Chapter one (meeting you)
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Felix’s Diary
The morning is dawning, and I open my eyes and there is no one around, it is empty, as if a mist has fallen in my eyes and I don’t know how to find my way. Every day is almost the same, I wake up with the same energy as yesterday and it seems like the pain is suffocating me. Every night is a tragedy for me, I convince myself that everything is fine, but it is not. How I want it all to end one day, how I want to be happy again, I want to feel loved by people, but I am always, second choice. No one looks at me, as if I were nothing.
(Mother)
-Felix? Do you understand me? Open the door, a friend has come to you. He wants to talk to you. Can you stop writing these diaries once and for all?
(Felix)
- What do you want?
(Mother)
-A friend has come to you. I think his name is Diego. He wants to talk to you. He’s waiting for you downstairs. Come and talk to him.
(Felix)
- Mom, I think you’re forgetting that I don’t have any friends.
(Mom)
- That’s what he told me, what’s the point? Hurry up and get changed and come down...
Writer’s Note
Felix walked slowly, blinking his eyes from side to side. When he saw Diego, he felt a not-so-pleasant feeling. As he walked towards him, he thought about how he should behave. Felix wasn’t used to talking to people, and he didn’t know how to talk to Diego either.
(Felix)
- Hello, I was told you had something to talk to.
(Diego)
- Don’t you know me? We go to the same school, right? We were, but now I’ve graduated and moved to Tokyo, but I’m back in Korea.
(Felix)
- Unfortunately, I don’t remember you...
(Diego)
- Of course, you’re the old, quiet and calm Felix, who never got into trouble with people and always sat at his desk. Most importantly, I’m here to ask for something. My birthday is coming up, I’m turning 20, and I want you to come. I’ll send out the invitations tomorrow.
(Felix)
- I don’t know what to say. We don’t know each other at all, I don’t think I’d be able to communicate with so many people. I hope you don’t mind if I turn down the offer.
(Diego)
- Yes, I do. I really do. I want to introduce you to a friend. For some reason, I think you’ll get along. He’s from Thailand, and he doesn’t have any friends, so I think you’ll get along. I’ll leave the invitation at your door tomorrow, so think carefully and make a decision. Okay, Felix, see you later.
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Writer’s note
Diego turned and walked towards the door... Felix lowered his head for a moment, fell silent and was lost in his thoughts... It was the day when tomorrow came, Felix received a letter regarding the invitation, he thought for a while whether to agree to the agreement or not, and he remembered Diego’s words, maybe there was a chance that a friend who had appeared in his life, who would understand, maybe he could be given another chance at life?
*Diego’s birthday*
(Mark)
- Who’s drinking with me today?
(Everyone)
- Us!
(Mark)
- Where’s Diego? Our birthday boy! I want to talk to him!
(Max)
- I think he’s with that Thai guy, he mentioned that one of his Korean friends should come too, he wants to introduce them to each other.
(Mark)
- It’s boring without our birthday boy! Well, friends, let’s drink one, two, three! Go to the end... to the end... Drink... Drink...
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Writer’s Note
Felix was coming slowly and unhurriedly, he made the decision so suddenly that he didn’t even know why or for what... as if he wanted to escape loneliness and thought that this would be the only way out. He arrived at the indicated place, when he entered the gate, he saw a huge 2-story house, he couldn’t believe his eyes that Diego lived in such a luxurious house. When he went inside, with balloons and many decorations. He looked around, how people were singing along to the music, as if all this was very foreign to him, when he caught sight of Diego, his eyes lit up, as if at that moment he was his only companion. But when he looked at the boy standing to his right, his expression changed completely, that Thai boy who seemed so foreign turned out to be his only love in one fell swoop, whom he had been looking for many years.
(Diego)
- There he is... Felix! Here... here
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Felix's pov
I was seeing him... the person I fell madly in love with 3 years ago, I might have changed a lot, he might not even recognize me, is the world that small? Is it that small that I meet him again, just in different circumstances? How should I act? What should I answer, what should I say? How should I act, I have completely lost my manners. How much I want to touch him, his eyes constantly evoked boundless emotions in me. How much I want to go and tell him everything I think, but he won’t even look at the person I’m with. He’s not gay either, he’s probably had relationships with many girls.
(Diego)
- Why did you stop there? Come to us, I want my friend to introduce you... Felix, are you here?
(Felix)
- Yes... this place is simply too foreign for me.
(Diego)
- It’s okay my friend, this is the one I was telling you about. Meet Nattawat, I hope you understand each other well.
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Writer’s Note
Felix, stood, unable to make a sound, not knowing how to speak, as if he had swallowed his tongue, because right in front of him stood the person he loved with all his heart, he stood looking into his eyes, finding peace in his eyes. This went on for several minutes... When another voice did not break
(Nattawat)
- I think I know you from somewhere...
To be continued...
