" A diary of my feelings, during my first crush.

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Summary

"I never thought I could like someone this much. But from mid-April, he became someone I couldn’t stop noticing. Every little thing he did… his smile, his eyes, even the way he looked around… it stayed in my mind all day." I mean I can't stop him stalking in school or in social media, I just love him deadly. And this beautiful story starts in my school in the beginning of the toughest class I mean class 9 th in the mid April . This is a one-sided story where feelings lived quietly. I loved him without promises, without courage, and without being noticed. He never knew, and maybe he never needed to. Some stories are not meant to be shared — they are only meant to be felt.

Status
Ongoing
Chapters
1
Rating
n/a
Age Rating
13+

THE UNSEEN FEELINGS...

Title: Unseen Feelings

Summary

This is a story of feelings that were never seen, of someone I cared for quietly and silently. I loved him without being noticed, smiled for him without him knowing, and felt things I could never say. He never knew, and maybe he never needed to. Some hearts fall in love in silence, and this is mine — unseen, but real.


Even from the little I heard from my friends, I started noticing him in my thoughts. The way he walked, the style he carried, the way he smiled—it all stayed in my mind. I didn’t know him, I never talked to him, but somehow, he had already made a place in my world.

And that’s how it started… noticing him from afar, caring in silence, and feeling something I couldn’t even name yet.

Chapter 1 – Unsaid

I never planned to fall for him. It just happened, quietly and slowly. He was never mine, and yet he became someone I cared about the most.

I smiled and pretended nothing was wrong. He never noticed the way my heart paused every time he was near. Maybe because one-sided love is invisible.

This is not a story of confession or happy endings. This is a story of feelings that stayed hidden, and a heart that loved in silence.

Chapter 2 – First Sight

He was a new student in our school, in class 9. The first time I saw him, I didn’t even know who he was. His presence felt different, something about him just stood out. After that, he didn’t come to school for many days. I thought maybe he had left the school, but I was wrong…

One day, I didn’t go to school. My friends messaged me excitedly, “The new student came today! He was looking so stylish,” I couldn’t stop imagining how he must have looked. I wished I had been there to see him, but at the same time, I didn’t want to seem too eager.

I barely knew him, yet he had already made a place in my thoughts. That’s how it started—quietly.

Chapter 3 – A Small Moment

The next day, I finally saw him in class. Just being near him made my heart race.

He laughed with his friends, and that small laugh stayed with me.

I wanted to say “Hi,” but the words never came. Loving someone from afar felt simple and complicated at the same time.

Chapter 4 – Silent Eyes

Slowly, our eyes began to meet. For him, it meant nothing. For me, it made my whole day.

I waited for him to come to school just to see him once.

I didn’t need more. Just noticing him was enough.

I mean enough!!!!

Chapter 5 – Silent Glances

He never smiled at me . But sometimes, I caught him looking at me.

I knew it didn’t mean he liked me. Still, those glances made my heart beat faster.

Even unseen, those moments became my reason to smile.

Chapter 6 – Eyes That Speak

One day, our eyes met fifteen times. ❤️‍🩹

No words, no smiles—just glances.

Those moments filled my entire day with happiness and quiet pain.

I just expressed this feelings to one of my friend.

Chapter 7 – Ignored Attempts

I tried to say “Hi” many times. He ignored me.

I even raised my eyebrows twice, hoping for a response. Nothing.

It hurt, but my feelings refused to fade

Chapter 8 – Tiny Moments

After that, I noticed everything—passing by, picking up things, walking in the same hallway.

Chapter 9  – Waiting Quietly

Days started to feel longer. I began noticing time in a strange way — how slowly the morning passed and how quickly school ended. I waited for him without any reason, without any plan. Just waited.

I waited to see him walk into the classroom, to catch even a second of his presence. Some days, he didn’t come, and those days felt unusually empty. I pretended I didn’t care, but deep inside, I did.

There was nothing between us — no conversations, no smiles, no promises. Still, my heart waited for him quietly, asking for nothing in return.

