Chapter 1 The Night the Moon Ruined Me
I had always known the moon would never be kind to me.
Even as a child, when the other girls ran barefoot through the clearing, laughing as their wolves stirred beneath their skin, I stayed behind, watching, waiting, hoping for something that never came. My wolf never spoke. Never growled. Never shifted. She was either silent… or she did not exist at all.
And in a pack ruled by strength, silence was a death sentence.
That night, the forest breathed differently.
The air was heavy, thick with anticipation and ancient magic. Silver light spilled through the towering trees, bathing the ceremonial clearing in a cold, merciless glow. Torches burned in a wide circle, their flames dancing as if they were alive, whispering secrets only the moon could understand.
Mate Night.
The night every unmated wolf feared and desired in equal measure.
I stood at the very edge of the clearing, half-hidden behind a tree, my fingers twisting into the worn fabric of my plain grey dress. It was the only decent one I owned. No jewels. No embroidery. Nothing worthy of a ceremony meant to celebrate fate itself.
But then again, I wasn’t meant to be here.
Whispers followed me wherever I went.
That’s her.
The wolfless girl.
Why hasn’t she been cast out yet?
I kept my head down, my shoulders curved inward, as if making myself smaller would make me invisible. It never worked but habits formed from years of cruelty were hard to break.
Across the clearing stood Kael Blackthorne.
I didn’t need to look directly at him to feel his presence.
Everyone felt Kael.
He was the future Alpha of Blackridge Pack—born powerful, bred for dominance, forged in expectation. His aura alone pressed against my skin, sharp and overwhelming. Tall. Broad. Unyielding. His dark hair fell carelessly around his shoulders, and his posture radiated confidence that bordered on arrogance.
Kael Blackthorne had never lost a fight.
And he had never looked at me with anything other than contempt.
I had seen that look more times than I cared to remember, his eyes cold, dismissive, as if my existence offended him. To Kael, weakness was a disease.
And I was infected from birth.
The Alpha struck his staff against the stone altar, the sound echoing through the forest.
“The moon rises,” Alpha Blackthorne announced. “Let those bound by fate step forward.”
One by one, wolves moved into the clearing.
Gasps filled the air as bonds ignited, mates locking eyes, wolves growling softly in recognition, joy breaking through years of loneliness. Some cried. Some laughed. Some fell into each other’s arms beneath the moonlight.
I didn’t move.
I told myself not to hope.
Hope was dangerous. Hope shattered you when it died.
Minutes passed. The clearing slowly filled, until I realized, with a hollow ache in my chest, that nearly everyone had found their mate.
Everyone except me.
A familiar knot tightened in my throat.
Of course, I thought bitterly. Why would the moon choose me?
I turned slightly, preparing to slip away unnoticed like I always did.
That was when pain exploded inside my chest.
It was sudden. Brutal.
I gasped, clutching at my heart as fire tore through my veins, searing and unstoppable. My knees buckled, and I stumbled forward, a cry ripping from my throat as the world tilted violently.
Something snapped into place inside me.
Something ancient.
Something alive.
The moon above flared brighter, its silver light blinding, suffocating. My breath came in shallow, panicked bursts as a force I couldn’t understand wrapped around my soul and pulled.
Not gently.
Not kindly.
Across the clearing, a growl thundered through the air.
Every head turned.
Kael froze.
I saw it clearly now, his body going rigid, his jaw tightening, his hands curling into fists at his sides as if he were fighting something inside himself. His wolf surged forward, wild and furious, restrained only by sheer will.
Then his eyes lifted.
And locked onto mine.
The bond slammed into me fully.
It was overwhelming, heat, awareness, connection so raw it made my skin ache. I felt him in my bones, in my breath, in the frantic pounding of my heart. Every instinct screamed his name, even though my mind rejected the truth.
No.
Please, no.
The pull dragged me forward against my will. My feet moved even as terror flooded me, the clearing spinning as whispers erupted around us.
“The wolfless girl?”
“The moon chose her?”
“This must be a mistake.”
Kael took a step back.
Not toward me.
Away from me.
His expression twisted not with longing, but with fury.
“You have got to be kidding me,” he said, his voice sharp and cutting.
Each word felt like a slap.
The Alpha turned to him. “Kael”
“No,” Kael snapped. “This is wrong.”
Laughter broke out, harsh, cruel, disbelieving. I stood frozen in the center of the clearing, every eye burning into me, my cheeks flaming with humiliation.
“I won’t accept this,” Kael continued, his gaze slicing through me like a blade. “She’s weak. She has no wolf. She’s nothing.”
Nothing.
The word lodged itself deep inside my chest.
I opened my mouth, desperate to speak, to explain—to say I didn’t ask for this—but no sound came out.
The bond throbbed painfully, resisting his rejection like a living thing.
“The bond has been declared,” the Alpha said firmly. “You know the law.”
Kael laughed, bitter and hollow. “Then the moon has lost its mind.”
He walked toward me then, stopping so close I could feel the heat of his body, the power coiled beneath his skin. His eyes were dark, stormy, filled with loathing and something else, something dangerous.
“I will never accept you,” he said quietly, just for me. “You will never be my Luna.”
Tears burned my eyes, but I refused to let them fall.
“I didn’t choose this,” I whispered.
“Neither did I,” he replied coldly.
His gaze dropped briefly to my collarbone—where a mate mark would one day appear—and his jaw clenched.
“If the bond won’t break,” he said, “then you’ll pay for it.”
He turned away and raised his voice for all to hear.
“I reject her.”
The words shattered me.
Pain ripped through my chest as the bond recoiled—but it did not break. It held. Tightened. Refused to release us.
The moon remained silent.
The clearing filled with uneasy murmurs as realization dawned.
The rejection had failed.
I stood there, trembling, bound to the man who despised me, marked by fate as the Alpha’s mate, yet unwanted, unclaimed, and utterly alone.
Kael Blackthorne hated me.
And the moon had bound us anyway.
As the crowd slowly dispersed, fear replaced mockery in their eyes.
Because the moon never made mistakes.
And whatever I truly was…
It was something powerful enough to ruin the Alpha who rejected me.