Chapter 1
I clicked the lock in place as I entered my small apartment. I looked at the dark apartment feeling the darkness closing in on me as if attracted to the darkness within my heart. The atmosphere was cold and lifeless just as I wanted it, it reminded me that I’m not supposed to be here, to be like this.
I placed my backpack at the door and walked straight to my bedroom, took out a shirt and a new pair of boxers before making my way into the small bathroom. After I stripped down, I turned to see myself reflected in the mirror. I had grown thinner but then again, I didn’t feel like eating as much so it was fine. I deserve this, this is my punishment.
Some minutes later I got out of the shower and my eyes landed on the small mini fridge I had in the apartment. I thought aloud, “Should I eat something?”
“Do you deserve to eat Arch?”
He was right, like always. I drank a bit of water and wearily dragged my heavy body to the bed, all I wanted now was to sleep.
I was surrounded by the darkness again as I lay in bed but it didn’t bother me anymore. Instead, I welcomed it now, a place where no one could see me, my ugly self, no one would see the real me...
The Murderer....
The darkness of my dreams was the only place I could see him now and hear him. I sat in the darkness waiting for him to come as he always did. ”Hello Arch...”
I smiled weakly up at the twenty-year-old in front of me saying, “HelloBen.“, he looked at me saying,“Aren’t you going to call me Benny anymore.”
"I can’t.” I replied shortly, “I miss you; you know....”
"You killed me!!”
“I’m tired of it all. Should I give up?”
“NO!!”he shouted, ”You can’t give up just because you’re tired. You should suffer more. Suffer longer!!”he shouted angrily. I gave another soft smile saying, “Okay, I will. As long as I can.”
As I said that the darkness faded and I felt my eyes flutter open against the sunlight that shined through the glass. A groan escaped past my lips as I used my scrawny arms to shield my eyes. I got up and got dressed for the day. I didn’t care much for what I wore and just picked up whatever was clean. I grabbed some yogurt from the fridge as I made my way out to begin another day.
