depression has it's way
Jamie Alan is a 17 year old girl who suffers from depression . she's been suffering from this since she was younger. i would say 12-13.
Jamie rolled her eyes as she got on her bed and began to open her diary "Sometimes i wonder what life would be like if depression wasn't a thing." she wrote. "why is this my life."
she went back to writing. "my mom asked me where my depression came from and i told her it was because shingle died which was the truth (shingle was a puppy) . i was super sad when he died he was my best friend and now, i don't have anyone else. then after that i just got super deep into my feelings i couldn't get out so i guess you could say that maybe the reason i could be sad is because i'm lonely.."
" but yeah maybe i'm crazy and the doctors gave me the wrong diagnosis. maybe i'm not really depressed" Jamie stood in front of her mirror staring at her face seeing bags under her eyes.
then as she got back on her bed there was a knock at the door. "hey Jamie you okay in there?." a familiar voice called out which sounds like her mother. "yes mom everything is fine just writing."
a sigh could be heard from the other side of the door."i need you to go get your brother from school. me and your father have something to do tonight." 'silence'
Jamie groaned "do i have to? i don't really feel well at the moment."
her mom walked into her room "Jamie you don't do anything else but write in the diary of yours!." she stood in front of her bed staring at her.
"yeah i know but- "but what Jamie? you don't have nothing to be depressed about! you are 17 go out and enjoy your life!." she raised her voice once again.
Jamie just sat there looking back at her mom then her diary. "now your brother gets out of school in an hour take the silver car and don't i repeat don't have anybody in my house when I'm gone." her mom left her room.
as Jamie got into the car and drove to her brothers school. *beep* "hey Cam over here!." Jamie yelled over to her brother. Cam ran to the car getting in the passenger seat. "i thought mom was coming to get me." he slammed the car door.
"yeah I'm not too happy about it either cam."she drove away from the school. as the 2 siblings were on the road driving back home Cam said "so you having anyone over when mom and dad leave?." he said in a teasing tone.
"why so you can snitch on me? plus you know i don't have any friends Cam." Cam snickered "how could i forget." Jamie shook her head and kept driving.
"and if i did have friends i wouldn't bring them around you." Cam gasped "and why not?" Cam looked at her
"well for one you are annoying two you are annoying." Cam gasped
'is that all you can say? is that I'm annoying?." Jamie chuckled "pretty much." they made it back home. Jamie got the car walking up to the house door. "come on Cam." she called out before setting the keys on the rack.
*silverware clinks* "what's up with you and that boy hanging on your wall?." Cam asks as he ate his dinner. "oh you mean David?." Cam shrugged "whatever his name is."
"David Frank is his name he's a singer." Cam chuckled "what are you like in love with him or something? cause i mean like he's everywhere in your room."
"yeah i noticed that but , does it bother you.?" Jamie looked at her brother Cameron. "well i mean yeah you have this guy on your wall and you barely even know him." Cam rolled his eyes.
"yeah I'm aware of that part." she sighed. "uh just put your plate in the kitchen i'll clean it out." Cam did what he was told and went upstairs to his bedroom. "just...mind your business from now on okay Cam?." Jamie yelled up the stairs. 'silence'
*creaky floor* "you know sometimes i think you're the only one who understands me." Jamie looked at her wall where posters hung. "i know i don't know you and you don't know me cause im some dumb fan...it almost feels like we're meant to be." Jamie chuckled "i really do sound crazy." she shook her head while looking at the wall.
"i think i may be crazy." Jamie went to go lay on her bed.
*yawns* "ugh what time is it?." Jamie woke up holding her head "it's 8 in the morning." a guy said sitting on the chair that was by Jamie's closet. Jamie turned her head and looked the guy up and "how the heck did you get in my room?." Jamie jumped out of her bed. "I've always been here i'm confused on why you're just now seeing me." he shook his head
"what? you've been here this whole time? i'm so confused."
"why? you let me in." he looked at her. "i let you in.?" *knocks* "everything okay in there Jay?." Cam called out. "uh yeah I'm fine just stepped on something." she called back. "okay uh I'm heading over to Jordan's house." he added before jogging down the stairs out of the house.
"you let me in you let me in." those words echoed in Jamie's head all day. "i let him in how's that possible and what does he mean." she dropped a glass and high pitched screaming came out of nowhere. it made Jamie drop to her knees and cover her ears. when the ringing stopped Jamie stood up she saw that her ears were bleeding "oh my god!." she screamed
"what's going on?." Cam put his hands on her shoulder Jamie jumped and looked up at Cam "Cam? why are you here? i thought you were at Jordan's house what happened?." Cam scoffed "i mean i was there but then i walked back into the house hearing you scream like you were getting murdered."
"you didn't hear the screeching?."
"screeching? uh Jay are you okay?." Cam eyebrows furrowed
"uh yeah i'm fine i just thought i heard somebody screaming." Cam chuckled "you did loser! it was you!." he laughed poking Jamie's face.
"no i meant before that." she grabbed the broom. "you take your medication this morning?." Jamie shook her head "uh no i came down to get something to drink but then i dropped the glass by accident.
" Cam nods "yeah obviously." he took the broom from her "go..take your medication Jay i got this." she nods. "promise me you won't tell mom about this." she turned around looking at her younger brother. " i promise i won't tell."
"hey Jordan do you think my sister is crazy?" Jordan snickered "she's looney Cam you of all people should know that."
Cam looked at the floor "it's just i'm just worried about her and i'm not exactly sure what i'm supposed to do with someone with schizophrenia." Jordan shrugged "nothing you can do but stay out of the way. basically mind your business and pretend she don't exist."
he finished plugging his gaming system up. "don't beat yourself up about Jamie Cam she has the disabilities not you." Jordan handed Cam a controller.
