Feral Hearts

*This chapter is rather lengthy so please bear with it and enjoy*

The sound of arguing and dragging shoes filled the hallway as the front door flew open and with a hard

Thud

His body slammed into the sidewalk followed by a slam of his old backpack being thrown into him.

“Dont step foot here again there's no place for a worthless piece of shit like you” a tall older man yelled as he took another sip from a bottle before slamming the door.

Nathan spit out some blood before wiping his mouth. He stood up brushing off his jeans and shirt then grabbed his backpack and started down the street.

This has been his 6th and final try at a foster home with no avail. He had just turned 16 a month beforehand which meant his foster parents wouldn't receive assistance towards his care anymore, not like the current one used it for him in the first place.

Nathan had black hair and was about 5 feet 9 inches with emerald green eyes. He had a skinny but toned demeanor since he worked out his frustration at the gym normally in the morning. Several piercings covered the top side of his ears matching the one over his left eyebrow. So his rugged appearance caused most people to steer clear of him and automatically assume the worst and to top off his charm he was a vampire, something he desperately tried to keep hidden and despised greatly.

He kept walking till he reached the park then sitting on a picnic table under a covered area when there was a loud flash of lightning as it started to rain. A drop in temperature gave him a chill, making him reach into his bag and pull out a black hoodie. Putting it on, he just sat listening to the rain as he contemplated where he would stay that night as he was now homeless.

Taking out his phone Nathan set the alarm saying to himself “at least i still got a half ass job for now.” It wasn't much but he managed to get something under the table at a small bar doing grunt work for a couple hours each day.

Laying back on the picnic table Nathan put his arms behind his head closing his eyes trying to drown out the screaming in his head with the sound of the rain hitting the metal.

The next morning went as normal he went to the gym for a bit working out frustrations then showering there and off to work. Spending most the morning carrying boxes, restocking and helping cut up garnishes for drinks. When he was finished the owner paid him for his time and Nathan grabbed his bag and headed off. He sat at a bench eating a wrap he got from a vendor then after he finished stood up with a grin looking at a pool hall across the street.

Nathan walked in and of course got hassled for being young but eventually made it to a pool table and proceeded to play. Some time went by when a group of guys walked in and came up to Nathan saying

“Well lookie here boys a new face at our table”

“Dont see your name on it asshole” nathan said as he took another shot

The tallest guy walked up to him and put his arm down chuckling “Look at the mouth on you” as he moved the ball Nathan was about to hit. “why don't you run along kid”

“Why don't you piss off or put your money where your mouth is” Nathan said smiling as he pulled out a folded Benjamin holding it up “Hundred bucks say i kick your ass.”

The guy reached in his wallet and pulled out some money laughing “two hundred says i kick yours and ill even put that dirty mouth to good use afterwards”

Nathan smirked “thats a hard pass looks like you got plenty of fan boys to kiss your ass but ill happily take your money”

One of the other guys took a step forward “Im gonna kick his ass Jax” when Jax stopped him saying “Boy you got a pair, this is gonna be fun lets get to it punk,” The game was reset and it began Jaz starting off with a good lead and Nathan slowly keeping pace while the other two sat at a high table watching.

The Owner stood at the bar watching the match while drying some glasses when a guy walked through the door.

His name was Collin, a 19 years old lycan with crimson red hair and golden eyes. Standing 6 feet 2 inches he had a buff body with a stud in one ear and he wore a leather necklace holding a ring that held his family's crest. He approached the counter with a smile “Hiya Nix how's it going today?”

Nix put the glass down with a sigh “Hello Collin” then he stared past him saying “Well it was a good day but its about to get bad fast” Collin turned around catching a glimpse of Nathan his green eyes locked on his for a second when Collin felt a sensation as his heart began to pound when he said “Who is that?”

“No idea haven't seen him around before but he is attempting to hustle Jax so this wont end well, im so not in the mood for this bs” Nix sighed

Collin grinned saying “Oh yea how interesting, ill handle things when it comes to that” Nix shook his head "I've seen that look before and i wouldnt advise it I get a bad vibe from that kid there is just something off about him but do as you wish” Collin sat down watching intently from the reflection in the mirror behind the counter.

The game had slowed down as the moves became more strategic, however Nathan began to overtake the lead as Jax became frustrated by the kid's sudden skill.

Clack

As a ball fell in the pocket, then leaning on the table nathan grinned “eight ball corner pocket”

Clack

“I believe that's game” Nathan grinned while putting up the pool stick.

“You son of a bitch” Jax hissed gripping the pool stick

“Sucking so bad sucks but hey you did it with style dont beat yourself up to bad”

But before he could react Jax swung hitting Nathan in the stomach the sheer force nearly taking the breath from him as he hunched over coughing up blood. Gripping Nathan's shirt he held him off the floor eyes burning a cold silver “You think you can make a fool of me brat”

Nathan chuckled, swallowing “You do good on your own, my help wasn't needed.”

Jax became enraged as he slammed Nathan down hard on the table then grabbing Nathan's wrist holding it down and squeezing hard as he suddenly transformed. Jax's muscles bulged and his fangs became larger as he pushed down harder Nathan's wrist turning purple from the force.

