Chapter 1
Sitting alone in a quiet restaurant, I reflect on the whirlwind of thoughts in my mind. Question after question spins through me, yet no answers come. I’m tired… so tired. I try to tell myself that life will always make sense, but the truth is—it doesn’t. Not always.
Saturday morning, I left home before sunrise, at 5 a.m., for a jog. The streetlights glowed softly along empty streets. It felt so peaceful, almost unreal. I saw an old lady helping her dog take a slow walk, and I just watched them, frozen in the stillness of the morning.
I whispered to myself, I wish life could be this quiet… I wish everyone could just move along their own path, busy with their own journey. But no—there is always noise, always drama, always something pulling at the edges of calm.
I go through hard times silently. I hold my struggles close, yet someone might look at me and say, “You have so much going on.” Oh, little world… why can’t you understand that I am not strong enough to face all my trials?
Sometimes I cling to the thought that everything will be alright. I am grateful that I have someone I can turn to. When the world shuts its lights on me, Jesus opens something brighter than words can express.
I ask myself… what would I be without Him? Nothing. I would be nothing. He is the reason I still see flowers during the snow.
The world can feel cold and distant, yet inside me, a quiet light keeps me warm and steady. I have no reason to fear, for the Lord is with me. Through problems and walls that feel unbreakable, I have God—my anchor, my way. He sees me. He knows me.
When I worry, He whispers, “Worry not, kid. I got you.”
When I pray, I hear Him say, “Stay still. I am within you.” That is the biggest flex ever.
Yes, it is cold. Yes, the world is loud, unkind, and uncalled for. But with God, a light glows deep inside me. When my faith trembles and weakens, I run to my marker. He gives me every reason to keep going.
I know there will always be cold seasons in life. But with Jesus, there will be flowers during the snow. And trust me… the feeling of His presence, of His peace, is better than words could ever capture. He secures everything in this life, even the parts we cannot see.