Maybe that’s what one-sided love is — waiting without expectations, caring without being noticed, and finding happiness in the smallest moments that mean nothing to the other person.

I noticed how he talk, smile, his dimple omggshh , his body posture everything.

He never smiled, never spoke.

Still, those tiny moments quietly took over my world.

Chapter10  – When He Was Absent

One day, he didn’t come to school.

At first, I didn’t think much about it. But as the hours passed, I realized how empty the classroom felt without him. I kept looking at the door, half-hoping he would walk in late, like nothing had happened. But he never did.

My friends were laughing, teachers were teaching, everything felt normal… except my heart. I didn’t miss him because we talked or shared memories. I missed him because my days had quietly started revolving around his presence.

That day, I understood something painful yet honest — I was attached to someone who didn’t even know how important he was to me. And still, I waited.

Maybe loving someone silently also means learning to be okay with their absence.


One day, I finally did it.

I followed him on Instagram.

I don’t know why — maybe my heart couldn’t wait anymore. I had been stalking his profile quietly for days, pretending it didn’t matter. But that day, my heart wanted what it wanted, and I listened.

I followed him… and then waited.

Minutes passed. My heart was racing. I told myself not to expect anything, not to hope too much. And then suddenly—

He followed me back after 45 mins later.

My happiness reached the top. I couldn’t explain it, couldn’t control it. It felt flawless, unreal, like a tiny miracle meant only for me. I smiled for no reason, checked my phone again and again, just to make sure it was real.

No messages. No words. Just a follow back.

But for me, that was enough.

Sometimes, the smallest things bring the biggest happiness — and that day, my heart was full.

After that, I posted a story on Instagram.

Not for attention, not for anyone else — just to see if he would watch it.

I kept checking my phone again and again. My heart was waiting quietly.

And then I saw it.

He had seen my story.

For a moment, I felt happy. At least he noticed. At least he saw it.

But that happiness didn’t last long.

He didn’t like it.

No reaction. No reply. Just seen.

I told myself it was okay. People don’t have to like everything they see. But my heart still felt a little heavy. I realized how easily hope grows… and how silently it breaks.

Still, I smiled.

Because even if he didn’t like it, he saw it.

And sometimes, in one-sided love, even that feels like something very special

That One Like

After that, days passed just like before — quietly, normally, with the same unspoken feelings. Nothing changed, yet everything felt the same.

Then our school took us on an education tour. Those days were tiring but refreshing, and for a while, my mind was busy with new places and memories.

After coming back, I posted another story.

I didn’t expect anything this time. Truly.

And then—

He liked my story.

For a second, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I checked again. And again.

It was real.

My crush had liked my story.

My heart felt too small to hold that happiness. I smiled without control, my hands slightly shaking as I took a screenshot — just to make sure I could look at it again and again.

That like stayed there for 24 hours, as long as the story existed. And all that time, I kept thinking — he knows he liked it, and I know he liked it. That tiny heart on my screen meant more to me than it ever should have.

No words were exchanged.

But that one like is enough for me.

The next day at school, I saw him again.

Same walk. Same face. Same silence.

After that like, a small part of me expected something — maybe a smile, maybe a glance that lasted a little longer. But nothing changed. He didn’t look at me differently. He didn’t try to talk. He didn’t even acknowledge that moment we both knew about.

He was normal.

And that’s what hurt the most.

I realized how two people can experience the same moment so differently. For me, that like meant butterflies, screenshots, sleepless nights. For him, maybe it was just a tap on the screen — nothing more.

I sat in my class, watching him from a distance, pretending everything was fine. I smiled with my friends, laughed like always, but somewhere inside, my heart felt a little stupid for hoping.

Still… I didn’t regret it.

Because even if nothing changed for him, something had changed in me. I had felt happiness, even if it was brief. And maybe that’s what one-sided love is — feeling deeply, even when the other person stays the same

The very next day, he posted a story.

I swear, I’m telling the truth — just one second after it appeared, I saw it.

One second. That’s all it took.