Nathan gritting his teeth from the pain saying “My bad guess we shoulda played for milk bones not money”

Jax pulled him up then swung hard hitting Nathan in the face flinging him back hard against the table again, one of his teeth flying out. Then putting his hand on the side of his face pushing down “You fucking stain do you know who I am” nathan laughed coughing up blood smiling “U-Ugly all day”

Jax started laughing as he slightly bent Nathan's wrist hearing a small

Snap

Nathan let out a cry of pain as Jax put his hand on his neck pushing down saying “Oh I bet that hurt, you gonna cry like a little bitch now” but Nathan just looked up at him and spit in his face saying “You dont intimidate me asshole” Jax reared back yelling “WE WILL HAVE TO FIX THAT WONT WE, let's see you talk back with a broken jaw you piece of shit”

As he went to punch, Nathan braced for the impact but seconds later nothing, squinting his eyes open he saw Jax hand stopped right before his face then he noticed a guy with red hair grabbing Jax by the arm.

“Think you've had enough fun,” Collin said, gripping his arm tightly. Jax replied “This is none of your business he was trying to hustle me” collin laughed “yea that was pretty entertaining its been a minute since someone bested you”

Jax looked at collin his eyes red “Step off or ill…” but before he could finish Collin had pulled his arm down his gold eyes piercing Jaxs and said “I think you guys should go grab a drink in the VIP section, all on me of course” then Collin grabbed the $300 from the table and put it in Jax pocket continuing “see now no harm no foul I'll handle him unless you say otherwise”

Jax felt the tension in the air as Collins stood waiting for his answer, He knew Collins reputation as well as his family name. Jaz being at a lower social standing than him began to back down saying “Yea whatever we'll do that” then grabbing Nathan's hair as he lifted him up “You don't know how lucky you are, better watch your back bitch” as he slammed him back down then the group walked away.

Nathan laid there a minute when collin leaned over him saying “You ok there green eyes you still conscious?”

Nathan turned his head away from him saying “Who asked you to help I had it under control”

“Yea i can tell from the tooth across the table you were about to kick his ass” Nathan sat up holding his wrist the pain was still excruciating even though the bone had already healed.

As he got down he replied “Whatever, entitled assholes like that think they can do whatever they want or intimidate someone with just a show of force and lycans are the worst of them all its so fucking annoying”

Collin started laughing “Damn man thats the shitiest thank you i ever heard, you are such a people person you should write inspirational cards”

Nathan getting frustrated barked back “Like i give a fuck what anyone thinks especially some red headed asshole” when Collin got right in front of him and said “Maybe you can try taking down this Piss Off sighn you have on your forehead for everyone” he then flicked Nathan.

Nathan then swatted his hand away growling “What the hell is your problem don't you have someone else to annoy”

Collin chuckled “Boy you have a short temper but some really pretty eyes and love the piercings” as he ran his finger over Nathan's ear causing him to turn red, “Uh oh is mr tough guy blushing?”

Nathan grabbed his ear “The hell man are you like hitting on me”

Collin laughed “So what if I am?”

Nathan grinned “well the jokes on you i dont swing that way”

Collin got by his ear whispering “Spaghetti is straight till you get it wet”

Nathan's heart began to pound as a jolt shot throughout his body like lightning, the feeling momentarily trumpet the immense pain he was currently suppressing.

Collin laughed harder as he said “I'm just joking around, you're so fun to tease” as he lightly smacked nathan on the side of his shoulder, when a voice cut them both off

“If you are quite finished playing grab ass i suggest getting him out of here” nixi said looking at collin, then looking at nathan “I don't want to see your face in here again”

Nathan walked over to a chair grabbing his backpack then stopping he mumbled “Whatever, sorry for disturbing your business” then Nathan pushed past collin “and you can go fuck yourself” and left.

Nix stood there “Well isn't he a little ray of sunshine, you have very odd taste just be careful” but Collin just grinned “idk I kinda like him.”

Nathan walked a bit then found a clearing behind some buildings away from people when he dropped his bag and fell to his knees in pain clenching his wrist tears falling from his face. All this pain he was holding in finally overflowed as he sat there, all the anger and sadness bubbling over as his eyes glazed over red and his fangs became so sharp they cut his lip as he gritted his teeth. “What the hell is this feeling, it's so immense” Nathan screamed as his body became hot, his heart racing while licking the blood from his lips.

As Nathan's heartbeat became steady again, his eyes returned green, sighing sweat dripping down “What the hell was up with that guy and why did it feel so different? ”

He got to his feet then kept on walking till he found a shady tree back in some woods away from everything. It was cool out as fall was in full swing, the brisk breeze blowing through the trees. Catching a chill Nathan put on his hoodie and flipping it over his head sitting down leaning back against the trunk. The sound of two squirrels scurrying through the branches filled the silence quieting the chaos in his head then with a grin using his bag as a pillow he laid down saying “Nobody should find me here” then taking out an mp3 player he put headphones in his ears and started blasting music. Watching the leaves blowing in the wind Nathan's eyes started to become heavy slowly closing as he drifted off to sleep.

Collin exited the pool hall an hour or so later and started down the sidewalk when he popped into a small convenience store where he bought some gauze and disinfectant stuff followed by two red bulls, a rag and a bottle of water. He continued down the street when a strange smell caught his nose….it was the faint scent of blood.

Collin followed it till he came across the clearing and bending down seeing a puddle of blood then saying “Damn where did you go.” He stood back up closing his eyes focusing on the scent then started walking in the direction.

It was late evening when Collin entered the area where the scent trail led him. There was a giant old tree and at the foot of it was someone in a black hoodie laying in front of it. Collin knew immediately who it was from the backpack. He approached cautiously saying “Tag your it” but there was no response so he got a little closer and bent down noticing he was fast asleep with a little drool coming from his mouth.

