Chapter 1
I met a person two years ago who changed my view of the world. This statement has to be defined a bit. Meeting a stranger i was able to see myself. I enjoyed the attention i recieved. I had a built up perception of my perfect person in my head. You know my soulmate. If you ever felt you didn't belong in a group or even amongst your family i believe its because your are molding yourself to other people's beliefs and perceptions of life. I was raised in a time where we did all the chores as a family but it always seemed like a punishment. We babysat for strangers. We learned very basic things in school. It was in the least so very boring. The most minor achievements were everything. I won spelling b's and sports awards. Which to me was pretty surprising ive always held back in every ounce of life. Im not much of the competitive person. I think the free thinking was beat out of me through out the years. I have found most people my age and who lived through my era have a loss of identity. We tried to keep up with trendy news through magazines at the checkouts. The latest fashions with our peers. Watching social media this never changes. I really never have fed into the consumerism after having kids. Back to the stranger. I was so eager to please this person i did all i could to measure up. In the end i learned not only were they using me but i was using them. We all carry baggage. We have good traits and bad traits. My friends life is too short to follow trends,social media and to keep fake people in your life. Im not saying to throw friendships and family out the window but learn who you are. What gets you excited. What ignites a fire? Learn new skills. If you run to any bad habits figure out why. Dont rely on people to solve issues you can do the work. Journal for emotons. Change your routine for structure. The less apps you have the better. Eat well. Exercise. Have a variety of friends for your growth.If people in your life dont match their words with their actions set up boundaries
