Adopted

So i was adopted when i was two... they received me as a foster when i was around six weeks old . I dont remember anything before them besides flashes of dishes against walls and screaming all the time . I can remember pretty far back into my childhood because it wasn't really a childhood as just the beginning of my grooming . When i was five ( we'll use fake names ) lets say his name is evan And hers is lucy adopted a second child and his name was Allen (fake names for everyone) now me and allen were the last of her kids .. she now had 8 kids in all ,i was the youngest then there was allen then luke then justin then callen then dan then one who we never met , then the oldest .... ashen .. she and i were the only females, oldest and youngest ...so im just going to start from my youngest trauma and make my way up to the age i am know . So here's my story and sorry about the long intro yall are going to be glad of the details soon . Anyway my youngest memory was with my father even who would kiss me with tongue as a child and would tell me not to "tell mommy " as she wouldn't understand our bond . Anyway it got worse from there . At some point i let myself believe he was right and i did owe it to him to make him happy . Over the years because we were raised religious as even and lucy were "Christian " even would use it against me ,saying god would be pleased i was obeying my fatheer like the bible commands ... anyway so i believed him ,mainly because no on ever told me otherwise . My mother would catch us and tell him he was being risky and could go to jail but would tell me im a whore and slut and shed slap me . So i grew to hate her :( .and as long as i did what he said he was nice in a way she never was . He gave me candy he played games with me ... but god the peices of my soul i gave away to have some kind of peace .. not wven peace just not getting slapped and beat all the time. Most of the time all he wanted was a blowjob so that wasn't too bad .i was skilled at that tho i hated swallowing. But when i hit 12 and i got my period my mom put me on birth control the next day . And the morni.g after i started my brothers were playimg games and my mom was in the shower ,i was awaked by his fingers inbetween my legs and a pain like nothing else . So yeah i lost my "v card" that day , and i was used like a fuck toy every day after for years . So that sucked ass :) and on top of that ,remember my other adopted brother