Guilt

Guilt 

Now that I have put myself back together

I find myself worrying about you

Are you going to be okay?

You barely know how to take care of yourself

I’m moving forward while you’re still at a standstill

Rage fills my bones at how you can’t even get yourself together now

You gave up our relationship to be the version of yourself that you felt you couldn’t be

Yet you’re still not taking care of yourself

In fact you’re even saying you don’t want what we had again with anyone

I gave you such a great partner yet you don’t want that again?

How insulting

Here you are standing in front of me

Collapsing to your knees

Thinking that I won’t reach out to you

Begging me to be your friend

Yet you wanted them to be your friend instead of wanting me to be in your life

Now that you’ve seen what it’s like without me

Here you are standing in front of me

Collapsing to your knees

Will you ever learn?

It’s clear to me now that you don’t want me to be friends with me

You want someone who isn’t your mother

To take on that roll

To take care of you

So that you’re not forced to become an adult

To be held accountable for your actions