Sole Purpose of Sunflower
Ana asked me what if we weren't about to be together I was to be married to some one else. What would you have done then.
I laughed dear do you know in this story my brother would be the most important character.
I will tell my brother that I couldn't marry love of my life so I will stay alone forever now and will go to some mountain instead.
After I leave he would probably talk to mom and dad about us. Dad being furious will ask my brother to search for your address and he would talk to your dad to stop the wedding and then your dad would probably talk to you then. You would be furious for sure and ask where am I now and come to counsel me. Won't you.
I would be somewhere in a mountain area. A small cottage with a garden outside the house and a horse just like I said I would live. But the only thing missing will be you.
You reach cottage at night. Knock the door and slap me as soon as possible. I would laugh smile and bring a blanket for you and cover it over you and take you around my arms. You won't hesitate I know I think you might be cold so you didn't hesitate but anyway I will carry you in and bring you some warm water.
You would try to scold me but you will cry instead. I will take you in my arms instead. I will tell you about our connection of how we are one and forever one and how much past life haunts me now the reason for our separations. You would sleep during the story and I would carry you to bed and let you rest and I would gently rub your feet and massage it.
All because my brother helped me in that timeline was I able to marry you hahaha.
You would laugh and say you love your brother so much right.
I would say I couldn't love him enough as much I loved my older brother. I lost him while I was 10 years old. I never loved anyone like I did my older brother. I would tell my cousins how much I loved my older brother always while I couldn't tell him. We used to fight sing invent new things repair things steal things together. At that age I couldn't ride bicycle what I used to do was I used to roll and take cycle to the bus stand which was about 15minutes from home. And then used to wait for him. When the bus would arrive I would smile and laugh look dada I brought cycle. We used to go to cyber cafe and stay for 1hr there then we used to go back home. He knew how to ride bicycle and I was the freeloader (laugh).
(Silence)
The day he died I had a fashion program. In the morning me and dad told him to join us but he was on bad mood father asked him to lend me his belt but he didn't. I looked at him and didn't knew why I was behaving so calmly I said let it be dad I won't need the belt I still don't know why I was so calm I should have fought and asked him why was he behaving that way. But I didn't knew why was i so calm. We thought he would come together with mom later and left. After 2 hr my uncle came to pick me up and said let's go home and come together I asked where was others they said everyone will come together.
As I was on the motorcycle both uncles started talking and started mentioning choking of neck I suddenly understood I don't know how but I knew something terrible happened I started crying. My uncle tried to counsel me and told to stop crying.
As I reached home I saw so many people sitting in front of house and crying I saw my grandfather eyes were red and face was low.
I started looking for my father and mother and both were lying there then I realized whom I lost. I cried and cried. I started saying myself wake up bastard wake up but I was awake and I couldn't change my reality. When we reached the grave yard I got to see him he was covered with white cloth and there was blood stain over the cloth.
I shouted that time and couldn't believe what is happening with me. Why so suddenly why God I asked. I saw his body burning with my own bare eyes and from that day I have changed myself.
I can't help loving everyone. I just look out my brother in everyone in this world. And search his qualities in everyone. The way I connected with my brother I never felt with anyone in this world not even with my parents.
After my younger brother was born I was very happy but I couldn't love him as much I loved my older brother. I couldn't share the bond as I had with him with my younger brother. I realized how hard it is to be a older brother then.
Some days after the death of my older brother my mama asked me there was a belt hidden in the mosquito net did you fight with him over it that was the time I realized I am the mistake in this world I am the guy who killed my brother. I told no at that time but the words hit me in the face and I called myself death demon from that day onwards.
I also had a favorite uncle who used to take care of me a lot. We used to live with him when I was in nursery class. After some time we moved to new home. One day at my birthday when everyone reached and asked to cut the cake I said I will wait for my uncle and until he doesn't come I won't cut the cake. He reached after 5 min and I said I waited for you uncle. He was so confused and happy. After some months he died.
These two were the ones I loved so much and God snatched them away from me.
I really am guilty for not even trying to save them. I must have known that people I love are always taken away from me. My curse always harms my loved ones.
Ana I will never let you die I will kill the death god if he tries to take you away from me.
