Chapter 1: Shadows and Ordinary Days
New York had a way of swallowing time. Weeks slipped through Sara Taylor’s hands like fine sand, until she stopped counting them altogether. Mornings bled into nights filled with spreadsheets, muted laughter from neighbouring apartments, and the low hum of city traffic that never really slept. At twenty-five, Sara’s life had settled into a quiet rhythm—predictable, clean, and comfortably detached.
Her alarm clock buzzed at 6:30 a.m., a tinny melody that felt less like a wake-up call and more like a reminder that life waited, whether she wanted it or not. She rolled out of bed, tugging her messy bun tighter, and crossed the tiny studio apartment that could barely fit her thoughts.
The air smelled faintly of coffee beans and lavender candles—the two luxuries she allowed herself. A stack of unread novels sat on her nightstand, spines creased from half-hearted attempts to start them after work. Romance novels, mostly—the kind with grand gestures and heartbreaks written in cursive on the back cover. She used to love them in college. Now, she kept them as proof that she once believed in happy endings.
Her laptop blinked to life on the breakfast table as she brewed her first coffee. She liked her mornings quiet—emails, budget reports, and the ritual of sipping something bitter to remind herself she was still human. Being a junior financial officer at a multinational bank wasn’t glamorous, but it was stable. Numbers made sense when people didn’t.
Sara lived in a neighbourhood just far enough from Manhattan’s chaos to breathe but close enough to feel the pulse of it. She had once imagined sharing this apartment with friends, maybe even a partner, but the older she grew, the more she valued silence over conversation.
It had been seven months since she last heard from Kiara Steele, her best friend, with whom she completed high school partially and university life at Columbia. Seven months of unanswered texts, ignored calls, and the slow realisation that sometimes even the strongest bonds dissolve in the noise of adulthood.
Dylan Smith had vanished, too. Well, not vanished—he still posted pictures of trips and gym sessions on social media—but he’d stopped calling her, stopped dropping by her office for lunch breaks that lasted too long. Sara didn’t blame him. People moved on. They always did. Even friends do.
She closed her email tab and sighed, glancing at the photo pinned to her fridge—Kiara, Dylan, and her, arms looped around each other, faces sunlit and stupidly hopeful. It was on their graduation day at Columbia. The three of them had promised to stay inseparable, but life had a cruel sense of humour.
Still, she missed them. More than she liked to admit.
Sara’s coworkers called her “the quiet one.” Not in a cruel way—just an observation. She spoke when necessary, smiled when it was polite, and always met deadlines. Her boss once joked that if every employee were like Sara, the bank would run itself.
But under the layers of composure, Sara was tired. Not the kind of tired that came from late nights or overwork, but the deeper, heavier kind of feeling unseen.
She sometimes wondered if this was adulthood: everyone drifting, pretending to have it figured out, posting filtered happiness while quietly unravelling.
Love? She had given up on that long ago.
Maybe it was the novels—those tragic paperbacks she used to devour late at night, filled with cheating billionaires, secret wives, and heroines who cried themselves to sleep. Or maybe it was the dramas—those Korean and English TV shows where the rich always broke hearts and the good girl always lost. Either way, Sara had drawn her conclusion early: love was just well-written chaos.
She remembered watching a drama once where the male lead took the female lead to a mansion just to prove his affection. “A mansion,” she muttered aloud at the memory, shaking her head. “Try a decent conversation first, jerk.”
Her coworkers gossiped about dating apps and weekend hookups; she tuned them out. She wasn’t naïve. She knew attraction existed, that people fell in love, got married, and sometimes even stayed that way. But she also knew that people lied, cheated, and left without explanation.
Her cousin had been engaged to a CEO once—a man with a private jet and an ego bigger than his empire. He’d left her the week before the wedding for “someone more exciting.” Sara had been fifteen then. It was her first lesson about men with money. The second came later, when a high school friend dated a tech heir who treated loyalty like an accessory.
No, she thought. Billionaires, heirs, CEOs—they were all serpents in suits. Beautiful, persuasive, and poisonous.
She sipped her coffee and smirked to herself. “If heartbreak were a stock, I’d short it,” she muttered, amused by her own cynicism.
