Chapter 1 : Who was I?
MIKADO POV
[Mikado : It's too hard for me to recall a memory that has long since disappeared from my mind. In fact, my head often throbs after thinking so hard to open that memory. Phew... Well, I'll try to calm my mind first.]
Welp, this can't be helped tho. Everything in my mind is blank, a mist that I couldn't see by go through it. Why sometimes I see something, it just sees like white and black, but not colourful thing in my mind.... Just why? And....,
That's me, Mikado, just given the name without remembering the main reason the name was given to me. I asked that to Grandma Ashiro, who raised me without knowing the meaning of tiredness in her life dictionary even though she was no longer young anymore but she poured all her love on me no matter what happened.
[Mikado : Grandma, I want to ask you. Do you know who gave me this name?]
Grandma looked at my face with her thin smile.
[Ashiro : If that's the name, Grandma saw it on your name tag when you were neglected at the garbage dump. Grandma only knows that one.]
The answer is honest. So, they threw me out after the occurrence of a relationship or I was really neglected in a family maybe because I was born unplanned, right? Really sad about my fate.
[Mikado : I see, grandma. Thank you for answering Mika's question earlier and where are you going now?]
I asked with a worried tone. Nowadays, no one remember or care about me, uh uh wrong. From the start I was born in this sickening world, I'm confused, scared and don't know what to do....
[Ashiro : Grandma now going to the market to find a side dish to serve. Today is Saturday, so I have to go early, I'm afraid there will be a lot of people there. Okay, I'll go first.]
I helped Grandma carry the cart and waved my hand at her and shouted to be careful on the way to the market not too far from where I live. Just wondering, why this neighbourhood is a bit weirder than I thought?
Time passed, but there was still no sign of Grandma returning. I became very worried because Grandma didn't come back from the market. My eyes were directed towards the locked main door, expecting Grandma to return.
[Mikado : Grandma is taking a long time, it's almost 9 in the morning. Or maybe-]
TOK TOK TOK!!
Startled by the sound of the house door, I rushed towards the house door and opened the small hole. My eyes caught the presence of two policemen with serious expressions.
[Officer 1 : Hello, is there anyone near this house? We are police patrolling around this place. We got this address from one of your neighbors.]
One of the police officers said. I swallowed my saliva. Please no, just thinking... This is just another nightmare to need to wake up again..
[Mikado : Oh... Hello officer, I'm Mikado who is taking care of this house while waiting for my grandmother to return from the market.]
I answered, nervously. All of a sudden the patrol police came to patrol here, so I didn't feel bad. Does anything bad happened to her?? Why I'm feel so uneasy?
[Mikado : What is your purpose in my house, officer? Did something happen to my grandmother?]
My added question continued with a trembling voice. The facial expressions of the two officers began to show a rather sad reaction. My heart was beating fast, showing how anxious I was.
And... My heart smashed into pieces when I heard....
[Officer 1 : Right now, your grandmother was hit and run by someone. We still trying our best for gathering evidence to catch the perpetrator. I'm sorry because it's still too early to tell but you have the right to know about this incident. Before this, didn't your grandmother tell you something strange thing before she going out?]
My heart was crushed into pieces when I heard the answer from the officer, not expecting that my Grandma Ashiro was hit and run by a stranger. And for a moment my tears flowed very fast. Why did all this happen since I lived here for almost 10 years? Why? Why?!
They seems shocked after informing me. Now what? My panic attack attacking me, don't know what to do with myself. One men of policeman comforted me.
[Officer 2 : Calm down, kid. We're still looking for the clue hit-and-run that hit your grandmother. So, we're asking you to come to this hospital.]
Another one of the officers handed over his smartphone to show where the Grandma was being treated.
Without wasting time, I rushed to my room and changed my clothes. After changing my clothes, I quickly went down the stairs and followed the officer to the hospital.
My mind was really messy, my heart not in peace, my body feels like I was thrown for 100 miles away!
