Amelia

Tommy slowly kisses her neck. Kim giggles. Tommy stops and chuckles.

He looks deep into her large jade eyes that always seemed to dance with delight whenever he was this close to her.

“It tickles ” Kim tells him with a smile “but I like it ” she adds slightly disappointed that Tommy had stopped.

“Oh yeah ” Tommy says seductively in his usual cocky tone and begins to kiss her neck again. The sweet smell of her perfume tickles his nose and makes his tongue feel funny as he slowly runs it over her warm neck.

Kim slowly pulls up her skirt while Tommy unbuttons his trousers.

" Wait ” he says before guiding it in.

He reaches for his blazer and rummages through the pockets “I know it is here somewhere.” He giggles. “I come prepared ” he laughs when he finally finds the condom.

Kim closes her eyes and pulls him closer. Tommy starts off slowly. His slow deep breathes fill Kim’s heavily pierced ears.

The sound of the wooden bench creaking beneath Kim’s body spreads throughout the small unused shed.

Dust particles dance in the warm beams of morning sun that rush in through every available crack in the old rotting wooden structure.

This wasn’t Tommy's first time in the shed. It had become a regular occurrence for him. Different day, different girl, however,

Kim was the only girl that had accompanied him there on more than one occasion. Tommy was a player and Kim knew it.

She was sure he would grow out of it one day and want her just as much as she wanted him.

Nobody knew Tommy better than Kim. Nobody would ever know him better than her in her eyes. She knew that he liked his coffee sweet and milky. She knew he enjoyed spicy food, Spicer the better. She knew that he secretly watched romantic films, his favourite being, Ten things I hate about you. Which just so happened to be Kim’s’ favourite too, they had watched it together so many times.

Tommy places his hand on her soft warm cheek. Kim opens her eyes and leans in until she feels his gentle lips on hers.

She only wanted his warm lips touching hers, she closed her eyes and allowed the tinging feeling to travel throughout her body. His kiss was hard and fast, Kim would describe it as passionate, and she never wanted it to stop. She wanted to kiss him all the time and had tried several times, but Tommy would always laugh and push her away. Tommy despised public displays of affection, he would go as far to say that he hated any sort of affection however, he was always tender and loving whenever they had sex. she loved it when he hands travelled the entire length of her body. She enjoyed being held in his tight embrace; this was Kim’s happy place.

Tommy moved his hand along her thigh and tightly squeezed her bottom. His breathing has become faster.

“Oh fuck ” Tommy cries out before pressing up hard against her and then stopping all together.

Kim giggles and tells him to be quiet “Someone will hear ” she tells him and hits him playfully. The small shed stood far enough away from all the school buildings for them to remain unheard and unnoticed. Honestly, it wasn’t clear why the old shed was still standing as it no longer served a purpose well apart from a it being a place for Tommy to bring girls.

Kim wants to hold him for longer but Tommy steps away and whips off the condom. Kim watches as he fixes himself.

“So, what lesson do you have first? ” Tommy enquires when he is done. He slowly brushes his dark wavy hair away from his face revealing his dark heavy eyebrows which sat neatly above his blue-green eyes. Kim loved how they seemed bluer on some days and more green on others.

Kim throws him a look. “What? ” He asks throwing his arms up in confusion “Okay what lesson do I have first?” Tommy jokes, only it wasn’t a joke. Tommy never remembered what lessons he had.

At the start of every year Tommy like everyone else would be handed his timetable. At some point in the day, it would magically disappear and going to the office to get a new one was just too much effort for Tommy, so he would rely on Kim or his best friend Evan to guide him. Kim had lost count how many times Tommy had found himself in English when he should have been in science.

Kim says nothing and just throws him another look. "OH my God Kim don’t do this every fucking time ” Tommy says his voice growing ever louder.

“Tommy don’t swear at me ” Kim replies angrily and jumps off the bench. She folds her arms across her chest and stares at the ground.

