A collection of romantic aspects of image, love and humanity.
contents.
wear a suit.
a roof.
soldier.
universe.
a need.
box.
living.
music.
please fight.
and.
love.
harshlines.
to my darling girl.
be mine.
circus.
musky.
intention.
just a corporate affair.
the soul place.
hole.
connection.
take the ugly.
stay away.
complete.
the after effects.
you.
Earth.
the drift.
burning.
air.
babywhore.
self.
run.
senses.
her-o.
colours of you.
need another face.
bitter outside.
big.
find.
guardian.
wear a suit.
something strange is happening
in this world, don’t you think?
I feel like I am almost trespassing
and this human skin is itching.
Where did the traits I loved
in humanity go?
and they were erased so quick
it hurts my soul.
I look for you, everywhere
because all the exteriors are similar
to what I know. None of them are you,
just more aliens in human suits.
universe.
Oh damn you! I wanted to be the shining
star that lit your sky so much.
But you tore the milky way open right
in front of me, to show me her light.
You ground up the moon and killed
me softly with the ashes of my lust.
You stole the planets and tossed
them at me to bowl me spiralling down.
All the while you knew,
you were destroying my universe.
living.
sensing your dilemma, palms outstretched
all I want is to comfort you.
Hold back from touching as the warmth
of my skin may burn you too.
I live my life on a passionate riptide
of emotion, you do not seem to understand.
We are so different in all we design
through love to life to death we
will certainly disagree.
You should be aware though I will
adore you and be there for you
whenever you do need me.
and.
There was a fire and boy it burnt me,
now suddenly I think it is dimming.
But the scars are horrendous,
I keep falling off the end of the world.
Over and over everyday.
It does not matter what anyone says
I am an unlovable mess.
I can’t even write, nothing comes out.
I want to be loved, i need you
to take care and protect me I want you to.
Yet I will not ask, if you cared you could
read it written just under my skin.
To my darling girl.
your ability to overcome
the demons I know you carry around,
well..that is the most courageous
thing I have ever witnessed.
My admiration and pride in you,
knows no bounds, baby.
Oh, I know.. you have so little
confidence in your strength inside
and your beauty, but I want you to
be certain, it takes my breath away.
musky.
She stirs in me something so manic,
a turmoil of pent up raging lust.
But I will not even say hello,
from afar I get to know her.
So delicate and feiry at once,
she is a beauty, a strange blend.
I long to tie her up and explore
her heavenly body and heavy scent.
Cause her pain with good intent,
show her she deserves to be loved.
the soul place.
When i got to the place
now so familiar in my head
there was nothing there,
yet everything instead.
I had no body just my soul,
that was me, a feeling
just a soul amongst a few
other billion or so souls too.
We had left all the guilt of life
back on Earth, all there was dark.
Yet it was the most amazing light,
like arriving and everyone knowing
your name and saying hello to me.
take the ugly.
Is it too late for us?
at so many points in time
you can pinpoint where it went wrong.
We lost ourselves, HUMANS are you listening?
I doubt it,
stupidity , ignorance and selectiveness
are so contagious if you let them in.
They are the easy option,
humans often sadly take the
pretty way, do not have time for the ugly.
the after effects
The torrid warmth emanates
from his drenched torso,
rippled and used
crumpled and abused.
Observing him in the
afterglow of his orgasm,
she found a strange
pleasure of satisfaction.
As his breathing returned
to a more regular pace,
and the moistness receded
on his beautiful body and face.
He opened his eyes wide,
as she swallowed what little
air she could find,
she had fallen in from the outside.
The drift.
Within arms reach, yet I look in his eyes
and all I can see is the miles between.
We have drifted
not our bodies
but our minds.
Distanced ourselves and cut what
connected us, whatever that was.
I feel love for him, but I no longer
feel that rush when skin on skin.
Although I will always cherish us
what we had was a gift
and I am grateful for the time spent.
a roof.
Inside my static mind
beside my electric storm,
you will find me.
This torrential downpour
that I feel within,
is never ending ,
with no beginning.
Yet theres still room
for shelter for you.
a need.
Pulsating heart racing mind,
Kneeling at your feet
Bounded by sight.
No chains or ropes
No collar or leash.
Instead their is mutual respect
For each other’s needs.
You know me as well as i do
So I don’t have limits
To aim for , each time I desire
To be pushed a little more.
You can make me forget my name
By a glance sideways my way,
Please come and get me
Take away this pain.
music.
when my heart , my mind and my soul
think as one, act as one and see as one.
Listen
you may hear the passion roar like a riptide.
I come in waves
a barrage of unwavering me.
In my deafening silence
understanding all I can be
is a empty drum and
you were my symphony.
love.
so I made some rather bad decisions, Used poor judgement.
Went into a war when there was nothing to fight for, apart
from the things I wanted, those things were fake.
They were my hopes and dreams and not yours,
I blew up half the world for you to see me.
