Chapter I
love is something that ruthex can't have. even if he was born in a wealthy family, he can't have it.
people probably say that ruthex hates his parents for not loving him but they were wrong, ruthex didn't hate his parents but simply wonders, what has he done that made them not love him.
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jealousy is something that ruthex feels towards his adopted sister. what does she have that he doesn't have?
perfect grades? talented? be perfect in everything he do? he has it all but what is it that makes the two of them different?
why do his parents love her more than him, their biological son?
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betrayal is what ruthex feels towards his "friends". the ones that sided with the person that bully him until he change.
why would his "friends" sided with his bully? what does she have that he don't? why do they get bored of him that easily?
why do they looks at him as if he's disgusted by him? what does she says about him to them?
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"it's clearly a misunderstanding, nadia just said it as a joke. why did you take it that serious?" the teacher ask as he looks at ruthex.
"I..." ruthex mutters as if there's something that's holding him back from saying the truth about his situation.
there, the situation that ruthex didn't know would happen. he wouldn't expect that his mouth would shut when he tries to explain things that happened to him the past weeks.
as ruthex went silent, Nadia just looks at him as she is innocent and have done nothing wrong.
FLASHBACK.
"why isn't it cute that ruthex adored mr.caelus?" nadia says sarcasticly as she walks behind ruthex with ruthex's "friends"
"don't you see how close they are? they definitely sleep together" nadia whisper to her friend that still don't understand, loud enough for ruthex to hear.
ruthex can't says anything or else they will answer him as overreacting. they've always been on nadia's side since she transferred into their school.
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"aren't they cute?"
"sure ruthex and mr.caelus look cute together"
"look at how ruthex admires mr.caelus"
there's more than you can ever imagine the things that they've said to ruthex. of course, most people don't care about it but ruthex care. he doesn't want people to look at him like he's a teacher pet.
so he start distancing himself from everyone. he changes his looks. his personality and all.
he looks like a different person and they still dare to ask "why did you change so much?" why don't they think it's their fault that he's like this?
END OF FLASHBACK
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"so? are sure that those adored jokes are pointed at you? to they look at you when they says that?" the teacher ask again.
"no..i don't know.." ruthex says as he looks down on the flour instead of looking at the teacher.
"It's a misunderstanding then. go on apologies to each other" the teacher says to the two of them.
"say it. say that you're sorry"
"I'm sorry" nadia says as he looks at ruthex.
"you too ruthex, says that you're sorry"
"I'm sorry" ruthex says as he avoids making eye contact with nadia.
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ding!
someone message ruthex. it's his "close friends", Leo.
'As bad as I am, I still remember the good things you did for me.' Leo forwarded a message.
'If you feel that way, it's okay. My intentions are good.' he forwarded a message again.
does she want ruthex to forgive him or she want ruthex to be the one apologizing to her and begging her to not leave him?
why does she have to ruin his birthday? why does she have to ruin it.
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'do you think it's cool to upload those text?'
'this is why people are fed up with your behavior.'
messages come into ruthex's phone. it's from his ex best friend, Luna.
ruthex just read the text and block her.
he's too tired to deal with his ex best friend's behavior.
why does she made it looks like it's all ruthex's fault? when it's her fault.
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— „may the evil be punished. may the good have a brighter future and may the children have a better choice.”
extra info.
hello!
my name is lyra, I will explain this whole chapter and I will also be your informant for this whole novel!
so to start with, this chapter is ruthex's background and the reason why ruthex's turned a bit depressed in the future.
it all started with his parents not loving him the same as they loved his adopted sister then his friends started to leave him one bye one, starting from his closest friend.
fyi ! all the things that happened to ruthex are the same things that happened to the writer of the story !
she created this story because she wants to write about someone that has the same fate as her but the character will have a brighter future than her !
this is how the writer image ruthex's appearance.
dark hair, blue eyes and he has depression, very classic of a depressed main character without parents love and no friends!
