The Unexpected Dreamer

Haven’t you ever, while reading a novel, manga, or manhwa, wanted to replace the female lead and be the one under that God of sexiness?

Have him hit you with the smolder, the tick in his jaw, the smell of sandalwood, or a sexy growl?

... Pfft. Sorry, but if a guy ever growled at me, I’d take him to the vet.

But you know what I mean, right? I can’t be the only dirty-minded person in here.

Now, while I wanted nothing to taint the sacredness of my BL novels, I couldn’t help but fantasize about having a stint with the dark villains of straight ones.

There’s something about a mentally unhinged, powerful man who could have anyone he wants but insists on being obsessed with one woman that is just... irresistible.

Of course, he also needs a tragic backstory that warrants forgiveness and makes you go, “I can fix him, I swear.”

So the fact that I am in love with Sosuke Aizen and Geto Suguru should not surprise you.

I realize I might be mentally unhinged as well.

And yes, just like it sounds, I’m a booktok girlie. Add to that: I am also a complete, inexperienced virgin. I’ve only ever kissed one boy before, and I ran away afterwards.

Anyway, since I discovered alternate-universe novels and fanfiction, my dream has been to isekai into my favorite fantasy novel. And if the occasion permits, have a wild one-night stand with the villain.

I have a MeTube channel where I create thirst trap edits of my favorite villain characters using screenshots from manhwa websites.

I also have a blog.

Yes, I am that dedicated.

We listen, and we don’t judge.

True to God, that was all it was ever supposed to be: an impossible dream. I never thought my dream would become a reality. Dreams usually don’t, unless you’re one of those people who give TED Talks.

Besides, I’ve dreamed of many things before: becoming a ballet dancer when I was seven, my mum getting a divorce from my stepdad when I was ten, my mum getting a divorce from my stepdad when I was eleven, my mum getting a divorce when I was 12... and so on.

Those dreams never got fulfilled.

But now, for the first time in my life, a dream of mine came true!

Kinda.

And I didn’t have to give anything for it!

Maybe.

Oh, you’re not interested? Too bad, I insist on sharing.