Golden Love

Amaira's POV

"Hey Dakshu baccha, don't run, you shall fall beta." I ran after that small one year old kid.

"He..umm..heeeeheee." she giggled running from one end of the house to another. My feet pumped against the floor, running behind the cute little baby.

"Yeah! Now you finally came into my hands." I catched her into my arms, picking her up. She kept fighting and retorting while I held her.

"You naught kid!" I tickled her feet.

"Bu..bua..a..bua.." She laughed and kicked me with her small strength.

"Hey Dakshita, why are you troubling your bua? Huh?" Akshita, her mother, came from the kitchen with the kid's favorite baked chocolate chip cake in her hand.

"Bhabhi yeh chota khargosh abb bahot masti karne lag gya hai!" I laughed out, still tickling the kid in my arms.

"Ma..ma..moo...maa." Dakshita eyes aa she saw her Mamma getting her favorite choco chip cake. She nearly fell out of my arms to run out for her cake. I dropped the kid on the floor, and she ran for the cake like a man running for his life.

"Coo.c...ccoco..maaaa...cake.." She babbled on her words, barely understable.

Dakshita is just one and a half years old. Still a baby, with cute little legs and hands, maki g a run for her favorite chocolate. My eyes softened when the baby climbed into her mother's arms and feast on that chocolate cake. She is so like me, even I love chocolate cakes like life.

So much has changed into these past two and a half years. Darsh bhai got married to this beautiful woman, and now they are blessed with a little girl of their own, Dakshita. Everything has changed in these past years. Me , bhai, dad, mom, and maybe HIM.

He is still unknown to me. Still making me wait, still away from me. I don’t even know if he is safe or dead. I don't even know where he is. These past years felt like a punishment to me. What kind of things did I do to deserve this Lord? What did he do? Why is he hurting? He broke all the fucking boundaries to save me.

Sighing, I walk towards my sister in law and her cute little bunny.

"Where's my little bunny and my wifey?" Bhai called.

They both ran to him with their arms wide. Bhai picked his little bunny and wrapped his arms around hus wifey. God! They all look so cute and adorable.

How I wish my life to be this.

With him, but....

"Paa....paa...." Dakshita babbled and kissed bhai's cheeks.

A small smile formed on my lips looking at them. They are so happy and settled. I wished this all WITH HIM.

Tears started to form in my eyes but I hide it quickly.

"Amaira." Bhai glanced towards me with a concerning look.

He walked towards me and stretched his arms for me. I smiled slightly with tears still glistening in my eyes. I spread my arms and hugged him.

"Did you find him." I asked hoping that the answer would be 'YES' but it's always 'I am searching and trying my best'.

"I am searching and trying my best Amu, but there's still no clue of him." He said rubbing my back. I sobbed into his chest. Tears falling from my eyes like a waterfall from a cliff.

I lost him!

I lost my life.

"Hey, shh..shhh.. Amu listen, listen to me here." Bhai tried to console me.

"I don't feel like living bhai. It feels so suffocating without him beside me. I am lost bhai, I am lost." I cried out.

"No...Amu...no, we are finding him, keep hope Amaira. And don't ever say that you don't feel like living Amaira. Live for yourself dear, hope that maybe he is okay."

"How can I? When I don't know anything about his whereabouts, about his well being." Tears pooled down my cheeks.

"Shh...shh... listen, you are my strong Amu, right? First stop crying. Life doesn't end without a piece missing, but it's lonely, but you need to understand. You need to stay strong and live for yourself, and live to pray for his wellbeing.

I hummed but deep down I knew that I lost my interest in this world because he was my world and lost it.

"Excuse me." I ran and walked to my room. Locking the door, I sat on my bed, my fingers brushing and caressing the ring on my finger.

My hands went to the pendant around my neck. It's all him! Whatever I do to distract myself away just for a moment so that I can breathe without thinking about him. So that I can live just for a moment without crying for him, but how can I when he was my fucking air that I breathe, my fucking world, my moment, my man.

How could I live in peace when I don't know where he is? Is he alive or not?

I fear....I fear that one day my all hopes turn me down and he shall never come back to me. I am afraid that hoping for his return turns opposite.

Life feels so suffocating and toxicating without him. I held the necklece between my fingers and held it tight. I sobbed loudly.

He left me!

Alone!

How can I live without him?

He promised me that he shall be there to protect me ,to love me and fuck me but he is now nowhere. I am so lost without him.

Sometimes I feel like maybe I should hope, maybe he is out there safe and alive and waiting for the rime to come out to me.

Flashback.....

"Why are you eating that? You don't like that, right?" I said, stopping him from eating those sweets.

"You like them but..." He said straightly.

"But that doesn't mean you shall eat it. What you like is different, which doesn't mean you will eat what I like." I told him.

He grabbed me by my waist and pulled me closer to him. He grabbed my chin and pecked my lips sweetly.

"My whole fucking world revolves around you. I shall have what you will. It's my pleasure, my queen." He smiled with that softening gaze which is only reserved for me.

Blush coated my cheeks and ears.

God! I fell for the right man!

"I wonder whether our kids would like sweet or spice?" He said with a teasing tone. His eyes shinning as he exaggerate the word 'kids'.

"They shall probably reflect their mamma, so sweet probably. Daddy ain't going with that." I mocked him. He raised his eyebrow, quite amused by him.

"I shall fuck you so hard tonight that whenever you see our children, you shall remember seeing me." He whispered.

I rolled my eyes at him.

"Let's go Patidev!" I yelled and dragged him.

Flashback ends...........

He said his world revolves around me and so does mine but now he is nowhere to be find out. Losing him feels like losing myself. I cried all my heart out. Everyday starts with crying for him and then ends again crying for him and praying to God that he returns.

My heart nearly broke when I felt like I was pregnant with his child. I would have been felt dead. But I wasn't pregnant. My periods were late because of the stress and tension at that time. I took a test and it was negative. But somewhere in my heart it still aches that what if I would have been pregnant.

Would I have been a good mother. How would I have taken care of the baby on my own, wothout his father. How would I have told my child? How would I have survived without him. Carrying his child would be a treasure to me. I would be so grateful for having the kids of the man I love truly and deeply.

My heart aches everytime I glance at the pendant and the ring. He asked me to be his wife, his life but why does it feels like he lost both?

I rubbed my face with my hands, wiping my tears, convincing myself everday, every time that I need to stay strong for him, for myself.

I hope where ever you are, be safe and alive. My heart still waits for you and it will until my last breath. You woman would wait for me. You are my first thing and everything until I die. And I shall still hope if you didn't make upto me because I loved you. With all my heart and still do until I die!

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Hey readers,

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Let me know through your sweet little comments.

It's so emotional seeing Amaira cry for his Rudraksh.

Pray for his return guys.

~Readtomesam.