Authority and Obsession

"Sit."

The word was calm. Measured. Not loud.

Still, I sat immediately.

The chair felt colder than expected. I folded my hands together to stop them from fidgeting as I faced him across the desk.

Dr. Verma glanced down at the file before him, turning one page slowly, deliberately, as if giving me time to settle or time to grow uncomfortable.

When he finally looked up, his expression was composed, almost neutral. The sharpness of his features made him appear younger than he was.

Thirty-two.

"You called for me, Professor?"

"Yes." His gaze moved briefly across my face, then returned to the document. "Your grades are dropping, Ms. Sharma."

Of course they were.

Starting medical school at twenty-four already felt like entering a race halfway through. Falling behind now wasn't an option. I pressed my fingers together tighter, feeling the faint pressure ground me.

"Yes, Professor. I'll improve."

The standard answer. The safest one.

His pen tapped once against the file before he set it down.

"I am sure you will," he said evenly.

"But I'm more interested in understanding why this change has occurred. You were performing above average in your first semester. Consistently."

His eyes lifted again. Steady. Observant.

"So what changed?"

I shifted slightly in my seat, adjusting my posture without thinking.

There had always been a pattern with me, an uncomfortable one. I became consumed by things. Sometimes ideas. Sometimes people.

Once, it had lasted six years. Just glances exchanged across rooms and corridors. Nothing spoken. Nothing claimed. The moment he tried to speak to me, tried to make it real, the entire feeling dissolved like it had never existed.

I hadn't liked him.

I had liked the distance.

The uncertainty.

The tension.

And now the pattern had returned.

Dr. Verma.

AIIMS graduate. Anatomy professor. Controlled presence. Naturally intimidating.

He carried authority without effort, which made people lean toward him without noticing.

Many students admired him openly. Some spoke about him like he was an achievement waiting to happen.

But I didn't want that.

I didn't want admiration or affection.

I wanted proximity. Pressure. The quiet weight of being evaluated.

"I've been... distracted," I said finally.

His pen paused above the paper.

"And what is causing this distraction?"

His voice remained steady, but his attention sharpened slightly. He leaned forward just enough to suggest interest, not concern.

He was also the assigned student counselor.

Which made this... complicated.

"It's personal," I said, lowering my gaze to the edge of the desk.

"Hm." He nodded once. "You understand that conversations here remain confidential."

I did.

But confidentiality didn't make the words easier to say.

"Well..." I exhaled slowly. "You are everybody's doctor, Professor. I don't particularly enjoy sharing."

A faint crease appeared between his brows before it disappeared again.

"Technically, yes. But each student is still treated individually." He reached toward the recording device beside his files. "If it helps, I can stop the audio documentation."

The offer lingered in the space between us.

I leaned back slightly, studying him more carefully now.

"I don't think it would be appropriate to discuss my sexual fantasies with you, Sir."

The word 'Sir' came out slower than necessary.

His hand stopped mid-motion.

Not dramatically. Just... still.

The pen hovered between his fingers before he placed it down beside the notebook with deliberate precision. His jaw tightened briefly, a movement so slight it could have been imagined before he cleared his throat.

"You may discuss anything affecting your academic performance," he said after a moment, voice carefully neutral.

"My role here is to help you manage distractions constructively."

His eyes moved to the file again, though he didn't turn the page.

"That includes thoughts you may find uncomfortable to acknowledge."

The professionalism was intact.

Almost polished.

Almost disappointing.

"I don't want my thoughts examined like a clinical case, Professor," I said, interlocking my fingers together to hide their tension. "And I don't require psychological explanations for them. I don't have hidden trauma or unresolved issues waiting to be uncovered."

He inhaled slowly through his nose, straightening slightly in his chair. His fingers brushed the edge of the file, aligning it with the table though it was already straight.

"You wouldn't be judged," he said.

"But ignoring a distraction rarely makes it disappear."

Silence followed.

Heavy. Measured. Balanced between challenge and retreat.

"It won't affect my grades," I said eventually, pushing my chair back just enough to signal movement. "I'll manage it."

He studied me for a second longer than necessary.

Then he nodded.

"See that you do."

The authority returned to his voice controlled, precise, familiar.

I stood, smoothing invisible creases from my sleeve more out of habit than necessity. Walking toward the door, I could feel his attention remain on me, steady as ever.

My hand rested on the handle for a brief moment before I opened it.

"Ms. Sharma."

I turned back slightly.

"Yes, Professor?"

"You are capable of maintaining your previous performance," he said, eyes fixed on the file again rather than me. "Do not compromise it."

"I won't," I replied softly.

I stepped outside and closed the door behind me.

The corridor felt strangely quieter than before. I exhaled slowly, allowing a faint sense of satisfaction to settle beneath my nerves.

Dr. Verma

Inside, Dr. Verma remained seated, posture unchanged.

He picked up his pen and resumed writing. The movement was steady, practiced the kind built through years of discipline.

Halfway through a sentence, he stopped.

He reread the line and crossed it out neatly.

His gaze lifted toward the closed door.

It lingered there, thoughtful, calculating and something else he refused to name.

After a moment, he adjusted the stack of papers before him, aligning their edges with unnecessary precision.

"Professional distance," he murmured quietly.

The words sounded firm.

Rehearsed.

He lowered his gaze and continued writing, each stroke of the pen slower than usual.

Ms. Sharma

I was still feeling the aftereffects of our encounter, an adrenaline rush of a different kind. My fingers trembled slightly as I adjusted the strap of my bag, an unfamiliar tightness settling in my chest , a strange pull between wanting to avoid him entirely and wanting to remain within the quiet radius of his presence.

Moving toward my physiology lecture, I tried to ground myself.

