Nysa
It’s been 5 years I have been back to my home. New York, NY has been where I was born, raised, graduated, met my first and only love, broke up… nopes , actually given up on my love.
Hi My name is Nysa Smith, 24 years now. I have an elder brother Nymer, Nymer Smith, 26 years now… that’s right my parents were obsessed with NY… I think so ! Our family is well established, sort of freaking rich, in short, one among the billionaires.
You might be wondering why I left NY ? Didn’t I already say…Broke up, I mean Given up on my first and only love. Yes.. As cliché it sounds I fell in love with my Brothers best friend Aaron Dwells. You would also fall in love with him if you meet him. Damn, he is 6’2” with dark hair, peacock green eyes with a short strong stubble throughout his sharp jaw line, Chiselled body with 8 pack abs. Strong but not full of muscles. A dimple on each cheek, when he smiles would feel like kissing him . He is one guy for whom girls would even agree for a one night stand.
Now, read along story of me moving to London leaving everyone, I have a long flight so I will tell you in the best possible way what happened that made me give up on my love for Aaron.
My brother Nymer, Aaron, Aiden, Trent and Simon are best friends. Well Nymer, Trent and Simon being friends since they were 5. Aiden and Aaron joined the group when I was 18. None of them except my brother had any sibling, so basically I was the sister to all 4 except Aaron. Well I would have been to Aaron too but he downright denied to be a brother to me, leaving everyone suspicious but never questioning him on his intentions.
Aaron and Aiden were orphans and met each other via an orphanage when they were 8. Even though they changed to different foster homes throughout, they kept in touch and finally when they joined NY university, they met my brother’s group and ever since all of them have been thickest of friends. Aaron and Aiden started from a small car mechanic shop and now they own their own Car show rooms and are working on launching their own brand of electric cars. Their hard work impressed my parents so much that, My father dearest never treated them any different and my mother considers them as her sons.
As for Aaron , he is/was the life of any party, he could never get serious no matter what the situation is, even if it is making some deals or negotiations, or fighting with someone who came near to his friends with wrong intentions. He has this magical charm to impress anyone with his words, turn any situation funny and lighten the mood. Everyone liked him and so did I. I think so.
But there ends the good part of Aaron. He is playboy asshole… excuse my language but that’s what he is. Manwhore, Playboy, bad boy, breaking every girls heart is something he and his specialty is, and I was stupid to fall for him knowing all these about him. He knew about my feelings but never returned them.
I thought, it was because of his friendship with my brother and I being off-limits and asked him if that was the case and his response stunned me. Believe me I was shocked when he said “Nys ! Your parents definitely and I hope your brother possibly would give their blessings, if I would ever think of dating you and making you mine. But you know I don’t commit and I promise if I change my mind any day and think of committing, you would be the first, I would ask”. Yeah everyone calls me Nys (Nice), and that was his response.
I cried inconsolably when he said so. I was just an option for him, still I couldn’t stop loving him. Even though he knew about my feelings, he never did anything to make me uncomfortable, he was the same with me as he was with everyone and I thought it was good to be a part of being in the circle rather than expecting something and losing him forever. Yeah, I know same old cliché. But it is what it is.
For 3 years, I was fake smiling as I was getting broken from inside watching him leave with a different girl whenever our group met. I made a habit to compose myself from breaking down, every time I got ready in a stunning way specially for him. Needless to say, I used to get compliments from everyone except him as he never glanced at me how I wanted him to. I foolishly was waiting for him to give us a chance while he continued his playboy ways.
A year later, on a (un)fateful day Trent asked me to give him a file in Aaron’s office and I thought I could talk to him and ask him to take a chance for us. I know I am pathetic, but love makes you do everything even if it is begging. I entered his office and there he was hugging his PA Jenny, planting a soft kiss on her forehead looking at her – the same way may be how I wanted him to look at me, “caring” . He looked at me, surprised and without sparing a single glance again, gently took Jenny’s hand and made her sit on the Sofa. Controlling my tears, I placed the file and ran out of there. He didn’t call me, neither came behind me to stop. While reaching my car, I heard the employees talking about Jenny being pregnant. The puzzle pieces fit in .
I knew… no, probably I understood at that moment, we would never be together, not when he is going to be the father of a child. I cried and couldn’t stop my tears and shut myself in my apartment to deal with my final heartbreak. After few hours there were continuous knocks on the door and the bell rings. But I needed peace and wanted to be alone for some time. I just ignored them and zoned out. I became shallow and empty, but I knew I had to move on. Only problem… I couldn’t.
Being not reachable for couple of days, made everyone worried. Nymer, Aiden, Trent and Simon reached my home and knocked the front door , but I was in no mood to talk to any of them, so they did what they wanted, broke the damn door. I made sure to avoid looking at them. However, as funny as it sounds now, I knew Aaron wasn’t there yet again. After yelling at me for switching my phone off and informing that all 5 tried to contact me, they cooled down. That was when I met their eyes. Seeing my tear stained pale face, they were quick enough to understand something was wrong.
I was reluctant to answer what went wrong but they were persistent. So, I just informed them that I was heartbroken. They wanted to know who it was, I couldn’t lie at that moment and took Aaron’s name. Not interested to divulge any details, not able to speak anymore, I again broke down. Nymer stepped forward to hold me and promised to talk to Aaron, if he was the one I wished to be with. I denied and informed them of my decision. My decision to stop spending my time over him and move on. I knew it was easier said than done. They all went silent but I could understand they were agitated... I asked them not to talk about Aaron when they contacted me. I also asked them to keep Aaron away from contacting me.
While they were present, I took the SIM from my mobile and destroyed it right there, deleted Aarons contact in phone memory. Took my laptop to delete all the mails sent by him , I saw a couple of mails from him which were unread but at this point I really didn’t want to care. Destroyed all the pictures of him and I. I did everything to not be reminded of him again. A day after I packed my stuff and moved to London.
For first 2 years, I tried, I tried to date other guys, tried to forget Aaron but couldn’t. I always compared every guy to Aaron and I was back to square one. However, I never knew what was happening or happened with him. It was good , really good for me. That’s what I thought so.