So I vividly remembered my past that almost took my life and also my actual reason for loving someone... And irony it is, I don't even remember her name...
Flashback start:
[??? : Why are you still here? What a strange man! I'm disgusted to see your rotten face!]
[??? : Hah, you don't have to treat him, (unknown). He's just an illegitimate child here! Later, if you talk to him again, the illegitimate child's disease will spread!]
It was like a knife cutting my heart when I heard that the woman I loved, was now a stranger. In fact, she now sided with the person who insulted me. Even more painful, she betrayed me with another man.
[??? : Listen carefully, bastard. I have never wanted to be with you, not even a single bit. I have never liked you at all, bastard. You are just my slave and useless. We have nothing- what else. Fu*kin pissed me off.]
The teenage girl named (unknown) kept throwing the flowers I gave her. Not satisfied anymore, she doused me with red paint. My feelings are now mixed with feelings of confusion, disappointment, anger and even pain.
[Mikado : Why are you so cruel, (unknown) I always try to be the best for you because I love you too much and this is the reward I receive from you?! Where did your shame and regret go!?]
Yes, I naively denied her betrayal of me because she openly showed her infidelity with another man, thinking I could save this relationship....
[??? : Oi, you bastard! I never loved you one bit. Since when did I say that? I only bet with my high status friends, whoever loses, has to express their feelings as punishment!]
[??? : And...]
[??? : I hope you need to disappear forever in this world!]
All the fantasies and dreams that were built, were destroyed in an instant. Her words full of insults and disappointment were like knives slicing my heart until it bled. How could she, Miyuki, the person I loved, change so suddenly? Is it because of her wild environment, that she is willing to betray me with another man?? Is it still not enough for just me in her heart?
She walked away from me covered in red paint accompanied by her new boyfriend's sarcastic laugh and I cried my heart out. And that's the end of my sad love story.
Flashback end
'Grandma, Mika will try the best to be a good and obedient grandson. Grandma, wait for Mika to get there.' I mumbled in my heart.
We finally arrived at the hospital where Granma was being treated. The police officer stroked my head gently and I smiled sweetly and hurried to the inquiry counter.
[Mikado : Hello, I'm Ashiro's grandmother's grandson. May I know which ward she's being treated in?]
[Receptionist : Oh, you are Ashiro's grandmother's grandson, aren't you? Only biological grandchildren can visit her. Are you really her biological grandson?]
Grandson? But her grandchildren and her family never visited her even once. With confident, I immediately took out my wallet and showed my card to the hospital staff. Their faces continued to turn pale.
[Receptionist : Oh, I'm sorry. You can visit her now.]
Strange, why their reaction is a bit pale? I just show my adopted grandson's card, so there's no need to act like that.
[Mikado : Thank you.]
I said with a sweet smile.
My feet stepped into the room number where Ashiro's grandmother was being treated. For a moment I saw their behavior and their diverse behavior. They are chronic patients who cannot be treated but their faces look happy.
[Ashiro : Ah, you're here, I'm really sorry for making you worry. Forgive me, Mikado. This not what it should be.... No no no...]
No, no! This is not what I expected! My fingers continued to wipe away Grandma tears that continued to flow. It breaks my heart to see her condition, the family left her without any news. It's really bad for the family that left Grandma alone.
[Mikado : Don't worry, grandma. Mika doesn't want to complain about anything to grandma, the important thing is that grandma is healthy. Okay now, Mika wants to go the counter to pay for grandma's medical treatment.]
I smiled when grandma also smiled once. My heart is happy! I went straight to the counter to pay for grandma's medicine.
However.... In fact, my destiny says otherwise... The tragedy began..... Argh, my heart just not feeling easy.
[Ashiro : ARGHHHHH!!!]
I was startled when I heard a very familiar scream. I then ran with all my heart and saw the event that I really did not want to happen, finally happened. My adopted grandmother, lying helpless on the floor, covered in blood calling my name.
