Overthinking
We are always smiling, laughing, and being happy but deep down inside she making fun of us, beating us down, cussing me but also telling us to smile so no one knows that she’s in there, Ik you are wondering who she, she is overthinking, but it’s not just her she brought a couple friends too, oh how wonderful, we would like yall to meet depression, cutting, suicidal thoughts, insecurities, anxiety that’s not all but they are all here to party, we are suppose to have control over what they do but instead they have taken us hostage and now have control, control over how we think, control over our eating schedule, control over well you know, she’s telling us she’s looking out for our best interest but what exactly is that, we cry at night, in the dark as she laugh at our pain, telling us to suck it up and that we are meant to be. she tells us positive thoughts are not allowed because they hurt her feelings and it is not fair for us to invite people she does not like, so we take a step back and stay in our place afraid of what she might do, sigh breathe, we can’t that not allowed, that’s breaking the rule and there is no telling what might happen next, our laughter, smiles, happiness is a cry for help but no one see, no one understands, no one hears because of the sound proof skin that she has masked us with. Well we are tired unhappy and drowning deep inside, It’s time for her and her buddies to leave so we packed it all up and threw them all out as the tears began to fall from her eyes like the rain drop on the window on a rainy day and as she begged me to let her stay, we looked back trying to forgive but remembered that we are in control now, that we deserve to be happy, so we slammed the door and never looked back.