Collin quietly reached out when he noticed tears coming from his face and slight whimpering as his body trembled. Pulling his hand back collin stared at him wondering what could bring such a person to tears. Sighing he placed the bag next to the backpack and stood there a minute then saw the guy's phone sticking out his pocket.

Collin gently grabbed it then with a soft chuckle he added his number, putting it as Best Stalker 💙 and sending a message back adding his number as Green Eyes. Softly putting the phone back in hoodie pocket he stood up saying softly “Sweet dreams green eyes” then walked away.

The night went by and morning came

Drip Drip Drip

The sound of dew from the leaves hitting Nathan's face as he slowly opened his eyes seeing the sun coming through the tree branches he slowly sat up removing his headphones and hoodie when

Thump

his phone fell out of the pocket but he just shrugged it off putting it back in his jean pocket when the plastic bag caught his eye.

Opening it he pulled out the gauze ointment and a red bull then looking around he said “wonder who did this” as he rubbed the cream on his wrist then wrapped it with the gauze. The pain was all but gone after a night's sleep but the soreness of the bruise still remained.

Crack

Nathan opened the drink taking a big sip as he placed everything in his backpack standing up saying “Ugg i could use a shower” so away he went to the gym since members could use the showers after their work out.

Next was a trip to the laundromat so he could wash what few clothes he had. Being the only one in there he went through his clothes setting aside a pair of purple and black tripp pants and a black tee shirt. Quickly he removed his current pants, dropping them in the washer with the rest then putting on the others. Nathan took the time going through his bag and wallet “Not much left there” as he sighed.

After the laundromat he went to the park sitting on a picnic table reaching into his bag grabbing the bottle of water when a hand reached around covering his mouth while another grabbed his arms pulling them behind his back trying to bind them. Nathan bit down on the hand as a scream of pain shot out causing the person to loosen their hold gripping the bloody hand as Nathan pushed back knocking them both off balance. As the other guy tried to grab his legs Nathan kicked him in the face then quickly rolled off the table disappearing into the woods leaving his backpack and spilled bottle behind.

Nathan kept running as he tried to make some distance between the guys trying to get him. As Nathan cut down an alley something tripped him causing him to fall hard to the ground with a

SLAM

As he leaned up there was the sound of laughter followed by a hard kick to his side tossing him back to the ground, then another kick followed by a familiar voice

“You should really be more careful, so many accidents waiting to happen like that nasty trip. Here let me help you up”

Then with great force he kicked again but this time in the stomach, Nathan gasping to catch his breath.

Jax leaned down gripping his hair then lifting Nathan to his feet and slamming him hard against the wall causing more blood to be coughed up as he chuckled “What happened to all that spunk earlier?” gripping his hair harder “not so tough without the red head to save you.”

Nathan gritted his teeth growling “Fuck you mutt I dont even know that asshole” then kneed Jax in the side giving him an opening to punch him hard in the face.

Jax fell to the ground releasing Nathan, then standing up he was met by another punch to his side then another to the face. As he leaned against the wall, blood coming from his mouth Jax started laughing seeing Nathan in a fighting position, his eyes red bearing his sharp fangs when Jax grinned “I knew it, fucking vampire trash Is that the best you got haha let me show you real power.”

Jax then started to fully transform, his body muscles got bigger while his ears turned pointed and eyes matched Nathan's. His fingernails sharpened then with a rip a silver tail emerged from his pants.

Like a bullet Jax rushed Nathan then slashed but Nathan dodged as a crate took the brunt of the attack only for jax to make contact with Nathan's back. The powerful claws tore through his shirt shredding it, piercing his flesh like razors ,blood soaking into the cloth.

Nathan stood there ripping off what was left of the tattered fabric when he felt something sharp in his side, It was claws. Jax grabbed Nathan by the throat slamming him so hard into the wall it cracked and splintered around him.

“So when are you supposed to kick my ass” he said maliciously as he dug his claws deeper into Nathan causing him to howl in pain and cough up more blood.

Grabbing Jax's arm he tried to break his grip but Jax just laughed “Pathetic cunt I'm gonna teach you a lesson you won't ever forget.” Digging further in Jax felt Nathan's rib and with a quick SNAP he broke it.

Excruciating pain filled Nathan as he wailed tears pouring down, his body trembling from the shock of it. His eyes turned back green and his blood lust all but faded when Jax squeezed his neck tighter getting right in Nathan's face “I was gonna end you but death is too good for a worthless bitch like you”

“W-whats wrong dont have the balls to kill me haha whos pathetic now”

Chuckling jax replied “A vampire with a death wish, how hilarious, now i want you to heal up nice and when you wake up remember this moment that you weren't worth death.”

Jax then squeezed and Nathan struggling to breath felt his body going limp as his vision slowly faded and he became unconscious.

Dropping Nathan's body he grinned as he shifted back from the transformation “Nite Nite cunt” then he started walking away disappearing to the street further down.

Meanwhile……

Collin entered the park as he was intently searching for the coveted ramen food truck when he looked at the phone again saying “still nothing guess his phone musta died on him” It had been a whole day since he last seen him so a little concern filled him, thats when he happened to notice a familiar scent, it was nathans.

Collin followed the scent as he searched the park but didn't see him anywhere when it began to get stronger as he saw a picnic table back off away from the crowds.

As he approached the table collin caught a strong whiff of his scent followed by two others that seemed familiar somehow. Looking around he was sure there was a struggle and he became anxious, gripping the strap saying “I don't like this feeling” as he stood there lost in thought.

Several Hours Later……

Nathan slowly regained consciousness as he was still in the alley leaning against a crate. He tried to sit up when a sharp pain shot everywhere causing him to cough up blood gripping his side as his wound was not fully healed, the blood dripping down his side.

