Conversations with the Divine
🌙 Surah At-Tawbah (9:40)
Allah tells the Prophet ﷺ and Abu Bakr (RA):
“Do not grieve; indeed Allah is with us.”
These feelings I have, I have never shared, I cannot share, and no one has ever really noticed them. But HE is the one indeed to whom i can tell anything that i want.
🌙 1. Surah Al-Baqarah — 2:186
“And when My servants ask you concerning Me, indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me, that they may be [rightly] guided.”
Sometimes i just discuss this with HIM because :
🌙 Surah Al-Talaq — 65:3
“…And upon Allah let the believers rely (Wakeel).”
If i wasn't born , everyone's life would have been so perfect i swear ..I see when they laugh , they discuss things , they participate in things it feels like they are perfect and complete. It feels like i am the one who sometimes show interest in their life otherwise they don't care . They always blame me for my actions .
I got everything that i wanted , you know what when you feel ignored you just yourself to look good and perfect , this is me .
I just want things that make me happy ,sometimes I want new clothes ,new style to present myself to people .
I Don't want anything in Life and literally i don't stay alone,stay quiet But i don't want myself to be judged because i am not wrong i know because when i say something to them it's always a NO
🌙 2. Surah Al-Baqarah — 2:155–157
“We will surely test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives, and fruits.
But give glad tidings to the patient —
those who, when calamity strikes them, say: ‘Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return.’
They are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is they who are rightly guided.”
I just want live my life on my ways Because life has made me mature enough .Allah guides me in every situation so i think keeping in mind my mental health , i think no one can understands me because ofcourse everyone has their own life ,their own tensions and my condition is like i need people to understand me , console me .
I know guys What is wrong and what is right because “I became mature the day you all used to fight with each other… the day you did things in front of a child that should never have happened.
I grew up when I lost the friend who was like a sister to me.
I grew up when I became silent.
When I stopped fearing thunder and rain.
When I started living alone in a dark room.
And now… I’m scared to trust people.”
Inside me, that 17-year-old girl had turned into someone who felt 30 or 40. My mind was trapped in thoughts far too heavy for my age.
It's not that i do not want to say it's because my opinions don't matter ,It feels like they don’t matter — but that feeling usually comes from being ignored, dismissed, or undervalued for too long.
Since I changed and became colder, life has stopped feeling exciting. Everything feels empty and uninterested .
But Still in the End It's ME & MY RAB
🌙 2. Surah Al-Baqarah — 2:155–157
“We will surely test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives, and fruits.
But give glad tidings to the patient —
those who, when calamity strikes them, say: ‘Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return.’
They are the ones upon whom are blessings from their Lord and mercy. And it is they who are rightly guided.”
And yes i don't want anything i just want YOU .
I want a long trip of MAKKAH , the only thing that can fix me and after that my life would be so perfect I am sure .
“We know that your heart is distressed by what they say.”
— Surah Al-Hijr 15:97
Sometimes I can’t tell people that their behavior is hurting me. Sometimes they say things they believe are right, but their words cut deeper than they realize. There are so many moments when I could reply, defend myself, or tell them exactly how I feel — but I don’t.
Not because I am afraid, but because I know there is a right time for everything.
And when that time comes, the truth will reveal itself.
Time will show them what I never said out loud.
Time will show them that they were wrong.
Until then, I stay silent — not out of weakness, but out of wisdom.
Spoiler:
This was my favourite part, it didn’t feel like writing, it felt like someone’s truth.
"I know guys What is wrong and what is right because “I became mature the day you all used to fight with each other... the day you did things in front of a child that should never have happened.
I grew up when I lost the friend who was like a sister to me.
I grew up when I became silent.
When I stopped fearing thunder and rain.
When I started living alone in a dark room.
And now... I’m scared to trust people.”
Inside me, that 17-year-old girl had turned into someone who felt 30 or 40. My mind was trapped in thoughts far too heavy for my age."