Without thinking, without stopping myself, I liked it.

Only after that did my heart react.

My mind suddenly woke up — Why did I like it so fast? Was it too obvious? Did he notice how quickly I reacted?

My hands felt cold, my heartbeat loud. I kept staring at my phone, replaying that one second again and again.

I tried to calm myself down, telling my heart it was normal. Liking a story is normal, right?

But for me, it wasn’t just a like.

It was proof of how much attention I paid.

How closely I watched.

How easily he could make my heart forget logic.

He didn’t reply. He didn’t react.

But I knew — if anyone noticed the timing, it would be him.

And that one second… stayed with me much longer than it should have.

After that, something unexpected happened.

One day, I realized he was blocked from my account. I don’t know who did it, and I don’t know why. For a moment, my heart panicked — like something precious had suddenly disappeared without warning.

Later, I unblocked him.

But things were not the same anymore.

We were no longer in each other’s followers list. He wasn’t following me, and I wasn’t following him either. Just like that, our small social media connection ended — without a fight, without an explanation, without words.

It felt strange.

How something that once meant so much could disappear so quietly.

Still… I stalk him sometimes.

Not because I expect anything, but because his account is public, and habits don’t break easily. I see his posts, his stories, from a distance — the same distance that always existed between us.

Social media ended there.

But feelings don’t follow buttons like follow or unfollow.

And maybe that’s the truth of one-sided love — it doesn’t end loudly. It just slowly becomes a memory you carry silently, while life moves on.

Now, I only see him at school.

From a distance.

No expectations. No hopes. Just a familiar face in a familiar place.

And somewhere along the way, something changed.

I stopped liking him the way I used to.

That intense feeling, the waiting, the overthinking — it slowly faded. I still like him, yes, but not that much anymore. Not enough to let it control my day. Not enough to lose myself.

Seeing him doesn’t make my heart race like before.

It just reminds me of a phase — a quiet chapter of my life that taught me how deeply I can feel.

Maybe this is how one-sided love ends.

Not with hate.

Not with drama.

Just with acceptance.

He was never mine, and that’s okay now.

Because I found myself somewhere in between liking him… and letting him go.


Even now, I still see him at school.

The day, he didn’t come.

I don’t know why. And strangely, today was the day I really wanted to see him. Not to talk, not to expect anything — just to see him. But it’s okay. Some days don’t go the way we want.

And then I found out…

He has a girlfriend.

That moment felt heavy. Not shocking — just heavy.

I didn’t cry. I didn’t break.

I just went quiet.

Maybe because somewhere deep inside, I already knew this was possible. And maybe because I had already started letting go. Still, it hurt — not because I wanted him to be mine, but because a chapter officially ended.

I looked back at myself — the girl who waited for eye contact, who counted likes, who overthought one-second moments. And I felt proud.

Because I loved honestly.

Silently.

Without demanding anything.

He is someone else’s now, and that’s okay.

I wish him happiness — not loudly, but genuinely.

Some people come into our lives just to teach us how to feel… and then they leave. And maybe that’s enough.

He was a chapter in my life.

Not the whole book.

Not the ending.

Just a chapter.

And that chapter is still there — turning slowly, fading a little with time, but not completely gone. It isn’t over, and it doesn’t need to be. Some chapters don’t end; they simply stop being the focus.

I see him sometimes. I think of him sometimes.

But it doesn’t hurt the way it used to.

What remains is not longing, but understanding.

Not pain, but growth.

He was a part of my journey — and that is enough.

Life keeps moving, new pages keep waiting, and I keep becoming someone stronger than before.

Some chapters don’t need closure.

They just need acceptance.

This story is written from my heart.

If there are any mistakes, or if any part feels imperfect, please forgive me. This was never meant to hurt anyone — it was only a way for me to express feelings I couldn’t say out loud.

To him —

I wish you happiness, peace, and a beautiful future ahead.

May life give you love, success, and everything your heart deserves.

Some stories are not written to last forever.

They are written to be felt — and then gently let go.

Thank you for reading 🤍.