Nathan gritting his teeth all the rage inside and the feeling of hopelessness drowning him saying “Fucking lycan, Im not worth death well Fuck You Fucking Asshole” as tears poured down his face.

He looked beside himself, seeing a broken window and picking up a shard of glass he squeezed it tight cutting into his hand then gritting his teeth he ran it hard across his wrist, blood dripping but only for a minute as the wound slowly healed.

Nathan closed his eyes as he did it again, slashing deeper but with the same outcome, a sharp pain followed by quick healing. He got so angry yelling loudly “GOOODDDDAAMMNN IIITTT” Throwing the shard of glass then grabbing his hair putting his face in his knees as he cried “Why Why am I stuck in this hell…some one please save me”

After about 30 minutes Nathan managed to stand up then seeing a shirt sitting on one of the crates he gave it a quick sniff test then grabbed it putting it on. Not knowing where he was he walked down the alley to the street where he stopped at the first inn he came across then entering he walked up to the counter where an older lady sat watching a small tv smoking a cigarette. Clearing his throat nathan spoke “I-Id like to get a room please”

The lady stood up looking Nathan up and down saying “Hell you look like shit kid. Im not keen on your kind here don't need the headache” Nathan took out his wallet his hands shaking then pulling out some folded money he said “All i have is a hundred dollars, please just for the night I'll leave first thing I won't be any trouble” as he coughed a little blood on his arm.

She sighed then took his money and handed him a key saying “Dont make me regret this ya here and don't leave a mess” Nathan bowed his head saying “Thank you ma'am” then taking out his phone he asked “would you happen to have a charger for this that I could borrow?”

Taking another drag from her cigarette she growled “you're already a pain in the ass” then looking at his phone she snarked “This thing looks older than me” then reaching in a drawer rummaging a minute then she took out a cable handing it to him fussing “now get outta here before I change my mind, it's the last door on the right going up the stairs” Nathan bowed again and went up the stairs.

He reached the room and headed in then turned a lamp on by the bed sitting down removing his shoes and socks, plugged in his phone and proceeded to remove the shirt then walking to the bathroom he turned on the shower and feeling relief as hot water came out. Quickly removing his pants and briefs he stepped in.

The hot water felt like a hot poker on his side as it hit the cuts which had healed enough to stop bleeding. He lathered up a rag washing away all the dried blood, his fingers trailing over every scar, permanent nightmares etched into his skin like tattoos. Then scrubbing his hair and just standing under the water washing his face he looked down and ran his hand over his wrist washing away the dried blood where the glass had been, not even a mark was left.

Nathan got out of the shower drying off, wrapping himself in a towel then laid across the bed. His feelings began to hit hard causing tears to run down his face as he curled in a ball his body trembling when the sound of a ding caught his attention as his phone lit up.

He slid up by the nightstand leaning against the wall picking up the phone when he started a google search [How to kill a vampire with instant healing] as he scrolled nothing came up he didn't already know till at the bottom there was an article from a nearby Academy. As he began reading his mind raced with horrible ideas that infested his mind as he closed it out.

Noticing a message he clicked on it as he didn't recognize the name Best Stalker 💙 then saying out loud “Who the hell is that” then it hit him as nathan grabbed his face saying “When did that creep get to my phone musta been the one that left the bag of stuff. He is quite persistent” so opening the message…

Hey green eyes got your bag meet in the park tomorrow and i might give it back if you ask nicely and fyi your cute wen you sleep ~_^

As Nathan read he began to blush then mumbled “Such a dumbass i swear.” He started deciding whether or not to respond but he needed his bag back so with a sigh he sent a reply then put his phone on vibrate after setting an alarm he turned off the lamp rolling over.

He laid there thinking of the guy with the red hair, his mind just unable to fathom why he was so interested in him. Nathan mumbled “Him being weird makes me feel weird. What's this feeling that wants to draw me in? So ridiculous” he then closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Morning came quickly as Nathan woke up less in pain as most of his broken bones healed over. He checked out the inn and headed off in the early morning darkness wearing a hat and jacket he found covering his face looking down.

Several hours passed before Nathan emerged down an alley ducking behind some crates heavily breathing, chunking some clothes in a dumpster then looking at the small black case putting it in his pocket. Calming himself he started walking through the busy sidewalk.

Nathan sat on the rim of the park fountain with his wired earphones plugged into his black mp3 player listening to music lost in thought when all of a sudden one of the buds came out and there was a voice in his ear “Hey there green eyes.”

Nathan startled, nearly losing his balance falling in the fountain as Collin grabbed his arm stopping him with a chuckle “Easy there wouldn't want to get you all wet now” Nathan stood up saying “Oh haha” Collin reached grabbing one of the ear buds “what you listening to” as he put it in his ear standing right in front of him.

Nathan kinda stuttered “U-um Linkin Park” collin was standing so close to him as he could smell his body spray and feel the heat coming off his body. Nathan's heart began to race as he felt his face get hot.

Collin grinned then as he took out the earbud “Looking a little flustered there am I making you nervous being so close” then handing the bag to Nathan he continued saying “You know I was gonna make you work for this”

“Yea why didn't you then, giving your ego a break” Nathan said as he wrapped the earphones around the player putting it in a zip pocket on the backpack along with the little black case from his pocket.