The corridor buzzed with its usual afternoon rhythm, students discussing assignments, footsteps echoing against polished floors, someone laughing too loudly near the stairwell.

Normal sounds. Familiar sounds.

They should have helped.

They didn't.

I walked a little faster than usual, my mind replaying fragments of the conversation whether I allowed it to or not. The stillness of his pen. The measured way he placed it down. The almost invisible tightening of his jaw.

I hated how sharply I remembered those details.

The lecture hall door was already half open when I reached it. I slipped inside quietly, choosing a seat near the middle row,close enough to see the board clearly, far enough to disappear into the crowd if necessary.

The professor had already begun explaining cardiovascular reflex control, diagrams spreading across the projection screen in precise, labelled clarity.

I opened my notebook automatically, letting muscle memory take over as my pen hovered above the page.

Baroreceptors. Feedback mechanisms. Homeostasis.

Words that usually fascinated me now blurred slightly, the ink forming uneven lines as my grip tightened unconsciously.

I forced myself to focus, repeating each term silently.

Anchor yourself. Concentrate. Regain control.

For a few minutes, it almost worked.

Then the professor mentioned regulatory response under pressure, and the word pressure lodged itself in my mind like a splinter.

My pen paused.

I inhaled slowly, adjusting my posture, pressing my feet firmly against the floor as if the physical contact could steady the erratic rhythm inside my chest.

You are overthinking this.

You provoked him.

He responded professionally.

That is all.

Simple. Logical. Contained.

I nodded slightly to myself, lowering my gaze back to the notebook. The lecture continued, slides shifting with clinical efficiency. Around me, pages flipped, pens scribbled, chairs creaked softly as students adjusted their positions.

Routine began to settle again.

Until something tugged at my awareness.

It wasn't a sound. It was... instinct.

The faint sensation of being observed, not vaguely, not imagined but in the focused, deliberate way attention feels when it is directed entirely at you.

I ignored it at first, tightening my grip on the pen and continuing to copy the diagram appearing on the screen.

The sensation remained.

Steady.

Unmoving.

My shoulders stiffened almost imperceptibly. I kept writing, finishing one label, then another, forcing myself to remain still.

Do not turn around.

The thought arrived uninvited which, of course, made it impossible to obey.

My gaze lifted slowly, as if drawn upward by something outside my control.

The lecture hall's side wall was made of glass panels overlooking the corridor.

And there he was.

Standing just beyond the reflection of fluorescent lights.

Dr. Verma stood with his hands loosely clasped behind his back, posture relaxed yet unmistakably composed.

He wasn't moving, wasn't speaking to anyone passing by. His attention was directed inside the hall, scanning, observing, evaluating.

For a brief second, I convinced myself he was watching the lecture itself.

Then his gaze aligned with mine.

It wasn't sudden. It wasn't dramatic.

It was precise.

The faintest pause passed between us, a silent acknowledgment neither of us could explain if questioned.

My heartbeat stumbled, then accelerated, loud enough that I was certain the girl sitting beside me could hear it.

His expression remained neutral. Professional. Almost unreadable.

Almost.

His head tilted a fraction, as if assessing whether I was paying attention to the lecture or not. The same silent evaluation he carried inside classrooms. Inside conversations. Inside every controlled space he occupied.

Authority, distilled into stillness.

My fingers tightened around my pen until the plastic edge pressed sharply into my skin. I forced my gaze back to my notebook, lowering it quickly, deliberately as though the act of writing could erase the moment entirely.

My handwriting had changed. The letters were uneven, slightly slanted, the diagram incomplete.

Outside the glass, footsteps passed behind him. Someone spoke to him briefly another student, perhaps. I couldn't hear the words, only the muffled shape of conversation.

I didn't look up again.

I refused to.

The lecture continued, the professor explaining reflex arcs with steady patience, but every second stretched slightly longer than it should have.

Every shift of movement near the glass registered sharply in my peripheral vision, even when I tried to ignore it.

After a few moments -or several minutes; I couldn't tell, the presence outside the hall disappeared.

The corridor returned to its usual blur of passing figures.

My shoulders lowered slowly, though the tightness in my chest remained.

I stared at the half-finished diagram on my page, tracing one incomplete arrow absentmindedly.

Avoid him.

The thought surfaced clearly now.

Avoid him before this becomes something you cannot control.

Because this... this was familiar territory.

Not him.

But the pattern.

My tendency to become absorbed in people from a distance drawn to their presence, their authority, their attention, but only within carefully measured boundaries. It was never about closeness. It was about the space just before it. The charged silence. The possibility that never demanded resolution.

Once things moved toward reality, something inside me recoiled instinctively, as if certainty stripped the experience of its intensity.

I preferred observation to participation.

Imagination to outcome.

And now, despite knowing that pattern too well, I could feel it forming again quieter, sharper, far more dangerous because this time it existed inside structured spaces that demanded clarity.

Classrooms. Evaluations. Hierarchies built on rules that were not meant to blur.

I had already tested those boundaries once.

A faint unease settled beneath my ribs.

What unsettled me wasn't his attention.

It was the possibility that he might recognise the pattern himself.

Recognition had a way of forcing things into definition. Into confrontation. Into something that required decisions instead of distance.

If this crossed into reality, it would demand answers. Consequences. Endings.

And endings had never interested me.

But neither had losing control of the narrative inside my own head.

The professor's voice continued explaining feedback loops and regulatory control, each term echoing with unintended irony systems that are designed to restore balance when pressure disrupted stability.

I lowered my gaze further, forcing myself to complete the diagram with careful precision, though my thoughts refused to settle.

Avoid him.

The thought returned, firmer now.

Avoid him before this becomes something you cannot step back from.

My pen paused at the final arrow.

And for the first time, I realised the uncertainty wasn't about whether I should stay away.

It was about whether I wanted to.

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