddies (Y/N), it's just you. I need you because you're the only one that makes me feel good andright now that's all I need." I walked closer causing her to back up a little. She searches in my eyes, almost looking for a sign, and then leans into me placing her lips on mine. She moved her hands from her sides and placed them around my neck pulling me closer.

I moved my hands towards her waist to grab onto her ass. I squeeze her ass tightly and she gasps, giving me time to stick my tongue into her mouth. I gently double-tapped right under her ass signaling her to jump.

I held her up by the thighs and started to walk towards the bedroom down the hall. I didn't know why but this felt more passionate than ever, I didn't want to get her naked but wanted to admire her completely. I dug my fingertips harshly into her inner thighs, spreading them so I could get closer to her as if it were possible.

Our lips fought each other as she ran her hands through my hair. We just had sex probably less than two weeks ago butthere had been so much pent-up between the two of us.

I felt myself always start to let my guard down around her and I couldn't stand the fact she had that effect on me. I didn't know what was happening and I started to push her away. Now here I was trying to get her back in my life any way possible.

I placed her on the bed and hovered over her. I tugged at the back of her hair, giving me easier access to her neck, instantly attacking her sweet spot.

"Mhmm.." she dragged out as she rolled her head back. I loved knowing I made her feel like this.

Your POV

His left hand drifted up your side, his thumb just rolling over your hard nipples. You smooth your hands over his chest and shoulders. He admired you as you did it, for the first time allowing you guys to go slow a bit.

You stared into Tom's eyes realizing there was a hint of something you'd never seen before. It almost seemed like fear mixed with the usual lustfulness he had but it was altogether just different, and better. You didn't know but nobody had ever seen him like this, at his most vulnerable.

He lifted his head away from yours so he could quickly discard your hoodie and your tank top leaving you in just your bra. Grabbing your chin, he reconnected his lips with your not being able to be separated for too long.

He trailed his kisses down your chin, trailing down your neck and going over your collarbone. He kissed your breasts leaving little bites on them. He slid his hand behind your back and skillfully unclipped your bra in one swift move. He worshiped them as they busted out to suddenly become free.

"You're so beautiful." He whispered as he leaned towards your ear, biting down on the lobe. It shocked you for a moment. Tom never really complimented you while you were over, none the less was he even this gentle with you?

He surprised you, slipping his left hand into your sweatpants and starting to rub your core through your panties. You so desperately wanted him to tongue you down.

"Tom..." You gasped. He smirked against your skin being proud of having this effect on you.

"Just tell me you want me down here, (Y/N)" He states.

"I want you down there Tom. Please." You begged. He loved it when you were begging. He looked into your eyes full of lust and started to move down on the bed. He stopped once this face was inches away from your core. Even though you were wearing sweats, you could feel his breath along your sides.

He didn't wait a second before grabbing the sides of your sweatpants and pulling them off quickly. One of his hands snaked up to your breasts and started to massage them, occasionally switching to pinch your nips.

With his other hand, he trailed up to your thighs then placed his lips on it and sucked at the exposed flesh. You wanted him more than ever.

He brought his head up to look at your pleading eyes and decided to stop all of his teasings, for the moment.

He moved his hands to your panties and moved them to the side. It was a sight he never got tired of. You were so wet andhe loved it.

He didn't waste a second before placing his soft lips on your aching core and smoothing you with his tongue. He swirled his tongue all around you're core and would occasionally stop to just stoke it gently. It drove you crazy how good he gave head.

He put your legs on his shoulder so you could further feel every sensation he was sending you. Just as you did that he moaned which sent vibrations throughout your whole body.

"Fuck," you mumbled softly before he started to fasten his pace. You squirmed at the suddenness of the situation. He didn't stop.

He placed two fingers inside of you and started to finger you while eating you out. Your legs begin to shake, not beingable to support you anymore.

He moves his right hand over your body and goes to hold down your hips as you shake beneath him. Watching you like this was turning him on by the second.

"Mhmm, Tom. Don't stop." You let out, becoming a breathing mess. He smiled against you then stuck another finger inside, curling it up. It only added more pleasure to your body.

You gripped onto his hair tightly as your back arched.

"Oh my god, I'm gonna cum-" Tom didn't let you cum just yet. He slowed down before placing himself over your body while still fingering you. He grabs your arms and places them above your head as he lowers himself over you.

He kissed you roughly, allowing you to taste yourself but you wanted to taste him. He leaned into your left ear and whispered.

"Cum for me (Y/N), cum for me baby." He says then speeds up his fingers. His calling you 'baby' was new, it was different, but it made you feel good. He curled his fingers inside of you and that did it.

You arched your back again before cumming all over his fingers. He smiled at you as he pulled his fingers out of you and licked all of the cum off.

"I want you." You said innocently and sat up. You pulled him closer to you on the bed by his sweats and started to pull them down before discarding them and leaving him in nothing but his boxers.

"We could be here all night (Y/N). You sure you want to?" He asked teasingly.

"Please, weren't you the one begging to have sex with me." You flip him onto the bed and straddle yourself onto his hips. You feel the size of his bulge under you and you weaken.

"I wasn't begging." He says blankly.

"Oh, you weren't?" You asked sarcastically. You sit on his bulge properly and find yourself starting to grind on him. He closes his eyes and brings himself up onto his elbows.

