Time & Space
Staring at
The Mountain
By: Stacy Day
Book Summary:
Do The best YOU
can
until
you know
better
Then when
you
know
better
do Better.
-Mya Angelo
When you are at
a crossroad trailhead
Making the decision on
which trail to take you to
the summit of
the mountain
you want to be on.
You do not know
what is ahead
the terrain is unknown
All you know is
you are exhausted & need to finish strong
You want to summit & you must
you are in the climb
You have
to finish to survive
the decision
the trailhead
to go
Left or right
The better decision is
not always
easily seen
All
You can is
the best you
can do
use what information you have
make the best decision you can
but…
make a decision
a nondecision
is a decision
that decision
is certain death
what trail is worth
the effort
what mountain is worth the effort is will take to summit
which mountain has the highest peaks?
which mountain has the most beautiful views?
Which mountain has the most fruitful returns?
Which mountain had the glory of the climb?
You do not have forever climbing up hard terrain to just to be met with a den of wolves.
You do not have forever to be wasting
you time on mountains that are
not worth the effort.
You must plan ahead
You must have an endgame.
Once you know which damn mountain you want to climb.
You must climb.
You must move.
The sun is coming down
When the sun comes down.
You need to be ready.
If you do not plan for the journey ahead
You will not survive
Make decisions in your plan
The will take you do the summit of
The mountain you want to be on
Those decisions
Are
hard & messy
Making. . .
the correct decision.
Making the decision
that you need to have
the life you deserve.
Those decisions
are
hard & Messy.
They are
uncomfortable & sad.
to get to
my joy.
I had to give up
what little
joy I had.
I had to.
There was
no other choice.
I could not stand
where I was standing.
If I did the fire
would get me.
Worst get my child.
to make real movement
in my life.
I had to make sure that
I climbed up
the right damn mountain
this time.
I am too exhausted
to be spending time on
hikes that are
not meant for me.
I am too exhausted
to not get it
right this time.
When it was time
to stand up & fly
out of My marriage.
I needed to investigate
this old of friend of mine.
There was one problem.
he thinks
he is a spy.
I have
mental health issues.
I do not need to add more
We might be
too crazy
for each other.
What if. . . .
I climb up his mountain
I am met with his demons
What if…
I like his demons
What if…
I don’t
He fears that they wont
My demons are mean
I almost killed him
With the apple to his eye
What if…
He is the apple to my eye
What if…
We will what if our time away
What if…
We are ready
What if…
We get to summit together this time.
What if…
This is the endgame
What if…
Its our turn
Just one problem
lowkey have trouble
remembering him.
All I knew is
he is Handsome
He is the suppression
that I needed to unlock
to heal.
His suppression is unlocked
Its time
Its time to take my turn
I am next in line
I am trained
I have everything I need
To complete this quest
Now that his suppression is unlocked
I cannot get him out of my head.
Every memory of him
that was unlocked.
Every fantasy scenario
in my Head.
Both future & Past
My head was under control
getting consumed with
the most joyous of memories
potential joyous memories
invading
the joy joy garden
pulling the painful weeds
Just one thing.
I am broken & sad.
Before I let anyone in
My joy joy garden
I must love myself
Even though I wish
I could pretend to
just be okay.
I was not.
My old friend
wanted me
to be healed.
Not for him.
But for me.
Mostly for
my child.
to heal.
I needed
time & space.
Although. . .
he is handsome & kind
He also
hurt me
real bad.
My house is
not strong enough
To withstand another . . . .
heartbreak
My heart & Head are
not strong enough
to take a hit
like that.
Now That
he is dug up.
Is he really. . .
the chosen one?