Collin leaned up and ran his fingers over Nathan's ear “I can if you want me to” but Nathan pushed his hand away face red saying "Cut that shit out, I'll be right back” then he started to walk over to the public restroom when collin grabbed his arm noticing a blood spot on his side and some bruises. “Hey you ok did something happen?” Collin said in a concerning voice but Nathan just shrugged his hand off and with a smile “Im great but will feel even better after a change of cloths”

As Nathan came back out collin became extremely flustered while he stared at him. Nathan had changed into a pair of black and red tripp pants with a black Three Days Grace band tee and he even managed to brush his hair.

Nathan noticed how red collin got then walked up grinning “Now look who is flustered so what got you all hot n bothered?” Collin laughed “Oh I wonder, So have you eaten yet? I know this awesome ramen place lets go grab some”

Normally Nathan would refuse but his mind went back to the case and what was to follow so he decided to just go with it for now. Looking away Nathan spoke softly “Sure why not.” Collin smiled saying “it's not too far so follow me” then they both started walking away.

Nathan quietly followed behind steadily thinking of the events to come when

Bump

He ran right into Collins chest.

“You didn't hear a word I said did you” collin said laughing.

“No, I'm sorry, what did you say?”

“I asked if you were ok. It just seemed like you were lost in space today, did you wanna talk about it?”

“Not particularly but I did have a question”

Collin grinned “Oh yea your curiosity finally got the best of ya. We are almost there then we can play twenty questions cuz idk about you but I could eat a deer right now haha”

Nathan nodded as they continued walking down the street when they came across an old looking shop when collin said “we are here” and they both entered.

Sitting at a table a young guy with green hair came over greeting them. They made their selections then their drinks were brought out followed by a bottle of sake and two small blue cups. Collin grabbed them sitting one in front of Nathan then pouring followed by his own.

“You know I'm totally not old enough for that right”

Collin just laughed “I won't tell if you don't" as he shot back his glass then refilled it.

Nathan picked up the cup drinking it in one gulp when it hit and he started coughing. Collin began to laugh “First time drinking sake i take it” Nathan laughed holding the cup out “Damn this taste awful” as collin poured another saying “So you had a question.”

Nathan took another shot as the food came out then cracking his chopsticks he asked "So you're a lycan right? Must be pretty high up to have your mentality of doing whatever you like. So have you ever killed anyone or any vampires?”

Collin slurped some noodles then laughing he answered “Hahaha yeah that's right and as my fam goes they are one of the oldest lycan clans but me im a total disgrace ... .something about not following tradition or some bullshit because im gay and refuse to mate with a prospective female to just continue the family line, but fuck them like id play house for social status. As for killing, I can't recall anyone dying but I have given some rough beatings. I'm not as phobic about vampires like the others and i have met some real assholes before but it doesn't bother me one bit, dont fuck with me and i wont fuck you up.”

He then ordered another round of ramen “Im Collin by the way” Nathan didn't give his name because he didn't see the point of it.

They continued to talk for a while and even laughed some then 3 bowls of ramen each and 2 1/2 bottles of sake later Collin smiled “You know you're pretty cool when that wall comes down some, I can sense that you calmed down quite a bit from before.”

Nathan drinking more sake feeling a slight buzz saying “hahaha yea i guess you're not such a dick after all. So you can sense stuff huh like a spidey sense for wolves or something. So what else do you sense from me Mr lycan”

Collin grinned “You sure you wanna know? I don't sugar coat shit”

Nathan nodded “Don't think I can take it?”

Then with a deep breath collin leaned against the table

“I sense so much darkness in you it's like a suffocating shroud. You let your fear take control pushing away everyone and everything consuming what light is left drowning in your negative emotions, so afraid of letting the real you out that you would rather give up and stay alone than feel like a disappointment."

Nathan clenched his fist laughing “Is that right” as his anger took hold then standing up….

“Well you're not totally wrong but the hell do you know about negative shit, All my life has been nothing but constant abuse and pain, no family, no friends, no home there is nothing left of me but darkness and I'd rather be alone than lied to by fake ass people pretending.”

As he started to tremble tear drops landing on the table he continued

“I was born a disappointment, nothing but a mistake and I'm so tired of fighting and trying. It's been so long I've had all I can take of this endless hell…I just…i just want….it to end.”

Before Nathan could get out another word collin was at his side putting his arms around him. Nathan struggled “let-let me go asshole” but collin just held tighter as nathans body trembled the feel of Collins warmth and beat of his heart soothing him to a degree when collin spoke

“Geezus it's like looking in a mirror the only difference is that I had people but you, you've been all alone this whole time how the hell can people be so cruel.”

Nathan closed his eyes as tears poured down his face, unable to control himself. He kept crying when he felt Collins hand stroking his hair as he said “Such an idiot you don't have to deal with this alone anymore im right here if you'd just let me in.”

Nathan's inner mind screamed “Is this real can someone really be this sincere and blindly accept me, want me…..save me from myself” but naturally Nathan's insecurities silenced the thought. He took a step back from collin his head down “I-I cant…there’s no point…i appreciate the food and company but i need to leave.”

As Nathan went to grab his bag Collin grabbed his arm “No you don't, you can stay with me until you figure stuff out just please dont go” Nathans spoke his voice shaking “Let go of my arm” but he just held tighter and stood in front of him saying “Now You look at me because it feels like if i let you out that door i wont see you again and i wont let that happen”

Nathan pulled his arm away looking at collin “Im not your property so you have no right…i dont know if its possession or infatuation but im no good for you or anybody You'll forget all about me and find a new thing to chase…….so move out my way”

Collin stared into him with his golden eyes as Nathan stared right back, his green eyes full of sadness and frustration. Collin still stood in front of him as Nathan hissed “I said move Collin” but he just shook his head “I wont”

Nathan then balled up his fist tight saying “Then I'll make you” as he swung as hard as he could hitting collin on the side of his face causing him to fall to the floor. Nathan then grabbed his bag and ran out the door as collin got to his feet following behind but as he exited he was hit by a wet wall because at some point it had begun to rain . Collin took a couple steps but because of the rain he would not be able to track his scent. He stood in the rain a minute laughing as he wiped the blood from his mouth “Hell of a right hook green eyes” then he walked back to the noodle shop.

