The Sky Reaching Out To The Sky
I was standing on the middle of the road in a heavy rain....drenched all over , soaked to my insides. My body had given up , I didn’t even have the stamina to walk. Standing in front of me was the sorrow uncalled or more accurately the death awaited...
He was standing on the roadside breathing heavily..
“Sama , return with me ” he said
“NEVERRR” I tried to say but couldn’t.
“I will count till 3 , come to me or I will and it wouldn’t be good”
How I wish I could die but I can’t only if.....
“1.................”
The countdown had begun I wanted to run away but I was tired , my body couldn’t respond to me .. It was too late
“2.................”
“This is where I end up after running away ...Why this place ????GOD Whyyyy???” I thought
“And 3........... I am comin’ MI AMORE” he said and started walking towards me.
I stepped backwards not wanting him to be anywhere near me. But my body was too slow...He would reach me in no time...
I could see a beam of light coming towards me in my side vision...“What could it be?? ” I thought..
but before I could comprehend anything I got hit..
I was sent soaring upwards....The sky reaching out to the sky...
“I am sorry ” I whispered to the stars...
I was lying on the road in a pool of blood...my vision blurred but I could see him running towards me...
He was just a few steps apart when he got hit by a speeding truck...
He was lying in front of me ...Blood oozed out from his head..
I could see no pain in his eyes....he looked at me , our eyes interlocked and then he went still , lifeless...
“What a game you played , fate!!!!” and then I succumbed to the darkness....
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“Samaaaaaaaa , WAKE UPPPPPPP, we are getting late!!!!”
I could hear Alina yelling but I wanted to sleep...just a bit more....
“2 minutes pleasee” I pleaded but still she yanked off my blanket and dragged me out of the bed..
“The class starts at 8 a.m and it’s already 7:50” she yelled again.
“Okay Ma’am” I said
‘I have to get ready before this woman makes me go deaf’... I thought
We sprinted towards our school after getting ready in just 10 minutes.
Finally after a full 15 minutes marathon we reached...Unusually there was lot of commotion in the corridor
“What’s going on ?? Did a celebrity come over and that too at this hour??” I asked Alina
“You don’t know.. A new psychologist has joined and I heard he’s quite handsome. His name is Munir ” she replied
“Ohhh..”
‘Just girls being girls going crazy after a handsome guy...Don’t they have a bit of dignity’ I thought..
“Look look it’s him Sama” Alina nudged me pointing towards a man wearing skinny fit black colored jeans with silky navy blue shirt paired with black sneakers..
“Isn’t he just too much” I said
“Why?” Alina asked
“Is that what you wear at workplace.. Isn’t it too casual and unprofessional..” I replied
“Whatever he looks good though”....she said
He looked like an attention seeker , wanting girls to drool over him....
We entered our class and sat down . Our class had a smart board, 4 windows -2 facing the outer side of the campus and 2 facing the corridor and also 2 doors .The whole class was empty. All the 100 students had left to see Mr. Psychologist. I couldn’t see his face clearly but I knew at least this much that I should stay away from him. I already had a lot of rumors to my name. I can never understand why girls simp over someone too much. I am way too different. It’s tiring enough to behave normally. I took a glance of the corridor . The girls were standing outside talking about him and blushing. ‘So unreasonable’ I thought but then it hit me ‘Why can’t I like someone to this extent?? why do I get bored of people easily??’
“What are you thinking about?” Alina asked taking out her chemistry notebook.
“Nothing ” I replied plainly. She looked at me and started studying after I passed a smile.
She thinks I am a cheerful girl , always smiling, always happy and positive only if she knew how empty I was . Finally Nisha Ma’am came and she yelled at the girls for crowding in the corridor. Everyone settled in, but their conversations had not yet ended .The noise was too much , more than what I could bear. My ears started ringing , I could feel myself zoning out , my body went weak and I felt as if I would collapse any moment. My head started to hurt a lot. I drank water again and again trying to keep myself as normal as possible . Suddenly the whole class was silent. I looked and tried to identify 5 things : podium, smartboard , water bottle , Alina’s hair , the sharp stinging pain in my ears made me stop halfway.. ‘Only one more is left ...identify one more object’ I tried to look around but I just couldn’t focus my headache and the ringing in my ears wouldn’t let me... books... finally... I then tried to touch 4 things around me books , bottle bench and my hair.. I tried focusing on their texture , it helped it did help and the ringing in my ears finally stopped. The 5,4,3,2,1 method did work...
I looked up and saw Nisha Ma’am standing by the door . For the 1st and I guess the last time I was thankful to her.
She ascended the stage and spoke in a much higher tone “All the residential students , listen up there’s a new psychologist appointed for your counseling ,his name is Munir , if you have any issues regarding your mental health or you feel depressed you can talk to him , he will be available from morning 8 a.m. to night 8:30 .Got it??”
“YESSS MAAM ” everyone shouted.
“Okay so now Munir sir would like to have a few words with you” she said and stood aside while Mr Munir walked upto the podium , held the mike and said “Good Morning everyone”
“Good Morning Sirrr” everyone shouted again.
He laughed .
“What a jerk. He sought out attention and now he is laughing at them ,like seriouslyy..” I said to Alina
“It’s just a polite gesture Sama, what’s wrong with you why do you dislike him so much?” she asked
“He is going to be our therapist yet he doesn’t know not to wear a casual attire at workplace and that too on his 1st day. Is he here for modelling or therapy sessions?” I replied Alina gave me a side eye and said “You are judging too fast. And let him wear what he wants, no one’s said anything up till now”
“They are busy drooling over him”
“Okay whatever , just let me listen to him”
He had started giving his so called speech on mental health. There was nothing new for me to listen to . I had learnt about behaviors and disorders while I was just 14 .
So I did what I do zoned out and started to ponder about how life would have been had I been like them....
AUTHOR’S NOTE : The 5 ,4,3,2,1 method is an emergency temporary relief method for tinnitus . Patients suffering from tinnitus also experience some degree of hyperacusis.. This method provides temporary relief ....
The method; identify 5 objects , touch 4 objects around you, listen for 3 types of sound, smell 2 different scents , taste 1 thing or focus on the taste in your mouth.
