LOST

Why do I feel so left alone?

It feels as if everyone is growing… while I am stuck behind.

I’ve tried so hard, yet I keep circling in the same waters.

What am I doing wrong?

Where did I get it wrong?

What should be my next step?

I feel so left behind.

I didn’t even realize my phone had been ringing for thirty minutes.

I was lost… deep in my thoughts.

Until the last minute, I sighed and looked down.

My phone was blasting my ringtone.

It was my mum calling.

Gosh… I pray all is well at home.

My heart was pounding like crazy as I answered.

“Hello mummy, good evening.”

“Eeh, how are you, Neche?”

“I’m fine mummy. How are you doing? Hope everyone is okay.”

“Yes oo, my daughter. Your siblings and I are fine… hmmm.” She paused. “It’s just that we have not eaten since morning. And you know I have no other person to turn to.”

Hearing that made my chest tighten.

“Hmmm… okay mummy. I will send something across to you now.”

I said it knowing I only have 3,400 in my account.

I can’t send that for five people to use and cook dinner.

“Hmmm… Lord, when will my own destiny helper locate me?”

I scrolled through my contact list, looking for someone I could call to lend me 10k.

But there was no one. Not even one person.

Metewww… seems I will just borrow from one of these loan apps.

I logged into Tloan and borrowed 25k.

I need money for other things in my apartment too.