Prologue
Are you made this way or were you born this way?
That doesn’t matter; we are what we are right now, right? Doesn’t matter how we became this way.
“Have you taken your meds?”
“No.”
“What are you doing then? Go ahead and take it.”
“Okay”
This is just my life now, take this medicine, try this, try that, you should do this, do that.
But there was a time when I could have said, 'Can you help me? Can you just see me for who I really am, and not as what you see me as?' Fuck all that, I really don’t have the energy; I also don’t think I have the power.
My head is very hot, and my hands are very cold. It hurts to speak even though my throat is completely fine, maybe it’s because I laughed too much yesterday, but that can’t be true, fuck that, what do I know. It’s about time I feel something, even if it is just pain.
That medicine is so bitter that even with water, it burns my throat. I feel a very foreign, fuzzy, and hot feeling in my stomach, maybe it’s my mind making me feel that because I don’t want to take it. I’ll take it even if it hurts because it is supposed to help me, and I believe it has a little bit, or at least my blood tests show it.
Ahh~ I shouldn’t speak so rudely, as you are my new guest in mind, and also new to this reality. I should not scare you away
I apologize. My mind likes to wander off into far and unimaginable realities, and I stay with them all day and all night,
Tell me, newcomer, are you curious about me, or are you curious about this world, the world that I have created for you to enjoy? I also do not care for your input. This will have a set path with no alternate end. All you need to be doing right now is shut that bland brain of yours and let me take the wheel.
Names are not important; if they ever were, there wouldn't be two humans with the same one.