[Mikado : GRANDMA!!!]
I'm scared..... I'm scared...... Don't leave me.... Remember...... No one else in this world besides you..... How dare you.... Why do you..... You're pathetic... Die... Don't show your face anymore....
[Mikado : GRANDMA, DON'T LEAVE MIKA ALONE ANYMORE! MIKA IS BEGGING GRANDMA, DON'T LEAVE MIKA! GRANDMA!]
I ran faster towards her while wailing like a child who lost his toy. My soul is disturbed and twisted to see this heartbreaking situation. Just why does it have to be like this? What's wrong with myself, who knows nothing, to have to deal with people I barely know. Accusations, insults and ostracism, have become my daily routine, being a person who seems to be absent from the people around me.
My hand became numb and trembling, holding her seems like holding fragile stick which can be smashed into pieces, my tear wouldn't stop drop.... Tsk...... Tsk.......
I took the side glance at the person who attacked Grandma recklessly. Then I met his gaze, his face went pale, with the hint smug painting on his lips. Now, the rage in my heart had become more consumed with revenge and helplessness. I should've stayed by her side a bit longer...
[Mikado : Don't run! You'll pay for this tragedy unfold!]
The assailant who attacked Granma was immediately detained by medical officers who passed by the place. Their voices continued to fill Grandma place. I screamed in tears as I hugged Grandma. Her fingers continued to grip my shirt which was full of blood.
[Ashiro : M..Mi...Mika... Gr...Grandma.... Ask.... You.... To.... Continue..... Li... Life... Wi.. Without...... Regrets..... ]
That was the last word Grandma said to me. I wailed as loud as I could while people kept soothing me who was still sobbing. Then I remember that bast*rd who killed Grandma merciless when I'm not around.
[Mikado : Where is the person who attacked Ashiro's grandmother?! Have he run away early from me?!]
The hospital went silent, no one dared to open their mouth to answer my questions.
My emotions changed. My anger suddenly overflowed. My hands were shaking with the mounting anger, chasing after the assailant who was trying to escape from the crowd. He flinched and proceeded to kick the person holding him back to get away from them.
[Mikado : HEY, DON'T TRY TO CHALLENGE MY PATIENCE! GET HERE YOU DAMN! BAST*RD!]
I'm so enraged right now. Why he should took everything that dearest far from me?! What did I do to him that make him go that too far??? Just why....?
[???? : ACKKK!!!!]
The assailant collapsed on the stairs I chased after him. Finally I was able to catch him, but a bad feeling began to haunt me. Why, huh?
[Mikado : WHY ARE YOU ATTACKING GRANDMA? DID SHE DO SOMETHING WRONG TO YOU, HAH!? DO YOU HAVE A DARK REVENGE ON HER?! HAH?! ANSWER MY QUESTION, BASTARD!]
Now, he was just silent and a sly smile was thrown at me. A sarcastic smile again? What else tricks are he want to pull, huh?
[???? : You will never feel happy again, MIKADO.]
I was shocked. How does he know my name?
The knife was taken out of his trouser pocket and pointed at my neck and I barely managed to avoid it, but it still hit my neck and drew a lot of blood. I moaned in pain while holding my neck.
[Mikado : ARGHHHH!!!]
The man stood up and smiled contentedly as I lay on the floor. My ears caught the man's voice, very horrible. Eerie yet still haunting in my ears.
[???? : After this, if I meet you again, you will never see this world and make you as some special gift ever exist! Hahahahahahahaha!!]
[???? : But, why did you escape and run away from me? That 'home' is built just for you..... Hahahahaha never mind, see you again, my beloved Mikado (********)]
The world around me became dark. My consciousness disappeared and I...... Can't feel any more warmth from my body....... Is this..... The end of my life? My memory became hazy and more blurry than before. Sh*t, what now....
To be continued....
