Chapter 1
Walking through the highly intoxicated crowd with strong fumes of vape and weed all hitting me at once. My arm being grabbed but by who? My head is spinning my legs feeling shaky i cant see straight.
I enter a bedroom and lay on the bed as a man sits in the chair in the corner. I can’t work out a face until he stands up
“Drew?!” He comes closer to me lifting my head up to look at him.
“Kami, you are drunk out of your mind. I don’t want to hear anything that comes out your mouth.” He says in a stern voice still holding my chin up with his hand.
Out of everyone at this party why Drew. We haven’t spoke in 8 months since I broke up with him. He didn’t ask why when i did he just said okay and left. We had a 3 year relationship and one day i ended it.
“Drew why are you here? Why did you take me to this room?” I say while the lights are making my eyes burn
He notices and flips off the lights and he fixes his position into a more serious stance. Having a hard time keeping eye contact.
“Kami, I have a life i go out too. I took you in here to save you from acting like a idiot infront of everyone.”
I move my face from his hands and lay back in bed. He starts to head to the door. Im laying in bed confused as to where i am and how im going to get home.
“Drew.. will you maybe take me home. I don’t want to stay the night here.”
He looks at me with the same blue eyes i once fell in love with. He comes back to me.
“Of course I’ll take you home Kami.” He says in a neutral tone.
He grabs my hand and guides me out the room through the crowd of people. Keeping my hand tight making sure I won’t let go. We get outside were people are peeing in bushes and puking in the yard.
He open the car door for me and i get in. I get a familiar scent in his car of a strong colonge that he wears. He starts driving his eyes focused on the road.
“Thank you Drew.” I know he doesn’t have to do this but the fact that he is makes me feel safe and secure.
His eyes still focused on the road with no response. I look out the window expecting the silent treatment.
“Why did you end it Kami? I thought..” he pauses “ i thought everything was going good did I do something for you to stop loving me Kami?”
My heart beats faster knowing he would say these words. “I felt like my head and my heart wanted different things. I still care about you and i think i always will.”
I couldn’t keep it in and said it out loud. We met in college when he was 19 and i was 17 we dated until we we were 22 and 20. I was still in love with him not falling for another guy since.
He stays silent still looking at the road the street lights hitting his face enhancing his light blue eyes. His posture straight and his hand veins showing on the wheel from the way he was holding it.
I see my house and he pulls into the drive way. He undoes his seat belt and helps me to the door.
Before i can even think “Drew… will you stay with me”
He looks me in the eyes and fixes my hair that was in my face.
“Kami I don’t know if thats a good idea” still making eye contact. He finally says “Fine” and opens the door. Q
He guides my waist up the stairs making sure i wont fall back. I make it to my room and take off my shirt making myself comfortable. I grab a baggie shirt undoing my bra and putting the shirt on. I take off my pants and get in bed.
Drew is already in bed facing towards me. We are face to face noses almost touching.
“I think im done drinking for a while” i say with a giggle. I can see him smiling through the darkness.
He grabs my thigh rubbing his arm up and down. I finally get closer and cuddle into his arms. His warm body keeping me feel safe as he wraps his arms around me. I finally fall asleep in his arms.
I wake up to a empty bed feeling hungover and sick i lay in bed. Drew walks in with a smoothie and hands it to me. I slowly reach for it feeling weak in my whole body.
He smiles at me “It’s pineapple, i remember thats your favorite” he gets in bed and lays besides me.
I roll over and start playing with his blonde hair. Running it through my fingers.
“I missed this a lot.” I say knowing he’d feel the same
“Fuck Kami” he says holding his head then looking at me. “You know how much i wondered if it was my fault. I felt for months that it was my fault.”
I can hear the tone in his voice change to a softer more caring tone.
I perk up and hug him tight “It wasn’t you and im sorry i made you feel like this Drew.”
He hugs me tight and we are silent just taking eachother in. I kiss his forehead and look at him in the eyes.
“Ive always cared about you and i have never stopped”.
He pulls me into a tighter hug and we stay like that for a while. Just letting eachother in knowing we’ve both needed this.
I get up and get dressed for the day wearing a white tank top and grey sweats. I look in the mirror and fixed my hair. I head down stairs were i find Drew in the living room holding his keys while he’s by the door.
“What are you doing Drew?”
“Im going to leave thanks for letting me stay Kami but i think its time i leave.”
I look at him with a confused expression wondering what i did. He opens the door and leaves. Did i do something wrong was i being to much.