I will kill each and every God if it is meant to defend you.
I promise you I will never leave your side.
I hug you tightly and you hug me back.
And you say I will love you even after death.
I cry...
Do you know ana how we connected our soul with each other?
Ahaa how say??
The night we asked each other about our blood group you remember right.
You first told me about your birthdate then you asked what is my birthdate and I immediately answered but then you said why did you say would have let me guess😂. And then we went on asking about each other's blood group and I made a joke about Be positive being my blood group then you said you know I have a very rare blood group and will die sooner than others because of some disease that was the day we exchanged souls. That day I couldn't even express my words of how much heart felt the fear or it was on stopped peak for a moment I immediately thought I will fight the universe to keep you with me. That day we exchanged soul you got my soul and I got yours. Every time after that day I was with you mentally even when we were far apart I could talk to you and get a surprise answer like you were there inside me itself. whenever we go apart I believed I am saving you because everyone I have ever loved over the limit has died or left me. 2 died 2 left. I can't let you disappear. But I can't even live without you and your thoughts your thoughts makes me stronger then anyone around me. Ana never ever leave me alone let me hug you.
Haha I won't leave you stupid.....
(Rain is pouring)
Me and lil ana brought you some sunflowers dear. Hope you like it. We will leave it over here.
(Lil ana cries)
Hey hey don't cry don't cry look up in the sky see that bird flying see how good he it is taking his flight you want to fly right?? okay lets make you fly.
( I run taking her over my shoulders) she laughs and I laugh and smile with her and I say I miss you a lot ana.
(i am exhausted because of the dayworks and all the leftover works)
daddy i like watching moon can she come and stay with us.
how can we bring moon here she is so far away dont be idiot and i am busy come and have ur dinner,
i like talking to her about mom at nights,
she says she can bring back mom home one day.
stop it we cant bring back,
she is not coming home,(i Shout)
daddy she will come one daddy,
shut up and come in and go to sleep.
i go inside to bring blanket,
when i come outside she is not there,
i shout lil ana where are you come home,
stupid girl come in I will close the doors and you will have to stay outside.
lil ana.........
lil ana.........
okay stay outside i am locking the door.
i close the door and eat dinner.
i finish eating and come outside to wash the plates.
i again come outside and look around and call out.
lil ana.........
lil ana.........
stupid girl mom cant come back,
she isn't here anymore dear,
she has gone sooo far away...
how can i make you understand.......(cries)
lil ana.........
lil ana.........
stupid stupid stupid...........
i walk down the hill........
shouting her name..........
i cant find her anywhere,
i get more furious i check all the nearby areas,,,,,,
then i come near forest area........
(someone passes)
Its an old man....
Hey old man did you see any child roaming around here???
A child ahhh...I think she went inside the forest....
Forest didn't you stop her old man......
who knows i might have stopped her or maybe not........
but are you a father letting your daughter run away from home in such dark night.
don't you know nowadays there is tigers been spooted around in this areas said the old man...
get lost old man care for yourself i said.
I started running after that shouting lil ana...
lil ana.......
where are you.......
stupid stupid stupid........
where are you.......
once i get hold of you i will not spare you(I shouted angrily).........
lil ana...............
its almost half an hour still no sight of her......
i cried lil anaaaaaaaaaaaa.............
then some roar comes from nearby..........
tiger......
i picked a stick nearby and crouched as i saw a tiger going out from a nearby bush....
i saw blood in his mouth and got my heart freezed and went silent i threw the stick and ran towards the bush where lied lil ana........
i picked her up she has scars all over her face and body blood covered all over i cried lil anaaaaaaaaa........
wake up dear i am sorry i scholded you i am really sorry mom will come back i promise she will i will bring you the moon dear...stupid me stupid stupid stupid.... i am sorry dear i am sorry i am a worst father ever i cant live without you lil anaaa anaaa anaaa.........
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................(more lines needed)
then comes the tiger...........
and roars..........
i am trying to pick her up and take her....
i don't notice the tiger.......
