JOEY
I am dreading tonight but i cannot put it off any longer its just giving the wrong impression and she already joked about proposals and holidays together i cant blame her we have been dating for 14 months and even though i made up an excuse to not spend christmas and new year with her in an attempt to make it more casual it still is to long and Ava is a gorgeous sweet person who will find her one easily its just she isnt her noone is her and as fustrating as it is noone can fill her place no matter how similar they might look if the light is right.
Tianna the only person who has made my heart beat the only person who didnt judge me who really knew me and never cared about money or titles or who my family was. We met when we moved to aria i was 8 she had just turned 6 it was her first day of kindy and my first day at a new school she was so shy but put on a brave face for her mum and she was undeniably bbeautiful even then i couldnt not stare at her and be hypnotised with her so when i seen a group of kids teasing her making her run off i immediately did everything i could to make their life unbearable and got into a fist fight with one of the kids older brothers i was worried when i couldnt see her on the playground during lunch and then after i was given litter duty for fighting i found her hiding behind the bbuilding i asked her why she was hiding she said cause she had no friends and no one liked her i said i was her friend and from that day forward our friendship grew i sat with her at lunch she loved climbing trees playing handball and despite her appearance she was a tom boy.
By high school we were inseprable and just before her 16th birthday and my 18th we gave ourselves to eachother the next day her mum had found out she had lied about where she had been and then she was gone her mum dragged her home and told us she had been sent to her dad to keep her out of trouble which i didnt understand Tiana didnt know her father and even if that were truth why didnt she ever write or visit once she was 18 but nothing no one seen her no one knew anything i always feared that her mum was so angry that she went too far and Tiana couldnt handle it and her mum made up the story about her dad i even reported it to authorities who said her mums story checked out but nothing more its been 9 years i have searched and Tiana mitchson has not seen a doctor had a bank account gotten a tfn been employed nothing australia wide, but i wont give up till i know and no matter how much time passes i still ache for her dream of her smile crave her touch i have been with girls that look like her sortoff but it did nothing to ease my want i tried girls who are nothing like her nothing and i think im going to have to accept that i wont get a life where i get married or have kids i wont ever be whole without her.
I meet Ava for dinner and after we walk the short distance to her place she shares with her friends and stop just before and tell her its over it was bad the hurt look on her face the pleading shell change what is wrong the tears then the anger and yelling till one of her housemates came out and got her now back in my penthouse with amazing views i am again alone with my thoughts of Tiana memories and the guilt that i could have done something.
