MY LOVER, MY HATER

This is a piece I wrote on Valentines day this year

And I felt like sharing it here now cause I didn’t know about Inkitt then😅

This is raw. Not edited. Straight from my heart.

And it is a very personal part of me.

I want to give you a glimpse of my personal life.

Enjoy my lovely readers 😘

Dear Readers,

The club they say isn't the best place to find a lover

But that is exactly where I meet him,

My stupid heart fell for him shamefully

He was a poet, so let's just say I fell for his sweet words.

Abolore my lover, the one after my life

He broke my heart in pieces and forgot the crumbs

Now that's the problem, the crumbs are alive

They leap for joy even if it's just his name we heard

OH MY STUPID HEART

It's been One year, Eight months and Fifteen days since he stole my heart

Even this day last year he wrote me a letter without us being "official"

I got tired cause I can't call him my boyfriend, but he was my lover

A lover that I wasn't sure of, so I took my courage and asked him

Long story short,

It's been Ten months since he first broke my heart

He denied my love even though I was the one that prophesied

He said that he can't love me but why can't he leave me then

Why stay and continue writing to me like he did nothing

Eight months and Two days now was the first time I denied him our love

He said he was ready for my love and I was happy but,

I was scared at the same time so I said NO

NO because I know he's not that nice, he's just looking for a prey

I know I'd regret accepting him so I said I don't want to be "THAT LOVER"

That lover that you can leave and come back to when you please

But as the fool that I am, as the stupid unpaid hero

I thought I needed to be there for him

So I embraced him back into my life, but he did it again

He broke me for the second time

Now it's exactly Three months since he crushed my heart finally

But as the goat that never listened to his master

As a child that acts like they are not loved at home

Even though I'm ignoring him right now

I still hope he's ok, that he sleeps well at night

And that he finally gave love a chance

And that he moved on, unlike me who is still waiting on him

I still go to everywhere he'd post that he is, just to get a glimpse of him

But the crumbled heart is not fit for his love anymore.

xoxo

~AnonymouslyE

SAD VALENTINE'S DAY