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📘 Emaan Ka Wazan (The Weight of Faith)
My Life and Islamic Mixed Book
Author: Shoaib Khalid
Part One: The Journey of My Life (Pakistan to Dubai)
Chapter 1: Childhood and Family
My name is Shoaib Khalid. My life began in the beautiful village of Kalliam Awan in Pakistan. I was born there, and I spent the first twenty-one years of my life there. Kalliam Awan is a peaceful village, but sometimes, a loneliness is hidden within that silence in a person's heart.
Childhood was not easy for me. I never received the love that a child should get from their home. I often saw other children's parents talk to them and laugh, but silence was mostly my share. I often consoled myself, thinking that perhaps everything would get better one day.
In those days, I found some people in my life who fulfilled the void in my heart—Hamza, Haris, and Wasif. Haris was the most precious friend to me. Whenever my heart was heavy, he was the one who understood without me saying a word. Thanks to these friends, my childhood became somewhat easier. I understood then that a relationship is not of blood, but of feeling.
Chapter 2: Youth and a New Journey
Time passed, and I began to grow into youth. The atmosphere of Kalliam Awan started to feel somewhat confining for me. , "It is difficult to stay here now."
This pain gave birth to the decision to leave this place. My father, Khalid Javeed also wanted me to go abroad. First, I planned for Europe, and then for Britain, but the COVID-19 pandemic stalled all plans. I was a bit disappointed, but I did not lose courage. And then, suddenly, an opportunity arose—to go to Dubai. I decided without thinking too much. This journey was not just a new destination for me; it was a new chapter in life.
Chapter 3: The Trip to Dubai and Facing Reality
There was no special joy or sadness at home on the night of my departure. I was silently observing everything. I took a long breath upon reaching the airport. No tears, no nervousness—just a quiet peace.
Upon reaching Dubai, I faced reality. The company's representative did not come to pick me up. No one was at the given location, and then I realized that the company was lying. I spent that night with great difficulty.
The next day, I went to a friend's place, and then I got a job as a cashier at an Art House Café. I worked there for a few months. During this time, the company people would occasionally give me small duties. Because of this, I traveled and saw about 80% of the entire UAE. This was an experience for me.
Chapter 4: The Security Journey and New Confidence
Later, I got a job in a security company, and I am still working with the same company—for more than three years now. For two years, the manager of the building where I worked was Mr. Shadab—from India, a polite, honest, and kind-hearted Muslim.
In his free time at the office, Mr. Shadab would talk to me about Islam, the world, life experiences—every subject. I learned a lot from those conversations—my understanding of Islam grew, and most importantly, a new confidence was born within me.
I felt that if a person sincerely wishes to learn, even daily conversation becomes a classroom. Ever since that new confidence developed within me, my thinking changed. Previously, work felt only like a duty; now, every shift felt like an opportunity.
I learned that if the heart is satisfied, even difficult work seems easy. The truth is, I never had a passion for a job from the beginning. My heart was always inclined towards doing business. I have never saved money until today, nor have I built anything for myself. Everything I earned, I spent on my father and family.
My father's love has been behind every decision of mine. But one thing always pricked my heart—perhaps my family never gave me the respect or love that I deserved. Still, I am grateful because Allah knows my intention, and I did everything with sincerity.
Chapter 5: The End Result of Chasing the World (The Turning Point)
Today, man has forgotten Allah and made the world his deity. We are running as if death is ashamed of us. Yet, the Quran clearly states:
> "كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَائِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ" — Every soul shall taste death.
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Our misfortune is that we are Muslims in name, but the love of the world in our hearts has extinguished the lamp of faith (Emaan). The life of this world is merely an enjoyment of delusion, but we have accepted this delusion as the ultimate reality.
When I lived in Pakistan, I saw that people lived in the name of religion, but not according to the principles of religion. Seeing this, I wondered, "Is Islam merely a name for worship, or for character too?"
When I came to Dubai, my sight, my heart, and my thinking—all three changed. I started reading the Quran not just for reward, but to understand it. And from there, I learned that true Islam is more about character than worship.
Part Two: The True Spirit of Religion and Societal Realities
Chapter 6: Introduction and the Book's Purpose
Alhamdulillah Rabbil Aalameen, Wassalatu Wassalamu Ala Khatimin Nabiyyeen Muhammad (PBUH).
I, Shoaib Khalid, wish to articulate the true spirit of Islam in this section, in the light of my personal thought, experiences, and observations. My aim is neither exaggeration in praising anyone nor opposition to anyone—only to understand and explain the truth in the light of the Quran and Sunnah.
Mr. Mirza's words opened a door to research and thought, and from honest people like Mr. Shadab, I gained an understanding of practice (Amal).
I observed that religion is being limited to mere external rituals. Worship exists, but justice, truth, love, and consciousness (Shauoor) are missing. This feeling became the motivation for this book.
Chapter 7: The True Teachings of Islam – Character and Justice
Islam is not just the name of Salat (prayer), Sawm (fasting), Hajj, or Zakat—it is a complete system for living life.
The Quran states:
> "Indeed, Allah orders justice and good conduct and giving to relatives and forbids immorality and bad conduct and oppression." (An-Nahl: 90)
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And the Prophet (PBUH) said:
> "The best among you are those who have the best character." (Bukhari)
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True Islam is what is visible in character—speaking the truth, doing justice, and keeping promises.
Chapter 8: Reasons for Religious Weaknesses
* Hypocrisy and Show-Off Religion: Worship is only for display, not from the heart.
* Sectarianism: The Ummah (community) has been divided into pieces.
> "Indeed, those who have divided their religion and become sects—you, [O Muhammad], have no concern with them whatsoever." (Al-An'am: 159)
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* Lack of Knowledge: The Quran is read only for reward, not for understanding.
Chapter 9: The Joint Family System in Pakistan
In my view, the joint family system eliminates a person's mental freedom. Islam has given every person their own responsibility.
> "All of you are guardians, and every one of you is responsible for his subjects." (Bukhari)
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In Islam, love and connection should remain, but every household should be separate and autonomous.
Concluding Message
I, Shoaib Khalid, through this book, only want to say that it is necessary to understand the religion before worshipping.
Islam does not want blind following—it wants knowledge, research, and consciousness.
The first step of faith (Emaan) is to read the Quran yourself, understand it yourself, and practice it yourself.
Islam is between you and Allah—not between any sect or cleric.
This story does not end here. This is only the first part.
Insha'Allah (God willing), if Allah wills, its second part (Book 2) will definitely come.
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