Staring at The Wave
Staring at The Wave
By: Stacy Day
Que:
Waves
Hell of A View
Sharks
Heart on Fire
Happier Than Ever
Ghost
Heaven
About Damn Time
Introduction:
Waves
Luke Bryan
Here I stand
Staring at The Wave.
Waiting.
This is it. My Seventh Book. The Journey will end. Where was I when I started writing these series.
These books were written in the aftermath of 2020. After leaving behind my corporate healthcare job. My mental health storm was destroying my mind. My greatest fears are coming true. Failure.
Leaving behind My Corporate Healthcare job. It was a career that I earned. I worked from Medical Receptionist to the Corporate Level. I looked up and made it. If I stayed and worked hard. I could have been an executive in my career. There would come a day that I could be the head of the table.
In 2020, God was forcing me to redirect my sails before it was too late. My internal compass had me retreat in my mind. When I came to a crossroad at the start of My Healing. Years leading up to be leaving behind that job. I was trying to heal My Mind.
Hell of A View
Eric Church
Normally, there was a utopia of sweet memories that circulate in my head. Now that haven was being overtaken by neglect. This neglect of not preserving my joy. Was now looking to be a fatal decision. The storm was destroying my haven in my head. I had to do something quick, to spark what was left of my joy.
When I looked ahead, 30 years from now. 40 years from now. When I saw myself sitting in offices. Staring out the glass in a tower. My smiled turned into a frown. The world was changing. I sat and thought of how I got there. When I was 19 year old girl. Sitting on the bathroom floor. I flipped a book from the community college. It landed on Medical Assistant. I thought to myself. It’s a sign.
Then I went up to the school. Signed up for classes and started my journey. When I was 31 and standing in a boardroom. Leading training classes and stared at for advice. I understood that I made it. Then I thought about what that 19 year old girl really wanted. Did she really want to work in Healthcare. What did she really want to be.
Sharks
Imagine Dragons
Being a corporate sell-out was the last thing she ever wanted to be.
She wanted to be a long list of things. Healthcare was not on the list. She needed to be something. She randomly picked that. She worked to get the degree. She got the job and she climbed the ladder. When I got to the top.
I was met with a devilish den of sharks on top of a volcano of not my dream.
When I started writing Staring at The Sun. My hands shook in disbelief that I was brave enough to give up my spot in the game. That I had enough nerve to start over. Most people live in the wrong career. Let the wrong career kill them. Fear of failing chained me to a career that I didn’t love.
What would have been failing.
If I never tried at the real dream.
Heart on Fire
Eric Church
When I called and said goodbye to a company that I thought I would retire from. Told that maternal guidance goodbye for the last time. My Mind and Heart was nowhere I wanted to be.
To save myself. I needed to heal. Healing could not be done in a Soul-less job and Love-less marriage.
I lite the match and set my life on fire.
Happier Than Ever
Kelly Clarkson
All the tools in my toolkit of fighting my mental health, were not working. The last tool I had was to retreat into my past. Trying to seek shelter in a happier time with my fire friends. A time before responsibility and duty. However, with traveling back in time comes with its own set of heartbreak.
A heartbreak that I finally healed from. My heart went through another break. We hit the tragedy iceberg.
Ghost
Justin Bieber
If I did not heal from heartbreaks past. I would not have survived My Mother’s death.
If I didn’t blow up my life. Losing My mom would have hurt. It would have sinked me. My funeral would have been shortly after hers. If I didn’t spend time with her. If I didn’t leave the marriage she didn’t want me in. if I didn’t get healthy. If I didn’t do the things I was scared of. I would have laid in bed. Eating my feelings, until my heart broke.
When she got sick. I made a promise to her. That I would write these books that I always knew I could. We sat on buses and dreamt it. Planned the storyline. Made the memories to fill them. Made stories to outline the pages with a life well lived.
As I am writing. A song rings in the background of my invisible success. That I see the clues and hear the melodies. Ghost by Justin Bieber.
Heaven
Jason Aldean
My Mom’s diagnosis at the start of this. It was every ICD-10 code that I never wanted to see attached to a paper with My Mom as the patient. Working in Oncology for 5 years.
Then the second part of my career. I spent in cancer prevention for another 5 years. I spent my life dedicated to cancer. Seeing the death of it, to helping prevent that outcome.
Those codes were keystrokes of a death sentence. This I knew for sure. There was no way to steer the wheel away from it. My mom had an invitation to heaven. It came while she was in the great white north. I was under Ohio Trees. In those moments, we waited to be reunited. I started writing this book. This is a book about my life. A book she would want to read.
My real-life love stories. My unwavering hope for brighter days. How to stay resilient when life is getting the best of you. I took you on a journey in my youth.
In that journey led me to discover God’s Grand Design for my life. It was better than I could imagine. That journey was harder than I could imagine.
Years I was made to feel like the tail.
In writing, what I found is. . . .
I was always the head
Never the tail
Now. . .
All My Dreams are about to Come True.
About Damn Time