“You do this all the time though. It’s just sex Kim, always has been always will be ” Tommy says recoiling at his own bluntness.

“But you always come back ” Kim tells him fighting back her tears. She knew that if Tommy saw her crying, then he would hotfoot it right out of there, seeing people cry just seemed to unnerve him.

Tommy looks at her. Her eyes a deep verdant green that just moments before were dancing with delight were now awash with sadness. Tommy seems to take a step back. He shifted uncomfortably on the spot, eyes fixed to the ground. This seemed to be a normal reaction for Tommy in these types of situations.

“Why does this happen every time?” Tommy asks. He walks towards her and awkwardly places his hand on one of her shoulders.

Kim did her best to try and avoid his gaze. She was always so afraid that he would be able to tell that she loved him so much. If he found that out, then there would be no more invitations to the shed for her. Kim wasn’t sure she would be able to deal with that. Her and Tommy just friends, back to what it was like before the first time they had had sex together, not being able to touch him, hold him or kiss him. Kim was sure she wouldn’t be able to deal with that.

Tommy places his hand under her chin and brings her face up so her gaze finally meets his. Her eyes are glistening.

“Hey, you know how much I like spending time with you ” he reassures her. Kim just stares at him. He liked spending time with Evan too so what he was saying meant nothing to her. ” Why do we have to change things why can’t we just stay as we are. ” Tommy asks with a noticeable annoyance in his voice.

Kim pulls away. Fighting back the tears she turns to grab her bag and her school blazer.

“It gets messy Kim, and you know it. You fucking hate messy just as much as I do ” Tommy says slightly annoyed with the whole conversation. A conversation that they had the day before and the day before that. Tommy was growing frustrated with the whole thing.

Tommy again brushes his dark hair away from his face and stares at her Intently.

Kim turns to face him “yeah you are right. I do hate messy” she fakes a smile and exits the small shed at the back of the school only allowing her tears to fall once she had got far enough away from him.

Tommy rushes behind her “Kim wait please. ”

Kim stops and faces him. She hated hearing the sadness in his voice. It took her right back to the night Tommy’s Mum left. Even though he knew it was on the cards. Tommy had spoken about the constant rows he had witnessed time and time again. He had spoken about how his Mum would threaten his dad that if he didn’t give up gambling then she would leave. Maybe he thought she didn’t mean it and that she would never leave but she did. Tommy chose to stay with his dad. He said he felt that his dad needed him more. He knew that he would not be able to cope on his own. The pain in his mum’s eyes when he refused to go with her was one Tommy would never forget.

Tommy was quick to return the favour when Kim’s younger brother Scott passed away when he was just twelve years old following a long battle with cancer.

Tommy was right there with her throughout it all. He gave her his shoulder to cry on and always checked in on her but for Kim that wasn’t enough. She wanted more.

She loved being with him. She loved it when he made love to her, of course, for him she knew it was just sex.

She was no different from every other girl in the school that Tommy had sex with but in her mind it was different.

She wanted to believe he looked at her differently, touched her differently and

kissed her differently but she knew that the reality was, she was the same as all the other girls.

“Maybe we shouldn’t do this anymore?” he tells her noticeably uncomfortable with Kim’s public display of sadness. Kim was losing him she could feel it. It was clear he didn’t want her the way that she wanted him as he wouldn’t be able to just toss her to the side like that.

“I am sorry, I have just been a bit low lately, not myself.” She told him “Been thinking about Scott and….” She hesitated and lowered her head even further.

“I will always be there for you.” Tommy told her. She looked up and noticed him looking at the faded scars on her arms. She dropped her bag and pulled on her blazer to hide the scars. Tommy didn’t like seeing them just as much as she didn’t like him seeing them. It took him back to a painful time in his life. He remembered carrying her to the waiting ambulance. Tommy quickly pushed the thoughts away and flashed a half smile at Kim.

“Okay, let’s talk later.” Tommy told her when he clapped eyes on his best mate Evan waiting for him.