Nathan continued running as the rain fell harder he passed through several alleys until coming across an abandoned warehouse all boarded and chained up. He found a window then with a hard kick

Smash

the window shattered as he climbed in hoping down from some crates. Looking around he noticed some stairs leading to a small room. As Nathan entered he closed and locked the door behind him then dropping his backpack he leaned against the door. He held up his hand the knuckles red and bruised when he gritted his teeth and started to tear up as he slid down against the door to the floor saying “im so sorry” as the sight of him punching collin replayed over and over in his mind.

His soaked clothes dripped making a puddle beneath him as water fell from his hair and down his face blending with his tears. He sat in the dark the sake finally hitting him, the voices in his head screaming when he put his hands over his ears yelling “Stop it, Stop It STOP IT”

“Well that is quite rude.”

Nathan looked up seeing a figure sitting atop the desk. It was a boy with pink and black hair and a crescent moon tattoo on his face. He wore a grey tank top and black jeans with a pair of wooden sandals. Nathan's eyes widened and fear struck him as he recognized the person. He was one of his so-called foster brothers that made his life a literal hell. Nathan began to sweat as he stuttered “K-Kane”

“Aww im touched worm, you remember me and aren't you looking as pathetic as ever”

“Y-Youre not really here Its not real”

“Oh I'm as real as your weak mind makes me “

With a snap of his finger everything went dark as a light came on overhead and Nathan found himself shirtless bound to a wooden chair, burns all over his body. Nathan tried to move but he couldn't, the plastic zip ties digging in his skin when he heard a soft chuckle then seeing Kane in front of him taking a puff from a cigarette.

“Stay the fuck away from me”

“Oh ho did someone finally grow a pair”

then grabbing nathans face tilting it

“You think you can stand up to me well let's put you back in your place brother”

“Dont call me that im not your brother”

“Now that just hurts and after we shared a room for half a year”

Kane gripped his face harder looking into Nathan's green eyes then with a grin he used his fingers to hold one open as he chuckled

“but im sure this will hurt a lot worse….now scream for me brother”

Kane put the cigarette to his eye burning him. Nathan wailed in pain as he felt the heat searing his pupil. He clenched his fist so tight the nails dug into his skin, blood dripping to the floor as he hunched over screaming blood dripped down his face and his body trembling.

“Just give up already there is nothing left for you here just pain and misery, why keep fighting just end it”

Nathan opened his eyes and was back against the door. He quickly put his hand to his eye as it was unscathed and just sat trembling from the memory when he heard a voice in his ear

“You think he would be impressed by a scrawny little weak nobody like you Ha what a disappointment. He’ll get what he wants then toss you away like everyone else”

“Shut up, Shut up” as nathan gripped his hair when he turned looking at his backpack

“Ah so that's where you're keeping it, come on the suspense is killing me”

Nathan slowly unzipped the pocket taking out the small black case, his hands trembling as it opened revealing a small vile and syringe. He held it up seeing the bright mixture of iridescent blue and grey swirling around.

“Mmm not bad brother straight UV and silver nitrate what a lethal combination. Now what are you waiting for get on with it”

He took the small injection syringe out, placing the vial inside till it clicked when he felt a slight vibration in his pocket. Taking out his phone, his eyes adjusting to the lit screen seeing the name Best Stalker 💙 . He pushed the side button canceling the call then sat his phone on the ground.

Bzzz Bzzz Bzzz

The phone began to vibrate again and again as Nathan closed his eyes, turning his head.

“What Moron leaves their phone on when offing themselves? Oh that's right it is you after all, just ignore it nothing he could say anyways. Just finish it already…what your not backing out are you”

Nathan stretched out his arm revealing his forearm then began trembling with his eyes closed.

Kane leaned close to his ear “Thats right haha its not too hard just follow this vein to here and stick it in then press” as he trailed his finger from Nathan's wrist slowly to his elbow.

Nathan went to put the syringe in position when there was a buzz from the phone and a voicemail icon showed up. He stared at it for a minute till the screen went black. Nathan reached over and picked up the phone using his thumb to navigate the menu and clicking the voicemail icon then putting it on speakerphone…

" Hey green eyes, I'm sorry if I pushed too hard I can be too direct. I just wanted to make sure you are ok. You drank quite a bit and I'm guessing it hit full tilt about now. Look I know you have trust issues and I don't blame you for it but I wanted to say something and whether you take it or not its fine.....I just wanted to let you know how happy i am to have met you and that i meant what i said, I want to get to know you and be friends. I'm willing to take a chance on you, accept all of you, be there for you if you'd just be willing to take a leap of faith on me. If you are willing then meet me at the Wolfs Den pool hall....ill be waiting on you green eyes....Click “

Nathan dropped the phone, tears falling from his face putting his hands on his head gritting his teeth, eyes closed tight. As he opened them he was on his knees surrounded by darkness. Kane squatted down next to him

“Youre at the grand finale brother don't second guess yourself now nobody will accept you, how can they, so just finish it and let the darkness consume what's left”

“He is wrong dont listen”

Standing in front of Nathan was a large red wolf with golden yellow eyes

“Do you know why you can nat see any light”

“I-Its because i have none”

“You can not because you ARE the light,you give it to others who are lost. Your life is not meaningless so push back the fear of failure and start to live for you and forget everyone else. You are allowed to be happy to silly”

Nathan sat there, tears pouring from his eyes as he held the syringe above his skin.

