Prologue-Amber 16yrs Old
God, I’m bored—so fucking bored.
I’m currently spending my summer holidays with my mum and dad at my abuela’s home in Mallorca, Spain. My abuela ‘my grandma’ is really my great grandma but she hates being called ‘Bisabuela’ as it makes her feel old—I know, go figure.
Here I am sat at the beach looking at the view and I’m bored, I’m gutted Eva, my best friend couldn’t come with us, me mum came up with some bullshit excuse about my abuela not liking strange people in her home.
I recall our argument a couple of days before we were due to leave. “Amber babe, you know I’d of brought Eva along if I could. But you know how your abuela gets.” mum sighs.
“I don’t see why I can’t just stay with Eva then am sure pops an ma ava wouldn’t mind” I whine.
“No—absolutely not, you know Ava and Paddy are having a hard-enough time with holly and they’re stressed out enough as it is with waiting for Holly’s diagnosis” mum says sternly.
“Fine—fine, Am gonna be bored off me head though mum” I moan.
She scoffs in disbelief. “Amber, you’re spending your summer holidays in Spain...am sure you’ll find something to do, now come on...blow dry your mum’s hair” she grins pointing to my hair case. I get my new hairdryer out that mum got me for when I start college after the summer holidays.
“I can’t wait until you’re a fully qualified hairdresser, you can hook your mum up” she grins with a wink.
I laugh. “I’ll give you family discount” I wink back at her as I get to work blow drying her hair, not talking about the trip to abuela’s again.
“It’sa beautifula view isn’t it?” A male voice asks me breaking me out of my memory.
I blink a few times taking my eyes away from the ocean view and lay my eyes on the beautiful man before me.
Wow…
“I... I....Yes, it is” I stutter. “Sorry I was in a world of my own then” I smile.
“Aaaah! It’sa okay mi amor, I too geta lost in my head” he grins his voice heavy with Spanish accent.
I blush at his endearment. He’s gorgeous, he must be about 18-19yrs old and me dad would absolutely shit a brick if he seen me with this lad. He’s about 6ft tall with dark hair and gorgeous ocean blue eyes, his tanned body is mostly hidden behind a white vest and black shorts. His arms are muscular with a tattoo of a gothic looking cross on his left upper arm.
“So youa here ona holiday?” He asks. “Sorry, uh forgive me—I just felt so entranced by your beauty that I had to talk to you—My name is Pablo” he grins holding out his hand for me to shake.
“Amber,” I smile shyly as i go to shake his hand, but he clasps my hand in his bringing it to his lips and places a kiss on my knuckles.
“Amber” he purrs. “A precious and beautiful jewel—quite fitting for you, no?” Placing another gentle kiss to knuckles.
I blush furiously whispering a “Thankyou”
Over the weeks Pablo and I were inseparable, the only time I didn’t see him was when abuela wanted to teach me about our culture and heritage, as much as I loved my abuela she can talk your ears off.
Before i knew it it was the week we were going home, Pablo had told me that he would move to Liverpool for me and that he loved me, he already knew that I loved him. Tonight, I wanted to give the last part of me, he already owned my heart. So I was going to give him my body. We’d experimented a lot, but he always knew not to push until I was ready, he was my first kiss, I wanted him to be my first everything.
The night I lost my virginity, it wasn’t as nice as I thought it would be, it hurt. Pablo told me the pain would ease and to not worry. I tried to relax but it wasn’t easy, Pablo had already came and he removed himself from my body not saying a word then walked naked to the bathroom to remove the condom.
I laid there, a soreness between my legs not knowing what to do with myself, I wanted to say i’m happy that i lost my virginity to the man i love but it feels all wrong. Pablo walks back into the bedroom now wearing boxers and he starts getting dressed. “I’m sorry Mi Amor but work have just called, they need me to work the night shift, Rafael called in sick” he smiles sadly. “I’m sorry I can’t stay, but I need the money especially if I’m to come with you” he says giving me a chaste kiss.
That makes me smile. “I know, and it’s okay. I understand, I’ll call a cab” I tell him. “Um, will I see you tomorrow?” I ask hopeful.
“Ah, I don’t know mi amor, I have to work a lot this week. You understand, don’t you?” He says taking my face in his hands once he sees the sadness on my face.
“I guess” I say sadly. “I love you” I tell him.
“Me too” he replies and finishes getting dressed.
I go all week with no word from pablo, no replies to my calls or texts, in the end I resort to going to his workplace where I know he works.
Once there they tell me he’s been off work for the last two days, worried now, I go to his apartment and use his spare key I saw him get out whenever he’d forget his keys.
Walking in, I go to shout his name but stop when I hear groans and squeaking noises, I slowly and quietly walk towards where the noise is coming from I gently open the door and look at the scene before me— Pablo is lying on his bed where he had taken my virginity only this time he has a brunette riding his cock. “Fuck— si mi amor, just like that—faster” he groans.
His eyes are closed in pleasure and the woman is riding him like he’s a prized bull at a fucking rodeo. A sob catches in my throat at what’s happening here before me, my boyfriend who is meant to love me, meant to be moving to Liverpool for me is cheating on me.
The noise I make must give my presence away to me being here because the bull rider stops riding him not fazed of the fact that she’s naked. “What?” She asks me.
What?! Fucking what?
Pablo opens his eyes. “Mi Amor, why did you stop? You were fucking me so good” he growls grabbing her arse cheeks in his hands.
Seeing him with her hurts my heart—how could he?
“You have company” she tells him jerking her head over to me.
He looks to me thinking i’d see an ounce of remorse in his eyes but see none, the tears stream down my face. “What are you doing here?” He grunts patting the girl’s arse to let him up.
I watch as the girl removes herself from his cock and covers herself with a sheet. “What the fuck Pablo really? You tell me you love me, you say you’ll move home with me—you take my fucking virginity then you blank me, you don’t answer my calls or texts—and you ask ME what I’m doing here?” I cry.
He rolls his eyes at me before picking up a towel to wrap it around him before he grabs my arm “Come with me” he growls and pulls me behind him. “I’ll be right back, Mi Amor” he says to the slut on his bed.
What the actual fuck? He’s fucking talking to her as if am not even here.
He pushes me into his living room shutting the door behind him and looks at me with a bored expression.
“I thought you loved me?” I croak.
He scoffs. “No, mi amor—you were just a conquest, a how you say, a bet i had with my friend” he grins wickedly. “I told him I’d make you fall for me and give me your virginity and you did, you served your purpose” he shrugs with zero remorse in his eyes.
“Are you fucking kidding me right now?” I hiss. “I gave you my heart, I gave you my body—my virginity is not something I can have back.” I choke. “God, who are you?” I cry.
“Someone who just made 500 euros off a bet” he grins wickedly.
I slap him hard across the face and he looks at me in anger, I wont show him i’m scared, i hold my own.
“Leave now amber—go back to Liverpool” he growls angrily pointing to his front door.
I give him a look of disgust before I turn to leave and as I get to the front door, I shout. “You were shite anyway—couldn’t even make me come, you prick” I shout as I slam the door behind me.
I managed to keep my cool until I got back to abuela’s house, I get into the shower and let everything go. I cry for my heart, i cry for my virginity and i cry for how stupid i feel for believing pablo loved me.
I swore to never tell Eva about Pablo, even though she’s my best friend. I just couldn’t tell her about this—I feel so ashamed of myself.
I swore to never let a man fool me ever again.