"I'm positive I wasn't begging." He states again. You scoff and start to grind on him much faster. He gasps.

"You know, I can do this all night and still be satisfied. The question is, will you be satisfied?" You asked already knowing his answer.

"Okay fine, maybe I was begging just a little bit. Can you stop teasing me now?" You stopped grinding on him and moved down on him. You pulled down his boxers making his dick now visible to you. You grabbed it with one hand and started to pump it up and down to get him started.

You licked the tip of his cock, tasting his pre-cum before wrapping your lips on it. You started to swirl your tongue on him while bobbing your head at the same time. It was your power move on him. He leans his head back and groans.

"Fuck (Y/N)." You bob your head a little faster and try to take in all of him. He was usually too big for you to fit all of him in your mouth but you always tried. You do one more stroke on him before lifting your mouth off of him and whipping the sides of your mouth.

He moves over to his side drawer and pulls out a condom already knowing what's going to happen. He opens it with ease and sides it onto himself before you slide onto him slowly.

"I'll never understand why you're always so tight." He says then flips you over so that he is now back in control.

He grabbed both your hands, placing them above your head once again. Then finally and slowly, he entered you, fully stretching your insides. He started to thrust in and out of you slowly then picking up his pace, just how you liked it.

"Harder.." You whimpered into his ear. He nods and starts to go harder. His hips constantly smack into yours as he continues with more force. You needed all of him.

He fixed himself on top of you so he could go faster as if possible. His thrusts started to get uneven and you could tell he wanted to cum. He wouldn't though, he always held back just so you could cum before him.

You close your eyes and bite down on your lips trying to hold back the moans. He attached his lips to yours, forcing them open.

You moaned into his mouth which was exactly what he wanted from you. He placed one of his hands towards your core and started to rub your clit while still pounding you.

You unintentionally bit his lip while he was still kissing you but he found it to be hot. He pulled away and groaned.

"Fuck.." He cursed, knowing he was going to lose it if he kept on going like this. He started to pick up his pace again, harder this time. You couldn't catch a breath and your chest was tightening. You were feeling so much intense pleasure, feeling all of him, losing your mind by how insanely good he felt inside of you.

He always made you feel good but tonight just felt different and you loved every part of it, every part of him. Your legs began shaking and you knew you weren't going to last much longer. Tom kept going until he heard your voice.

"I think I'm going to-"

"Me too.." He muttered. He dropped his head in the crook of your neck and groaned sending you to your climax. You arched your back for the last time that night.

"I'm-" and just like that you came. He followed right after you, his cum filling the condom while still inside of you making, you feel a little warm.

He pulled out of you and you smiled. You feel so relaxed right now. You barely realized Tom had gotten up to throw away the condom and clean himself off before he came back. He jumped onto the bed, lying next to you.

"Enjoyed yourself?" He asked to make sure not only he was satisfied, but you were as well.

"Mmm.." You hummed as your eyes started to weigh in on you before you fell asleep.

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It was the middle of the night when you heard a loud bang come from inside the room. You rubbed your eyes open and grabbed your phone from the nightstand to check the time. 1:54 it read.

You sat up and tried to identify where the sound was coming from.

You turn beside you and notice Tom is no longer in the bed with you.

"Tom?" You say in more of a whisper. You pull the sheets off of you and stand up starting to feel more awake. You hear the loud bang again and realize it was coming from the bathroom inside the room.

You make your way to the bathroom and see Tom hovering over the sink, tears coming down his face, and his knuckles coated with blood. You open the bathroom door so the scene is more visible to you.

"Tom, are you okay?" You asked obviously knowing the answer. He turned his head to you finally noticing your presence.He wiped his face clean.

"I'm fine, go back to bed." He says then looks down at his hands. He turns on the faucet and quickly tries to wash his hands.

"Are you sure? I'm here to talk if you need it." You say then step a little closer to him.

"Yes, I'm sure (Y/N)." He says once again but you still don't believe him.

"I don't believe that-"

"(Y/N) just shut up! You're so unbelievably annoying!" You gasped as you felt your heart sink. That reaction was totally uncalled for. He told you previously he was dealing with something but you would never think it would result in him yelling at you. "Just leave me alone!" You take a second to think.

"Wow, I'm sorry for trying to make sure that you're okay." You say and turn around to go back into the room. Tom realizes the sadness in your voice and notices you are trying to help him. He mentally slaps himself.

"I didn't mean to say that (Y/N)." He says as he comes out of the bathroom following you. You get your stuff that wasscattered across the floor of the room.

"You know what? It's fine. I don't know why I always keep coming back to you. You ghost me for weeks and then I come the second you call me. I deserve better." You laugh at yourself and start to put your clothes on.

"(Y/N) I didn't mean to yell at you, and I wasn't ghosting you, entirely."

"Yeah, whatever Tom. I just thought- I thought that it could be different." You said as you grabbed your phone off of the nightstand.

"(Y/N)! Don't leave." He says as he watches you exit the bedroom headed for the front door. You ignore him calling your name and proceed out of the apartment. When you closed the door you hesitated, wanting to turn back. What's wrong with you (Y/N)?

You push the thought to the back of your head and continue out to your car. Once you're inside you couldn't help but let out the tears you didn't realize you were holding in.

You shouldn't have been crying but you and Tom were friends, and besides the sex, the two of you were really close. You just never expected him to say something like that to you. You clean your face free of tears and start to drive home.