“You are such a coward brother, letting that damn dog get in the way how utterly pathetic”

“I-I am a pathetic coward but not for not dying, for being to afraid to live and letting my fear control me but not anymore im not who i was back then im stronger than you now”

He was there in the darkness, battered and bruised blood dripping down as Kane stood before him with a bloody knife as he went for Nathan's side.

“Just give in Stop fighting”

Nathan grabbing the hands with the knife and pushing back slowly facing it towards Kane

“I WONT, You are the one that's nothing and you wont control me anymore YOU BASTARD”

Then with a quick thrust the knife pierced Kane's chest. Blood started dripping from his mouth as he began to laugh

“Tsk, I will always be tucked away deep down waiting for next time brother”

“There won't be so go to hell and stay there”

Kane fell to his knees grinning then like a fog lifting he faded away.

Nathan snapped out of his Daze as his hand shook holding the syringe when he let out a scream and dropped it on the ground. He sat there soaking wet and shaking from the cold warehouse when he took off his wet shirt and replaced it with the hoodie from the bag.

Flipping it up he slowly got to his feet but stumbled a bit, catching his balance as he was still buzzed from earlier. Leaning down he grabbed the syringe placing it back in the black case then sticking it in a drawer of the desk.

He grabbed his phone when he noticed the screen was cracked “ah dang it perfect timing” then putting his backpack on he unlocked the door and proceeded to find a way out when he saw a large crack in the wall where the building started to crumble down and managed to squeeze through it.

Standing he tried to dust himself off but mud covered his pants and some of the hoodie.

“Thats just great and I don't have anything clean” Nathan sighed as he chuckled “this endeavor is starting out with a bang, im such a mess.” looking at his phone he tried to find the pool hall but his screen was too badly cracked to see anything so he put it back in his pocket and continued to the street.

Seemed like forever but after asking several people for directions along the way he finally reached the pool hall.

Nathan walked to the front of some stairs leading down to a big neon sign next to a red door. He stood there for a minute taking a deep breath as he began to feel anxious “Lets take that leap” then he opened the door and walked inside. As he took a few steps looking around he heard “Can I help you with something?”

Turning around quickly he was greeted by an older tall guy in a white long sleeve shirt with a black vest. Nathan looked up “Wow you are really tall” the guy sighed “You do know there is an age restriction right you have to be at least 19 or older and i seriously doubt you are so im gonna have to ask you to leave” nathan held up his hands "I'm not looking for trouble but a guy named Collin told me to come here” The guy bent down looking at Nathan as he pushed back his glasses “Hmm do you have any proof of that” Nathan sighed “well he left me a voicemail but i dropped my phone and the screen shattered”

The guy got close to Nathan and sniffed him a few times then standing back up he said “Well you do have his scent on you faintly so ill take your word for it now but we shall see, he is at the table in the back corner. I have to get back to work so if you'll excuse me” then he walked off returning behind the bar counter.

Nathan started walking in the direction of the pool table his inner thoughts being overly chatty

“Well this is it, try not to be too awkward. shit what if he is pissed, I did slug him earlier.”

He then felt his body starting to sweat, wishing he could lose the hoodie but there was nothing underneath. Hearing Collins voice Natahns heart began to thump loudly the feeling in his throat as he mumbled “The fuck am i so anxious for.”

Nathan rounded the corner seeing Collin playing pool when he took a breath and stopped just in front of the table as Collin made a jump shot knocking a ball in the pocket.

Shyly Nathan said “Nice shot” as Collin leaned up grinning then walking around the table stopping in front of him “Hey there green eyes.” but Nathan just looked down, unable to make eye contact.

Collin then chuckled “you ok? You're looking a bit on the rough side” but as he put his hand on Nathan's head he felt his hair was soaked then noticing everything else was also “Hey you are soaking wet that's not good you could catch a bad cold. Come on and follow me” as collin grabbed Nathan's arm. Being too exhausted to resist he just let Collin lead the way to wherever.

Finally reaching the destination they entered the lobby of a nice hotel as the receptionist greeted them saying “Welcome back Mr Lunetta we have your room ready” as she handed him a key card “ please enjoy your stay and let us know if you need anything” with a big smile collin said “Thanks! I'll be sure to do that” then taking the card they headed to the elevator. Nathan leaned against the wall as collin pushed a button when he coughed saying “There is really no need for this you know”

Collin just sighed “I said I'd help you so please just let me.” Nathan, still feeling so anxious put his hood up as he mumbled “Ugg my head is killing me..it's your damn fault you and that sake” Laughing loud collin said “Oh don't blame me because you're a lightweight.” “If I was 100% I'd drink you under the table” Nathan said laughing.

The elevator door opened as collin proceeded to the last room at the end of the hall and with a BEEP he opened the door “Here we are” as he pushed Nathan inside.

The room itself was a pretty good size, it had two queen size beds, a couch and also a balcony with a decent view of a park. As Nathan walked in he sat his backpack in a chair next to the couch as collin came up right behind him slapping him on the back “Now strip down and go get you a shower”

Nathan turned around taking a step back fussing “The hell…strip down….who the hell made you boss ya damn perv.”

