In light of recent developments
Let me tell you a secret:
There is a life, in which I am married to the love of my life
We are both women, and nobody cares.
We have a little daughter named Marigold, like my mother- Mary
Or a little boy named Kenneth
Or maybe both
We are blindingly, radiantly happy
We live in a small home somewhere up north where it gets cold and snowy in the winter. There is lots of rain and time for curling up with a book by the fireplace
We both work, but are never overstretched by our work loads, and we don’t have to worry about groceries. We travel to visit family twice a year. Our home always feels safe and secure.
I have dreamed about this my whole life. I do not think it will come true. Every time I get closer to it, the world around me warps to push it back. It seems a little more fantastical every year. I think I could settle for less. But some nights I stay up wondering why I have to consider that. Is it really too much to ask from this life? I am trying so hard. I have always been trying so very hard. So why?
I am so sorry we could not find each other this timeline my love, my children, my home. Know that I have dreamt of you fervently, and maybe things will go better for us next time.
