Chapter 1: Wretched
It's 2am in morning but still I'm studying for my exam.My final destination where I have to arrive is Medical college.I am passionate, hardworking and smart too.This time I'm gonna make it out for sure.I just need to hold on a little longer.But the thing is that I am getting dizzy and I can't concentrate on this anymore.What was it again?? Oh!! This is it.I got it.
That's how I told myself to complete my syllabus just within two nights.I had to do other chores because my parents couldn't support me financially.My father had gone mad and he was in mental hospital due to death of my elder sister in an accident while my mother was hospitalized due to chronic Cancer. Despite I had to support them,I continued my studies.It was tuff time of my life.Unfortuantely the day,I had to attend my critical assessment(entry test) that day I lost my mother.I didn't gave up yet I choose to study again for next year as I wasn't able to attend that day.Next year and the four upcoming years I didn't stop. I studied for 5 years but never got admitted that one time I tried harder than anything leaving everything, everyone behind I got it at the end but it was too late.I still regret not paying attention to my family,my loved ones and being too obsessive over medical profession.I am stranted in well of deplorable past.I am still haunted by the memoires but what can I do as I have had no choice or chance to change my life.Sometimes I think I should have ended my life back then.What if I had not dreamed of becoming a part of that profession? What if I had never given that test?What if I never had have wasted my youth,my life?What if I was never born?What if I had never chosen a wrong person over my loved ones? I regret my whole life and now I'm writing this letter as I am breathe less mourning over past.I got 35 this year but still I have nothing in my life.No place to call my home,no warmth,no friends,nobody...
"But I'm still alive; I'm still haunted by the memoires."