Kim nods and heads to class.

“Kim again?” Evan remarks when Tommy approaches him.

“It’s easy ” Tommy shrugs. “Well, it was.” Tommy frowns looking back at Kim. He knew that it was becoming a problem, a problem that he would have to deal with eventually.

Evan smiles. Evan knew how close they were. It was last year that it moved from best friends to best friends with benefits. Evan was also close with Kim, well not as close as Tommy but close enough for her to confide in him about how she felt about Tommy.

Evan had promised not to say anything and that he would keep it to himself which he did, after all Evan was a trustworthy guy.

Out of the three of them Evan was also the only one who took school seriously, well slightly more serious than the two of them.

Family meal times for Evan had become unbearable since his brother Elliot had been accepted to study law. how great Elliot was and how well he was doing, shoved down his throat along with the seasoned chicken and roast potatoes. They all assumed that Evan would just follow in Elliot's footsteps. it didn't matter that Evan had never shown an interest in Law and that wherever Evan went he would have a football tucked under his arm, football was his love. his excellent grades and high achievements at school were not even to secure him a place at a top university, it was simply to keep his parents off his back. Law was Elliot's dream not Evans. he had his own dreams.

“Oh no Tommy has girl trouble. ” Evan jokes and chucks the football he was holding at him.

“What is so funny you dick?” Tommy asks catching the ball and headers it a couple of times before throwing it back to Evan.

Evan places his arm around Tommy’s shoulders “well girl trouble is the thing you have always claimed to be the best at avoiding, now look what you have gone and done.” Evan laughs as he pointed out the obvious. Truth was Tommy already knew there was beginning to be an issue. He felt it more and more and knew that he would have to put a stop to it now before she got hurt. He enjoyed having sex with Kim but honestly no more than he did with any other girl. Tommy was good at detaching himself from most situations and people.

“How comes you never have a girl then? ” Tommy jokes. Which was a fair question. He had known Evan for three years now and had never once seen him so much as look at any girl. “Do you like girls? ” Tommy playfully asks. “It is cool with me if you don’t.” Tommy adds.

“Yes ” Evan says rolling his eyes and leading his friend into the noisy building. “Where is your bag? ” Evan asks Tommy.

It wasn’t unlike Tommy to show up to school without his books. His hectic home life was a huge factor in that and the fact that Tommy just didn’t care much about school or anything else for that matter.

“Oh, shit it’s in the shed ” Tommy laughs. He turns quickly and starts racing out of the building. He rushes through the double doors and collides with a girl knocking her to the floor. “Oh, shit sorry ” Tommy shouts not stopping to pick her up. The young girl tuts and remains on the floor in shock.

Evan exits the building and notices the dishevelled looking girl in a heap on the floor. Her long strawberry blonde hair covered most of her pale face. Her piercing blue eyes narrowed and fixed on Tommy as he raced across the school ground toward the shed.

“Here” Evan says offering his hand to the girl. She takes hold and he pulls her up. "Are you okay?” Evan asks. His smile is warm and safe. His light blonde hair seemed straw like from the excessive amount of hair gel. She just nods shyly. Her cheeks are flushed. “Okay ” Evan laughs and watches her enter the building. “Sorry I didn’t catch your name? ” Evan shouts after her.

“Amelia ” she replies shyly and then disappears through the large double doors.

Tommy holding his bag above his head, re-joins Evan. “You would forget your head if it wasn’t screwed on ” Evan giggles Tommy rolls his eyes. "I picked the girl up by the way ” Evan adds. Tommy swings his bag on his shoulder and smiles. “Looks like we have a new girl in the school, and she looks like she is in our year too ” Evan laughs placing his arm over his best friends’ shoulders. “Kim might have to get in line ” Evan laughs.

“Shit my blazer ” Tommy shouts and begins to race back to the shed.

Evan laughs and shakes his head. “What a prick.” He mutters and heads to class.