Meant To Be

I can barely even hear what Nate is saying. He is cutting in and out. I think I have disassociated. This all started when I called him out on what he’s been doing because I couldn’t take it anymore and broke up with him. When I finally snapped out of my thoughts and got back to reality I heard him yelling at me.

“You fucking bitch. What the fuck is wrong with you. Did you really expect me to fucking love a fat bitch like you. I would never. You’re so fucking dumb and clueless for taking so long to find out I was cheating on you. You never gave me anything I wanted. You wouldn’t even give send me fucking nudes!”

“If you think I’m so fucking terrible then why not just break the fuck up with me? Why do all the terrible things you did instead of breaking up with me? Did you really need to watch other people fucking and hire prostitutes and fuck my best friend? What the fuck is wrong with you! I knew everything you were doing but I ignored it because I thought I could fix it, that if I loved you enough that you’d eventually love me back but all I ended up doing was enabling your shit! I fucking loved you and you betrayed me! I-I”

I then realized that I was crying too hard to get my words out. I saw him laughing then he slowly started walking closer and closer. He cocked his arm back and swung it towards me with a closed fist and I felt a sharp pain and heard a deafening crack about 5 seconds after…then my world went dark.

I woke up to the sound of beeping and it smelled extremely clean and when I opened my eye I realized that I was lying in a hospital. I couldn’t open my other eye because it was swollen shut and I reached up to touch my face and felt a deep gash on the my left cheek and a busted lip. I then felt a sudden sharp pain in the back of my head so I reached back and felt stitches. I was so confused and had no idea what had happened. I started looking around and realized that my lifelong best friend, the man I’ve had a crush on since forever but moved on from because I decided he was too good for me, and the man who has been right beside me throughout all the shit in my life, Jaiden, was sitting next to me and the second he realized I was awake he started screaming for a doctor. The doctor came in and checked my vitals and said they were extremely good considering what happened. I didn’t know what he was talking about so I asked him what was going on. He asked me if I remembered anything and I told him I didn’t and he said it was a normal trauma response. Trauma? What the fuck is he talking about?

“Your boyfriend went bat shit crazy once you called him out on his shit.” Jaiden said with his I told you so voice. “I got worried about you because I knew you were planning on breaking up with him and after calling you for the 27th time and you not picking up for the 27th time, I ended up calling the police who answered the first time might I add and they went to his house and found you on the floor and him on top of you fucking you. He’s going to be rotting in jail now until his hearing. If he’s any smart he’ll just except the plea deal.” He added on sounding so sad it made me want to cry.

Oh shit. I remember now I started shouting at him for cheating on me before I had to stop because I was in hysterics. He started laughing like a maniac then walked up to me and socked me in the face. I got hit so hard that I went flying backwards and ended up hitting my head on the wooden floor and passing out and guessing from the way my whole body hurt he continued to beat on me then raped me. Oh my god. That bastard raped me! I started crying uncontrollably and Jaiden came closer to me and embraced me until I calmed down a bit.

A/N

This is the first book I’ve ever written in my whole life because I haven’t lived a very long life. Let’s just say that I’m not even close to 18 so please don’t be to judgemental. I’m sorry if there is any grammatical errors or anything like that. I hope y’all don’t hate it and if you don’t please tell me so I can write another chapter knowing not everyone hates it.

Stay awsome and weird 🖤