I pick her up and start running.....
tiger comes and jumps over me....
i don't even sense tiger until now......
lil ana sorry i lost balance i dropped you...
wait i am coming.......i will treat you just wait.....
i again go and pick her up.......
again after running a few steps tiger jumps........
as i say i am sorry i see tiger going near her....
i noticed tiger this time..........
i go silent for a moment and whole life flashes before me......
(I will never let death take you away from me,
I will fight and kill death if he ever tries,
I will kill everyone anyone who tries to take you away from me.....
take care of my lil ana....
never let anything hurt her)
i pick up the stone under my feet and threw it at the tiger........
with a soulless body stiff arms and weak legs.......
the tiger looks at me........
and roars as i stand there with my senseless body as i was not even there......
tiger approaches me at speed but i cant even notice anything.....
i just see his neck coming towards me......
i close my eyes and keep my hands forward and again open my eyes.
I see my hands are wrapped around a skulled masked creature.....
my raze increases as my grip in my hand increases,
the creature tries to push as he tries to open my palms...
but i keep my grip more tighter and crush his neck...........
then comes another of the same creature and another and another behind him walks a man in a cloak with a strange weapon......
i roar and run towards him........
as the creatures tries to stop me i fight each of them and progress forward towards him......
as i go on punishing those creatures the man behind walks towards my daughter i shout at him and lose my balance and creatures are now over me....
i punch them again and again.........
the creature approaches towards her and i run but they use something like shield which keeps me from progressing near them...
i punch it again and again...
the creature goes near her and lifts a light from her....
i shout and punch the wall faster and faster their comes the break in the wall now...
i punch more harder and the wall is broken but the creature is already in the air...
rest of the creatures are in the ground trying to fight me i start to jump over the creatures and jump towards the main creature but he pulls out his strange weapon and points towards me and hits me with a strange light....
the light as it hits me i am pushed to the ground making hole in there......
i cry lil ana and my consciousness fades with my pain slowly and tears drop from my eyes as i lose my sight.....
i wake up in suffocation and come outside and run towards lil ana.............
and cry and cry.........
dear aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................
the old man approaches tu sunya hai sunya
tere shiva sab marjate hai,
tera shraap kaisa chal rha hai sunya,
waqt ne sab chin liya terese,
abb kya karega badla leneki bhi shakti nahi hai tereme,
sunya hai tu sunya hahahahaha
aaahhhhhhhhhh(angrily roars),,,,he approaches the old man and catches his neck and suffocates him with red eyes,,,
the old man laughs,
yehi tera shraap hai wo maut k baad atma leta hai tu toh maut deta hai,
aaaaahhhhh picks him up and throws........
goes inside and takes out his rod with pointed head.
and runs towards the forest..........
and starts searching for the tiger..........
sound comes from the bush........
silence stays one is with red eyes and another with roar in his face, both runs towards each other and the scene blinks,
as he strikes the mouth of the tiger and throws him in the ground.....
and shouts aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh....
then he goes near the tiger and strikes him again and again,
he is not satisfied,
he moves back and again strikes,
still not enough he shouts and jumps over the tiger and starts tearing his flesh with his teeth,
he gets blood all over his clothes,
he chews on and on,
and tears off his skin,
the skin of tiger,,,,
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhh he shouts and keeps on tearing the flesh............
and then he shouts again....
he keeps on tearing for soo long
then comes a sound from the bush he picks up his weapon and approaches towards the bush as he shouts and tries to attack,,,,he sees a baby tiger their......
he stops and realizes............
what has he done.............
he drops the weapon and cries...............
and starts beating his chest............
he picks up the skin of tiger and wears it and picks up the baby tiger to make him believe he is the tiger who was dead and takes him somewhere far from the scene and releases him..........
when the cub doesn't leave he roars and scares him away..........
cub runs away.........
he cries sitting there.............
he packs his jhola and leaves the cottage wearing the tiger skin
as he passes the valleys and mountains he collects water in his kamdal....
empty stomach just water he drinks all the time...
he approaches the snow covered mountain and reaches a corner,,
naked body only with tiger skin covering him he stands on the peak of the mountain and shouts
angrily then
he picks up his dagger and strikes exactly in his forehead and falls on the snow...
while he wakes up he sees himself bounded in chains in a line surrounded by wounded peoples some young some old some child.
now i am writing story of the destruction of the time........
