Maria

My middle name is maria

It was the middle name my parents agreed on

My middle name was not very known to schools, people and some family members.

Everyone thinks maria is a beautiful choice.

maria was torture

Maria was my grandmother's name

My grandmother showed her kids a horrible reality

grandmother was a alcoholic, she would drink before bringing me home or when i was around.

Grandmother showed to be more jealous because their was no fantasy for her and her kids

grandmother would hit my cousins and my siblings with a hand or slipper, never saw the bruises, she cause.

I guess no change.

I still questioned, why was I the favorite? I guess I will never understand

My middle name is maria

I want to change my middle name

Maria is a torture of pain.

torture of something i never asked for

grandmother and her kids would be ashamed of my looks or what I had.

grandmother was the alcoholic, mother wasn't the alcoholic but i was still not proud of her ways.

Maria is the middle name, I want to go away,

Maria is not me

Maria shouldn't be something I keep.

Maria sounds like a beautiful choice or having a middle name named after not seeing the red flag at first.

But kids get old they see the horrible people.

those middle names are a nightmare.

those middle sometimes cant be changed?

some people still like it.

why those middle names?

you knew the issue you had with them?

just why?

i wish Maria didn't exist

why should I live up to Maria

I wish I could change it.

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