It wasn’t that she was heartless—just careful. Even when Dylan had confessed once, half-serious, half-joke, on a random day—“If I ever fall for someone, Sara, it’d probably be you”—she’d laughed it off and changed the topic. She couldn’t afford to lose another friend to romance.
That was the thing about love. It never stayed where you left it.
The afternoon sunlight slanted through her blinds when the doorbell rang. Sara looked up from her screen, frowning. She wasn’t expecting anyone. She crossed the small living room, brushing invisible dust off her cardigan, and peered through the peephole. And froze.
There, on the other side of the door, stood Kiara Steele—makeup smeared, eyes red, clutching a designer handbag like it was a lifeline.
For a second, Sara thought she was hallucinating. Seven months. Seven months of silence, and now she was here, trembling, crying.
Sara’s heart lurched. She unlocked the door.
“Kiki?” Her voice cracked with disbelief.
Kiara didn’t answer. She stepped forward and collapsed into Sara’s arms, sobbing—loud, uncontrollable sobs that soaked through Sara’s sweater.
“Hey—hey, it’s okay,” Sara whispered, startled but instinctively holding her. “You’re okay. Just breathe, alright?”
Kiara shook her head, her words breaking between hiccups. “I—I can’t, Sara… I can’t anymore…”
Sara tightened her hold, guiding her to the couch. “Sit down. I’ll get you some water.”
In the kitchen, her hands trembled slightly as she filled a glass. She hadn’t seen Kiara like this even during exam breakdowns. This was something else—something darker.
When she returned, Kiara sat hunched on the couch, clutching a pillow like a shield. Her eyes were swollen, and mascara streaked down her cheeks.
“Here,” Sara said gently, offering the glass. “Drink first. We’ll talk later.”
Kiara nodded weakly, her fingers shaking as she took it. Sara sat beside her, silent. She didn’t press for answers; she just waited. She’d always believed people needed space before they could speak their pain.
And as Kiara cried quietly beside her, Sara felt that familiar ache of helplessness—the kind she thought she’d left behind in college. She didn’t know yet what had broken Kiara so completely. But she knew one thing for sure: whatever it was, it was the kind of love story Sara had sworn never to believe in.
The first half hour passed in silence. Sara let Kiara cry. There was nothing else to do. Sometimes words only made grief worse.
The sound of the city bled through the windows—horns, footsteps, laughter somewhere down the street—but inside, the apartment was a fragile cocoon. The kind that holds sorrow until it’s safe enough to speak.
When the tears finally slowed, Kiara wiped her cheeks with the sleeve of her beige coat. “I’m sorry,” she whispered, her voice raw. “I shouldn’t have come like this. I just—had nowhere else.”
“Don’t say that,” Sara replied softly, sitting beside her. “You’ll always have here. Always.”
Kiara gave a trembling smile, one that didn’t reach her eyes. “You still make everything sound simple.”
Sara shrugged, pulling her knees up to her chest. “That’s because I don’t complicate things that are already a mess.”
It was meant to be light, but the weight in Kiara’s eyes made her regret the joke. The woman sitting next to her wasn’t the bright, determined girl she remembered. Kiara looked… hollow. There was a story behind that silence, and Sara could feel it pressing against the air like a bruise.
“Do you want to talk about it?” she asked eventually.
Kiara’s gaze fell to her lap. “Not yet,” she murmured. “Can I… stay here for some days?”
“Of course, Bae.”
Sara rose quietly and fetched a blanket, the same one they used during university movie marathons. She handed it over without a word. Kiara clutched it close, curling into the couch like someone trying to disappear.
As Sara watched her drift into an uneasy sleep, something inside her twisted—a sharp ache of memory and fear. Seven months ago, they were both laughing in a café, planning weekend trips that never happened. Now, Kiara was crying herself to sleep in Sara’s living room.
'Love did this', Sara thought bitterly. 'The very thing people called beautiful. But that was the cause of all turmoil'.