To understand me and to cherish me the way I did you,
today I realised you can’t make people love you.
Tomorrow I will try to fix the mess I created,
I want to fix the world maybe then I will forget you.
be mine.
where in this beautiful world
do I belong? where will I feel
ok to be living in my skin?
I am aching inside to fit in this life.
Yet it seems I cause trouble
whereever I go. Then there is him.
I see my name irredecently glistening
all over his lined skin.
He makes me feel alive,
I want him to know that.
‘you breathe air into my soul’.
intention.
He is complicated or rather I made him that way.
Turned something simple and beautiful into
what you said an affair..should be.
You told me the rules and twisted my thinking.
From what I wanted from him to what in the end
I demanded him to be, changing what I looked like
to something you said I should be.
No longer observed as originally meant and real,
I was no longer the intention of me.
hole.
for the first time in my life of many
ups and downs, i cannot find a rock
to hold onto.
freefalling
yet i couldn’t care less, my life , my mess.
Head is a crossword with wrong answers
at best, now adjacent letters strewn around
it makes no sense.
freefall with noone to talk to, alone.
no where to land its just a never ending hole.
stay away.
And please tell him to stay away,
When he is near I forget to breathe
End up running out of air.
Every occasion we collide
It is like he taunts my airways,
With suffocating liquid love
Each time I almost die.
He looks so happy as he walks away
Never looks back to see if I am ok.
He calls it love
But
What sort of love is that?
you.
I am all you
Everyday, every second
Every damn millisecond
I am all you.
Eventually it will tear me apart,
The hunger.
Craving something so much
I can’t keep , I can’t have.
Breaks my god damn heart.
You see I am angry at you,
At the world too, both hurt me
Way too much, seem to think I am tough.
Everyone thinks I am made of stronger stuff, I just want sweet love.
A soft ,gentle ,romantic ,needy ,wears his heart on his sleeve ,honest lover.
Someone who wants to dive into me because they need to see my depth,
My dark and my thoughts.
Someone who desires to be all me, because that is how I feel about you,
I set you apart. So far apart and it’s made any other man seem inferior.
That is why I am turning invisible ,as life is painful ,without you here.
burning.
Walking away from all this,
This ’love you say you give.
Is pure acid on my soul,
Do not try to say it is me,
You have no depth and no
Qualifications to enrol.
Pretending from the start,
You only came back,
To try ,to break me apart.
This was your mistake
My heart was stolen and raped.
soldier.
My Breast is yearning
To be comforting you,
Fallen boy don’t cry.
A man there is no doubt
Come here and take all
You need , I adore you.
I implore you
Make love
Make love
Make love.
Not war.
box.
Hold me so close
Skin to skin.
It has been too long,
Feel pressure within.
Burst into passion
Me me me.
Do you not see
It is a reflection of thee.
See I long to see you and feel
You near, just for you to be here.
Do you remember how right it felt
When we were young , I knew
Even then that you are the one.
I may never have searched
But that does not mean jack,
Because I always knew you would
In time come back.
please fight.
Made him go
Forced him out
Yet there was no fight
To talk about.
Easily left
Never looked back
Did you not know
How my heavy heart did crack.
Now I am damaged
Broken and left alone
And the darkness is here
Torments my thoughts.
I destroyed us by being myself.
harsh lines.
Jaded my embers are left tinged
Your love is harsher than you think.
Played and toyed your way inside
Knowing I was blistered and wounds
Barely dried.
still it did not stop you
From infecting my heart
You Love like a rogue virus,
Pulls my cells apart.
Till I die.till I die.till I die.
You do not care you continue
Stubbornly until I disappear.
circus.
The day I died , the way I cried,
all the memories locked and stomped
down so deep inside.
The forever dread is crushing my soul
you released your demons and they were cold,
they ate my spirit whole.
Took my hope , set alight my dreams
if you listen to the silence
you can hear my screams.
So you are loud with your positive thoughts,
as long as others think the same
your circus of mindfulness is maintained.
just a corporate affair.
Isn’t it time that we the human race fought back?
corporationalism is running and ruining our world.
Do you want that?
I just see everything we have fought against for years
being bought back such as intolerance, racism
poverty, injustices, anti-disabled anti-Semite fascism.
All the things we tried so hard to obliterate
what for? for them to plant the seeds to grow again.
When do we stand up people? when do we fight
pretty soon it will be too late.
They do not have to win, we are the many they are the few,
unless you want to go back to the middle ages?
want to be enslaved?
stop buying their products and let this revolution begin.
The apathetic protesters has had their turn, time to fight
for us.
connection.
Rescue her, she needs to feel
to breathe again
desperately clinging to life
with shallow gasps, she is fading fast.
She longs for you to see her
so sure of the connection you shared,,
her memory is stained with her tears
shed on my shoulder and down my breast.
If you need her then show her,
bare your soul and then you may save her.
complete.
Will you be mine today
my heart wants to say,
she did not know a love
like this was real.