Collin grabbing his hoodie starting to pull it up laughing “Here youll need a hand with this since its so wet and close on you” but nathan just backed up “THE FUCK man i can do it myself” Collin kept on persisting as nathan kept stepping back until SLAM he hit the wall but when he turned around collin reached around him getting a good grip “Dont be such a baby” as he started lifting it up over his head when nathan screamed “Collin Wait” but it was to late he had already taken it off.

Collin dropped the hoodie as he stood there staring at Nathan's back seeing all the faint scars that covered him as well as the nasty marks on his side. He reached out barely touching his skin when Nathan quickly turned around looking away saying “Just don't, y-you weren't supposed to see that.” His body began to tremble the physical strain and the mass fatigue that finally caught up as he coughed into his hand blood covering it when he mumbled “Damn it, well think ill take that shower now” as he entered the bathroom closing the door.

Collin went to say something but was unable to find the words so he proceeded to go through Nathan's bag getting all the dirty clothes out and putting them in a bag then seeing his cracked phone plugging it in. Writing a note and leaving it on a pair of boxers on the bed, Collin grabbed the clothes and left.

Some time went by as Nathan peeked his head out the bathroom door and not hearing or seeing collin he walked out with a towel around his waist when he noticed the pair of boxers and note sitting on one of the beds. Picking up the boxers he slipped them on as he grabbed the paper reading it

Hey Green Eyes,

Thought I'd give you some alone time so I went to run some errands.Im having your clothes washed so bear with the boxers for now. Try and relax, I'll be back in a couple hours.

Your best stalker, Collin

Nathan started laughing saying “This guy here, it's really too much” as his heart pounded in his chest unable to process the flood of feelings filling him. So with a deep breath he grinned, getting his MP3 player and one of his Mangas from his backpack then like a little kid jumping across one of the queen sized beds. He laid there a minute taking in a deep breath then putting his earbuds in and turning up his music he began reading.

With a loud Click Collin entered the room holding a couple bags as he said “Honey im home” in an attempt to get a rise out of Nathan but to his surprise there was no answer. Placing the stuff on the couch he turned around to see Nathan laid out on the bed with earbuds in and passed out cold the manga he was reading open against his chest with his hand on top. Collin chuckled softly when he took out his phone then in a soft voice saying ”Ok that's too cute not to” then he took a picture. As he sat down on the other bed watching him, Collin felt this incredible force throughout his body almost electrifying, his heart beating faster, the thought he had been dwelling on in his mind now clear….

This boy laying before him was his mate and there was nothing that could convince him otherwise.

After a few minutes Collin went and sat on the bed beside Nathan pulling out his earbuds and ever so gently poked him in the face “Green eyes wake up” but Nathan just turned his head as he kept pretending to be asleep.

For the first time he felt a sense of calm instead of anxiety like nothing existed outside this room. Making the difficult decision Nathan let down his guard then discreetly reached grabbing a pillow then with a quick Smack he hit Collin right in the face knocking him back as he rolled over on his side. Sitting up collin laughed “Oh no you didn't!” as he took the pillow slamming it down on Nathan's head "Don't start what you can't finish.”

Nathan laughing rolled over quickly slamming collin in the side with another pillow then getting over him pushing down with it. Collin catching his breath from laughing “Ooo so you like to play dirty, then take this” as he reached up with both hands and began to tickle Nathan causing him to fall to the bed then trying to talk in between laughing “Wait…hahaha…time out…haha” but collin just kept on “So you yield?” Nathan tried to get the upper hand but failing cried “Yes…Yes ... .hahaha…..I ... .haha…. yield.”

Both boys laid there breathing heavy when Collin grinned

“What are you like 5 who starts a pillow fight and losses, but seriously glad you seem to be feeling better green eyes”

“Its Nathan…..Nathan Pendrix”

“Its nice to meet you Nathan Im Collin Lunetta”

“Lunetta that's neat, it's Italian right?”

“Yea got some on my grandparents side.

So Pendrix huh, that sounds familiar, you're not a wizard are you?”

“No im not a wizard, if i was id make that ego disappear"

Collin sat up “Oh you could certainly try, Btw you should put some pants on unless you wanna show off that staff Gandalf” as he noticed a slight bulge in the boxers Nathan was wearing.

Turning beat red Nathan realized he was in boxers still then slamming a pillow in collins face he stood up quick “Fucking asshole.” Collin laughed “Dont get embarrassed i have that effect on people. Your clothes are in that bag”

Reaching into the bag grabbing some pants and a pair of briefs “W-Who’s embarrassed dont be so full of yourself its not because of you…..Im just…..Change the damn subject” Nathan growled as he went into the bathroom and changed then sat back down on the bed leaning against the back board.

“So with that last name i bet your middle name is crazy like Louis or something”

“Ugg i wish, I cant stand it, its Daxion”

“So what if I call you Dax then?” as Collin leaned against the backboard next to Nathan.

“Guess I could live with that.” then with a sigh “Hey about earlier….”

“Don't sweat it.”

There was a silent pause then Collin nudged Nathan's arm “You know scars show what we lived through, that you were stronger than whatever hurt you and that you overcame it and are still here, so you shouldn't be ashamed or think yourself weak. Some are visible and some aren't but we all carry them so don't ever feel like you are alone with that.”

Nathan clenched his fist and closed his eyes with tears forming “But I am”

“Maybe before but we are a pack now, we watch each other's backs and take on the world together.” reaching up and wiping a tear from Nathan's face “How does that sound Dax”

“I-I dont understand you at all but im willing to give it a try and be friends, so yea im in.”

Sitting there they both began to laugh and with that their friendship began.