Even then you looked at me
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Even then you looked at me

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Summary

Even Then, You Looked at Me by Carrie ♡ He left. She stayed. And neither of them has truly moved on. Two years ago, Luka Mikhailov a Russian- German disappeared without warning. No goodbyes. No closure. Just silence. He left behind unanswered texts, a worn-out hoodie, and a girl who never stopped wondering what went wrong. Now he’s back. Older. Quieter. Sharper around the edges. Wearing a storm-grey coat, stepping out of a polished Rolls Royce, and holding a bouquet he’s too afraid to give. Irina Moreau a Ukrainian-Italian girl has spent those years trying to forget. She built a routine, stayed soft, and quietly studied a language she swore she'd never need—his. She never expected him to come back. She never expected to feel everything again the moment he looked at her. But this isn’t just a reunion. This is about the things left unsaid. The wounds they pretended had healed. The slow forgiveness that comes not with grand gestures—but with honesty, eye contact, and a quiet apology whispered in Russian. “Thank you. Because even then… you looked at me.” A deeply emotional story of growing up, breaking down, and finding your way back to someone—not because they changed, but because they finally told the truth. For anyone who’s ever loved softly. For anyone who stayed. This story is for you. Some love doesn’t announce itself. Some love just waits. And hopes you’re still looking. Even then.

Status
Complete
Chapters
25
Rating
5.0 (2 reviews)
Age Rating
16+

Mikhailov

Chapter One — “Mikhailov”

The bike came first.

Black, matte, quiet.

The kind that didn’t roar down the street—it whispered through it, like it didn’t need to prove anything.

Luka Mikhailov pulled off the helmet and shook his hair loose. Cold morning air bit at his neck. He didn’t flinch. Just took a breath and exhaled, long and slow, like he was getting rid of something.

Black gloves.

Black coat.

Black mood.

The university courtyard was already stirring with noise—shoes on pavement, girls laughing into phones, someone asking where the library building was for the hundredth time.

He walked through it untouched.


“Oi, Luka!” Mason waved him over, perched on the railing like a prince in designer sneakers.

Jace leaned against the wall beside him, earbuds in, smirking.

Reid had two takeaway coffees in his hands, one already half empty.

“You look like a funeral,” Reid said, handing one cup to Luka.

Luka took it. “Thanks.”

“You’re welcome, Grim Reaper.”

They were loud sometimes. Not stupid.

All three of them matched his vibe—clean, sharp, intimidating in that effortless way.

People didn’t mess with them.

Not because they were cruel. Just... unreadable.


No one knew Luka’s mother still called him Lukashka when she forgot he was grown.

Or that he texted his father in clipped, proper German—like the wrong word might snap the line between them.

Or that he still wore a silver cross beneath his shirt—faith quiet and steady like breath.

The boys knew a little. Enough.

They were his.

At least… for now.


Reid nodded toward the lecture building.

“She here yet?”

Luka’s gaze barely moved. “No.”

But then she was.


Irina.

Wool jumper, long coat, scarf knotted once around her neck.

She walked like someone who didn’t know people stared.

Or maybe she did—but didn’t care.

Chiara and Tess flanked her, deep in conversation.

Luka didn’t hear what they said. Didn’t need to.

As she passed, her eyes flicked to him for just a breath.

A glance.

A smile.

Small. Controlled. Meant only for him.

The kind of smile you’d miss unless it was yours.


Jace whistled low under his breath.

“She doesn’t miss.”

Mason grinned. “If I had a girl like that, I wouldn’t shut up about it.”

Luka sipped his coffee.

Didn’t reply.

He liked it quiet.

He liked it theirs.

Only their friends knew.

Mason, Reid, Jace.

Chiara, Tess.

That was enough.


When they filed into the lecture hall, Luka didn’t follow them to the middle rows.

He peeled off toward the back, quiet steps, eyes scanning like always.

Not paranoid. Just aware.

Irina sat three rows ahead. She didn’t turn.

But she tucked her hair behind her ear with her left hand—where the thin band sat, silver and simple.

The one he gave her.

The one no one asked about.

And he liked it that way.


He pulled out his notebook. Wrote nothing.

Just tapped the pen once against the page and listened to the silence inside himself.

Some people chase what they want.

Some people just… hold it differently.


End of Chapter One.

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