Later that night, Sara sat by the window, legs crossed, a mug of tea cooling beside her. The city lights flickered like dying stars beyond the glass. She didn’t need details to know what had broken Kiara. The signs were written all over her face—heartbreak, betrayal, the kind of pain that only love could inflict.
Sara exhaled slowly, tracing the rim of her mug.
'I told her once', she thought, 'Don’t fall too fast. Don’t trust too easily. But Kiara had always been the dreamer—believing in second chances, in healing people, in fairy-tale endings wrapped in expensive suits.'
Sara closed her eyes. “And now look,” she whispered to no one. “She’s living one of those tragic stories I used to hate reading.”
It wasn’t that she was heartless. She just didn’t believe in the idea of losing herself for someone who might walk away. She had seen it too many times.
Her another cousin, Anna, who dropped out of graduate school for a fiancé who left her for his secretary. Her high school best friend, who tattooed a man’s initials on her wrist only to laser them off a year later. Even her own aunt and her husband had spent most of their marriage sleeping in separate areas. However, she had seen subtle love between her parents. But she thinks that's rare in this age or era.
'Still, love was chaos wrapped in pretty words'. – Sara thought in her mind.
When she was fifteen, she’d written in her diary: Love is a dangerous game. And I don’t gamble. Years later, nothing had changed.
Sara had turned down men before—kind ones, ambitious ones, even handsome ones. But the only confession that had truly shaken her came from Dylan Smith. Her other best friend is in Colombia. She also denied him, as it could ruin their beautiful friendship.
Now, sitting in the half-darkness of her apartment with Kiara asleep on her couch, Sara wondered if she’d made the right choice. Maybe it was selfish—pushing everyone away in the name of safety.
'But safety', she told herself, 'was better than heartbreak.'
The clock ticked past midnight. Sara finally stood, stretched, and fetched a spare pillow for Kiara. She tucked the blanket gently around her friend and switched off the lights.
As she lay in bed, she couldn’t help but stare at the ceiling, where faint shadows moved across the plaster. Her mind wouldn’t quiet.
Kiara’s face kept flashing in her thoughts—those trembling lips, the quiet, hollow eyes. Whoever had hurt her must have been someone she trusted deeply.
Sara pressed a hand against her chest. 'Don’t get pulled in', she told herself. 'You’ve learned better.'
But old habits die hard. Kiara had always been her weakness—the one person who could make her break her own rules. If she were in trouble, Sara would move heaven and earth for her.
Maybe that was why the ache in her chest tonight felt so different. Not fear. Not pity. Something else—something old and uninvited—stirring where she had buried all her faith in love.
The next morning came grey and damp. Rain tapped gently against the windows. Sara woke early, as usual, though she’d barely slept.
She brewed two cups of coffee, the smell of roasted beans filling the apartment. Kiara was still asleep, tangled in the blanket like a child, her makeup faintly smudged.
Sara placed one cup beside the couch and took a seat opposite, pulling her knees close again. The rain outside blurred the skyline, and for a fleeting second, everything felt suspended—quiet, fragile, waiting.
When Kiara finally stirred, she blinked in confusion, eyes glassy with the hangover of tears. “I’m sorry,” she whispered again.
“Stop apologising,” Sara said, handing her the mug. “Drink. It helps.”
Kiara took a sip, her hands trembling slightly. “I don’t even know where to start.”
“Then don’t,” Sara replied gently. “Start when you can. I’m not going anywhere.”
Kiara smiled weakly, tears threatening again. “You haven’t changed at all.”
Sara smirked faintly. “Still the emotionless financial professional, yeah.”
“Still the only person I trust,” Kiara said softly.
The words hit harder than Sara expected. She swallowed, forcing her tone to stay even. “Then I’ll do my job, like always. Keep you alive, feed you coffee, and stop you from doing anything stupid.”
Kiara gave a small laugh that quickly dissolved into silence. “I did something stupid, Sara. I fell in love.”
Sara froze, her fingers tightening around her mug. There it was. The one sentence she dreaded hearing from anyone she cared about.
She sighed, looking away toward the rain. “Then I guess we both know how this ends,” she murmured, her voice quiet but sharp. “You break, and I pick up the pieces.”
Kiara didn’t answer. Her silence was enough.