Prologue
"Have you lost your mind?" Rishi shrugged Kila.
“Do you know, leaving everything will cause you a lot of damage? -- and what about your career and all your ambitions? Are you going to leave all of that?”
‘No really? you’re not even responding to me. Don’t tell me you want to leave everything and live in the woods?’ Rishi called out
No matter what I’ve to say, you won’t understand me either way...Kila whispered, slightly hesitating.
“Really?” Rishi yelled - “Are you serious right now? - You sound so stupid, just hear yourself out Kila”
“Anyways, I’ll be leaving tomorrow, I’ll update you when I reach my destination. And yes, you don’t have to worry about me. I’m leaving the job and probably don’t have a plan to work for until I don’t know when” - Kila exclaims.
( What I was expecting, none of them ever understood me, neither took any interest in my decision, then why he’s here lecturing me?) Kila continues to contemplate in her mind.
Worry? As if....huh!!!leave it! - Rishi scoffs
′I don’t understand, why you’re so adamant in leaving your job. You’ve surely gone insane to come up with this idea. At least you should have discussed this with your father. He knows it better than you. I don’t know why you’re even leaving the job. You could have the job and still go on living life like normal people.′ he stares right into Kila’s eyes as if trying to intimidate her.
‘This is not something new’ - Kila says sternly. Affirming her stand, she stares right back at him making him aware that he doesn’t intimidate her anymore.
‘I’ve always wanted to be free, travel, and live a life where I can enjoy and experience new things.’ - She stands bold. Although she was shivering inside, she didn’t want to be obvious about his state in front of him.
Internally she wanted to scream and cry but she also knew that she had to stay strong to assert her choices, right now.
‘Getting a job was my priority’ - Kila continues - ’I did work for quite a few months. But I’m not happy, instead, I’m living miserably. It’s not happening with me. This living and adulting, it’s like I’m in a boarding school.” - Kila paused, then took a deep breath.
She continued - “I did what I wanted to do, and I think I’ve done enough to suit society and its norms. I pleased my parents, I took a master’s to their choice. But now I cannot do it. I cannot be a slave to others. I never wanted to be like this. I’ve started hating myself, What else I should be doing when I’m not happy?”
Rishi turned to a different corner of the room, Kila tried to face him but Rishi turned to a different direction again.
“I know you won’t understand, in fact, I’m not expecting anyone to understand my decisions. It’s so complicated but I feel like, if I did not draw myself out of this situation, I will not be liberated.”
Kila tried to explain her inner turmoils to Rishi - ’you know, as a friend, I can at least expect you to be present for me, and just listen to what I’m struggling with. If you cannot do this bare minimum, I don’t think we will ever have been good friends.′ - She stood there staring at the wall, hoping Rishi would say something.
“7 years” - she cried, ”we’ve known each other for seven years but you never understood my trauma, the things I was going through. I was doing my best to survive and be okay. I expected you to be there but what you did do? You always nagged me like my dad.”
’How dare you even call me a friend, when you cannot even get my depressing episodes, the anxiety I’ve gone through over the past three years. And now you’re here in my room lecturing me, what I should or should not do in my own fuxking life?” Kila couldn’t control her tears and almost burst out her emotions.
′Ughh! This is so frustrating’ Rishi yelled angrily.
He slams the door hard enough to make the walls vibrate and leaves the room.