"Jordan how could you say that? why are you so non sensitive?." Jordan chuckled
"that's not a word Cameron." Cam shook his head setting the game controller on the couch beside him. "yeah, obviously i know that non sensitive ain't a word." Cam admitted. "but i think i should go check on my sister i can't leave her alone for too long."
he stood up from the couch. "yes, go check on your disabled sister." Jordan joked.
Cam shook his head.
"you aren't real!." Jamie yelled holding the side of her head. "i am real!." the man yelled back " you let me in!."
"no i didn't! i don't even know you!." she yelled back. *silence*. Jamie took her hands off her head. she looked around the room not seeing anybody. "you don't even know me."
she got off her bed ripping every poster, picture, and fan made letters off her wall. "what is wrong with me?." Jamie cried out hiding in a corner in her room.
"hey i noticed you took the poster off you wall." Cam brought up. "did i make you take it down?."
"uh no i just got tired of seeing it on my wall that's all." Cam scoffed
"you love that man to death why would you do that?." Jamie shrugged "people change Cam. plus he's so last year anyway." she set her dinner plate in the sink.
"so last year?." he got up setting his dish on top of Jamie's. "Jamie is there something going on? that dude is literally apart of your daily routine."
"Cam please drop it." she began to wash the dishes.
Cam just stared at his sister as she washed the dishes. "you didn't take your Medication this morning did you?." Jamie stopped washing the dishes "of course i did why you assume i didn't?."
he kept staring at her "because you're acting like that again."
"acting like what Cameron?." she raised her voice slightly
"frustrated, angry, very annoyed." he pointed out.
"no i'm not i'm being my normal self." she smiled (fake one of course)
"you know that smile ain't fooling anyone right?." he crossed his arms.
"Cam, maybe you should worry about yourself more. see me i'm perfectly fine!." he squints at his sister before sighing.
"im just trying to look out for you Jay you know? you have these disorders and i don't want to lose you because of that. plus you're my only sister." he confessed
Jamie set the plate down. "oh Cam you aren't going to lose me i'm right here! and i know you're just looking and i appreciate that i really do! but sometimes i need space and sometimes you *she pokes him* don't need to stress yourself out behind me okay?. Okay Cameron?."
Cam nods "yeah Jay just promise me if anything is wrong you'll let me know okay?." Jamie smiled "deal." they hugged. "now get out so i clean." Jamie said playfully.
Cam chuckled and made his way towards the living playing the game.
*dishes clink* "Jamie." a voice whispered her name. Jamie jumped. "Cam could you not!." she yelled.
he walked in the kitchen "yeah?." Jamie rolled her eyes "can you stop playing around?."
"what do you mean Jay?." Jamie shook her head. "i just heard you whisper my name stop acting dumb." Cam looked around the kitchen.
"Jamie i swear that wasn't me."
"yeah , yeah Cam get out!." she threw the towel on the counter.
"just can't stop playing around for nothing." Jamie mumbled. when she went back to washing the dishes she heard the whisper again "Jamie."
Jamie then dropped the plate and the glass went everywhere which also cause Cam to come running into the kitchen. Jamie what is going on?." Cam exclaimed
"it's you! you keep on playing pranks on me Cameron!." she pushed him. Cameron fell back on his butt. " WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT JAMIE?." he raised his voice.
"you kept whispering my name Cam i heard you!." her voice breaks.
"Jamie it's not me.." he watched her leave the kitchen.
she rushed into her room going through all of her items. "where are you." she whispered. "JAMIE." the voice screamed leaving a screeching noise behind and it made Jamie go crazy
"ugh please stop!." . *bangs on door* "Jamie are you okay?." Cam asked.
"Cam." she called out crying but he couldn't hear her. "Jamie!." Cam tried breaking down the door.
Jamie got off the floor and grabbed her chair from the corner. "Jamie come on stop playing open the door." he tried kicking it down.
*Jamie groans* "make it stop." she leaned against the wall "do it." the voice screeched.
"Jamie open the door!." Cam yelled. "please open the door!." he said quietly
Jamie brought the chair to the center of the room "Hurry up Jamie." the guy stood a few feet away from her. "please Cam make it stop !." Jamie cried.
"Jamie make what stop? please tell me." Cam tried the door again. "the noises Cam!." she stood on the chair. "need a push?." the man smirked.
"Jamie?." Cam whispered. "GO!." then Jamie jumped.
Cam finally got the door open but he was too late, he seen his sister hanging from the ceiling. Cam rushed over to Jamie and got her down. "aw Jamie." he sniffed and wiped her face. "Jamie." he sniffed again while holding his sister to his chest (remember that's his only sibling)
the parents walked back into the house. "Jamie! Cameron! come down we have a surprise." *silence* "Cameron? Jamie! come downstairs." the dad called out from the bottom of the stairs. *still nothing*
"i'll go get them hon." the mom said and she went up the stairs. first she checked Cameron's room but they weren't there. she then went and checked Jamie's room and seen Cam holding Jamie's lifeless body.
Cameron looked up at his mom "I'm sorry i couldn't save her." his voice cracked. but his mom didn't move not one muscle. it was like she was frozen in place. "hey guys what's the hold-" the dad barged in.
"Jamie? Jamie?." he tapped her. "dad" Cam grabbed his arm "she's gone."
A/N - May Jamie rest in peace. i feel bad for Cameron that was his only sibling.
but you think Jamie was a bit schizophrenic? was that guy real? i don't think he was nobody could see him only Jamie. but let me know you guys feel about these shorts.