She wants to bathe in you
swim around inside
your soul.
She wants to be surrounded
by just your touch, your hold.
Drenched till she is drowning
fill up her lungs
no more screaming.
Love her indefinitly
mercillesly and cruelly.
Love her with everything
you own every bit of you.
Earth.
This planet on which they say we live,
if you follow a year cycle of pictures,
she breathes.
The most beautiful and so mysterious
still, the Earth.
I fall in love with all her bits, she is
misunderstood. Taken for granted
and used, she needs all our love.
Every human being including you
and me, take a step back and see,
Earth, our home, she is breath taking,
no other place i would rather be.
Eden.
Her eyes were dark and so deeply intense
full of her life story.
Her heart was the home of her battered soul
in all its glory.
Her sensual godess body was afraid of my touch
i am so sorry.
Eden i am so sorry, i hurt you so much.
the after effects.
The torrid warmth emanates
from his drenched torso,
rippled and used
crumpled and abused.
Observing him in the
afterglow of his orgasm,
she found a strange
pleasure of satisfaction.
As his breathing returned
to a more regular pace,
and the moistness receded
on his beautiful body and face.
He opened his eyes wide,
as she swallowed what little
air she could find,
she had fallen in from the outside.
air.
Just on pause , my life, your life
anyone who has seen true despair
no matter the anguish which befell them was.
I am sure it felt so real to them at the time,
nowhere all around , trapped.
Sunk to the bottom
and digging , not to get out
but.. just to breathe.
I have heard some do get back,
i am busy just breathing.
babywhore.
She has her eye on you
not a slut and she is
as shy as any new
lover. Even though
she is older and
wiser, bashful is
her nature.
She is real,
do not expect
perfection.
she is honest
so scared
of rejection.
She is a baby whore
who’s lust
threatens to
burn her up.
self.
Now left with a reflection
Of utter bemuse, all you
Did was tornado in
To leave me utterly confused.
Then you leave again in
A whirlwind of bad love,
The sort which makes the
Other feel not so good ,nor
Lifts them high above the rest.
Second class romance
It hurts and rips you apart,
But be still my stationary soul
Another will see you , as you
Are ,pure gold. Pure gold.
run.
Run away with me, let’s
Find one another
Over and over until we
lie on the sand,
Have the sea be our cover.
Softly caressed by the waves
Until it carries us far far away
As we fuck gently.
Forever touching as our souls
Collide, we sink to the seabed
Both knowing ,
you were always the one.
senses.
Muted and daring to scream inside,
Feelings so alien to the norm.
Boundaries have been left too wide,
And I fear I can no longer ride this
Silent storm.
What did you want, is the question
In my mind. Oh I’ve answered it a zillion times , yet to find an answer.
Must have your reasons I always reason, however finding it is a heavy load on my resolve.
I feel weak, mind body and my soul.
her-o.
All the woman I can be
I am going to fall in love with her,
every single wrinkle and blemish.
In the hope it sets me free,
enables me to love life.
colours of you.
You painted me blue
then threw water at me,
which left streaks down my naked body.
What did you do, what did you do.
I will never be me again
stupidly I let you destroy me,
as I knew was your original intention.
Men like you, men like you.
You ripped out my bare soul,
threw her away onto the busy road
and I watched as she got tore to shreds.
Now I am alone, I am lost and alone.
need another face.
Just another face of me
my mind is like a hall of mirrors
all my faces are ugly.
I feel limited, kept away and chained
to myself and only me.
The label reads insane.
I am sure someone has my heart
squeezing tight to take the last drops
of self respect and pride.
No one cares, I put everyone first
but if anyone decides to stay a while
I would still put you first,
I don’t look in your eyes
because I am alone,
no one here, no one cares.
bitter outside.
I had a moment of clarity
the fog in my hyped up mind cleared.
Not for long but for long enough,
without emotion or extra thinking
I realised I loved you far more.
I already knew that all along but
I took notice this time and one
thought led to another and I didn’t dismiss
them, like i would usually.
I truly love you , and that love would have and will
stick around for eternity, only just with me.
One sided love doesn’t work, I know you love me
but you are far too sensible and responsible
to throw caution to the wind and be in love.
So I would be infatuated and always
bitter that it was not returned.
big.
but I swam in you ,
and I saw something special
something twinkle at me.
Right then and there I knew
what finding a wish looked like,
then having that wish come true.
The longing within me I had filled
with all the mighty big questions,
right then and there answered
as I swam around rummaging for your soul.
The realization that I had monsters inside
which could and indeed did cause that
much havoc ,..was gut wrenching.
Shocked my inner core as I hadn’t even
sneaked a peek at the demons lurking
beneath my surface and never when they
came out to play.
Ignorance is not bliss because you lose yourself
over time, and stop your own accountability.
You end up blaming anything but you.
guardian.
Angel kisses
laid on my soul
angel loving
keeping me whole
angel touches
repair me
angel tasting
glue me.
Angel him
broken me.
