The Abyss

As she was staring into the Abyss she saw all the things she was trying to hold back or forget. This black hole was staring into her soul trying to get her to reveal her worst nightmares and all her memories she had buried deep within her.

As all the evil little creatures and servants of the Abyss created shadows around her trying to push her into the darkness she just sat and stared. She didn’t move, she didn’t cry. She had nothing to cry for; she just sat there numb and lifeless as she stared into the unknown. She thought to herself if she fell into the Abyss no one would even care or know she was gone. She thought, Could this be a way to get away from everything she felt and went through or could this be worse than the nightmares and memories she already had.

As she stood there staring into the darkness she felt this rush of cold dark heavy air fall on her, she considered giving in and going down into the Abyss and leaving this world behind her. She thought if she went no one would care or miss her. She was always the girl in the back of the classroom, the lonely girl who cried in the night, to release all her emotions she held in. “ No one would care,” she said to herself, staring into the dark. As she sat there, she thought, “What if it is a good thing, and gives me what I desire, or everything I ever wanted?” I would have the friends I never had, I would have the parents I never thought I would have, because they were either to wrapped up in work or arguing with each other. Most of all, I wouldn’t be me.

I would be the person I want to be. What if this isn’t what it seems though, What if it is the opposite, and it breaks me down, and shatters me like the broken glass of someone’s heart. I would have been broken for the last time. The world would forget about me, never knowing that I existed. Even though people don’t know that I exist anyway.

As the shadows grow ever closer, I started to realize that my time is running out. I knew I had to make a decision soon. Did I want to stay in this world and live the life I already had, or did I want to take the risk of going into the Abyss. The shadows got to where I could reach out and touch them. My heart racing, and the sweat building in my palms. I knew I had to follow what my heart wanted.

I stared deep into the ever so taunting darkness before me, looked around the room, I knew that there was nothing left for me here. I lived everyday with sorrow and regret, never fitting in anywhere. If it was the same down there, well then I was used to it anyway. I looked around the room, and then back at the Abyss, I did this for a good ten minutes until I could make a decision.

The Shadows grew ever so closer to where I could feel their scorching breath on the back of my neck. I finally made my decision. I leaped into the void right in front of me. Not knowing where it would take me. That moment I decided to leave everything behind. Knowing I was gone forever and the decision was finally made, I was gone.