Chapter 1
I am just a boy who never truly understood what it meant to fall in love. The feeling was foreign to me. Love was just a word, an idea I thought I knew, but never something I had genuinely felt.
But then came her.
The girl with huge, lovable eyes, a broad, innocent smile, soft yet beautiful ears, adorable pointed nose and a nerdy charm with her glasses on. She often looked nervous, as if avoiding people, and I assumed at first she might be arrogant or full of herself. I was wrong. She turned out to be the genuine girl i have known.
Her baby-like face still lingers in my mind as I write this. She is both confident and shy, focused yet careless, tough but deeply emotional. And I love her in every way she is. She is the kind of girl I would do anything to be with.
She made me want to change, not for her, but for myself, to become the best version of me. Yet I realize now that the only push I have left is the hope of having her in my life someday....maybe. A future that doesn’t exist, but still lives in my heart.
I never imagined love could hit like this. The distance I created from her only made my chest heavier, my breathing harder, and my body warmer. For the first time in my life, I could hear my own heartbeat calling out for someone, with a pain that echoed in my ears and tears I fought to hold back, just to appear stronger.
I may not be good at expressing myself, and I may be a terrible writer, but this is how beautiful my love truly is. It is not about winning or losing in love, it is about the feeling. And for me, love has taught its truest meaning: letting go.
